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With pride, Underdog
An Interview With SimbaLion
Features and Profiles
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TOP TEN Reasons Boylover.net Matters To You! 10
An Interview With Blondeboy
22
The State of the Childlove Movement
Rich Boy Threads
Testicular Torsion
Editorial Essays
12
BOY FASHION
14
Boys and Health
18
CREATIVE WORk
In Dreams
11
Sandcastles
21
(untitled)
Moonlit boy at the riverside
A Reflection on Brotherhood
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MEMBER REFLECTIONS
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Features and Profiles
An Interview With SimbaLion
by 420Guy
This interview with SimbaLion was conducted in July, 2008. Since joining Boylover.net in September,
2005 he has spent time on staff as a Buddy, Moderator and Entertainment Coordinator. As a member he
continues to contribute to the boylover community in a positive way.
420Guy: You are a very literary cat as shown by
right for them not to read. How dare you suggest
your many contributions to BLN; Modern Boy-
I do so! Which leads to the politics of the “com-
lover Magazine, The Boylover.net Book Club
mon man” : people would rather vote for someone
and the new Biweekly Boylover. What are your
they’d feel more comfortable having a beer with
thoughts on literacy, and how important do you
versus the guy who’s probably better educated.
think education is?
Can you really trust someone with “too much” education? So while we may all embrace the idea of
SimbaLion: Literacy and education are both very
education, there are many people who personally
important, I think. But we live in a time which
reject it, and participate in a politics that requires
devalues both of these in practice, if not in theory.
rejection of it.
For instance, politicians always say that education
is a top priority, but those who win are often those
Pedophiles in relationships with boys can do more
who are better at manipulating an uninformed
in this regard, I think. How often will a pedophile
public. How seriously can we take a politician
tell a boy in his life that he should do his home-
who speaks about the value of education when he
work instead of going out with him to the movies?
hopes to gain power by treating people like they’re
It’s easy to indulge a boy’s wishes, especially if
stupid? And sadly, we live in a time when people
you find time with him so precious, but indulgence
are happy to embrace being stupid.
isn’t always in the long-term best interests of a
boy : not to mention the society that the boy will
There’s unprecedented opportunity in public
be growing into.
education these days, and yet the vast majority of
people find reading a bore. Most people who are
420Guy: You seem to have some strong political
able to do so don’t read books any more. We have
views. Do you think there is any hope left in the
a whole generation of young people growing up
current political structure?
who know that the Internet is the easy way out.
SimbaLion: My politics tend to be pragmatic. I’m
Why read a book or do research on a subject when
more interested in the art of the possible than the
you can spend 2 minutes on Google supposedly
pursuit of high ideals. People with high ideals vote
finding everything you need to know? Why read
for Ralph Nader and get George W. Bush elected.
when there are more important things to do, like
420: Have you ever thought of getting into poli-
watching TV or a movie, or spending a few hours
killing something online?
tics yourself?
Many people think that it’s almost a constitutional
Simba: Who says that I’m not already?
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420: When did you first have the idea to start Mod-
online form, is an anthology of writings that one
ern Boylover Magazine, and what was your initial
can hold in his hands and say “ah, here’s a reflec-
goal behind it?
tion of what was going on at that time!” Would it
be a complete reflection? No; nothing ever could
Simba: There were a few. I thought it would be
be. But it would be a lasting reflection. And the
cool to have a general interest magazine for a pe-
“lasting” part of it was important to me. We live
dophile audience, one that struck a middle ground
in a period of time that thinks of pedophiles as
between being informative and being fun. I had
unhinged baby rapists. My hope was that the maga-
a few notions of what I didn’t want the magazine
zine would be a part of the evidence : no doubt a
to be as well. I didn’t want it to be dogmatic and
very small part : that people could look back on
politically serious, treating its readers like partici-
and say, “Well, they weren’t only unhinged baby
pants in a movement. I also didn’t want it to be
rapists.”
the boylove equivalent of Maxim, with cover-tocover pictures of hot boys and articles all about
I’m also interested in whether pedophiles have a
sex or the physical aspects of boys. We no doubt
different cultural sensibility, a way of seeing the
could use a magazine like that, but not this time
world that is shared and different from the rest of
around. And I wanted it to emphasize non-fiction
the world, in the way that urban gay men are said
material, since this is harder to come by.
to possess. Discovering it isn’t and wasn’t a goal
of the magazine per se, but it’s also something I
Which pedophile hasn’t written a short story or a
think of when I think about the lasting evidence of
poem at some point in his life about his attraction
ourselves that we will leave behind. At some point,
to boys? Pedophile creative works are fairly com-
someone will need to write the pedophile equiva-
mon, but the vast majority of them don’t meet
lent of Susan Sontag’s ‘Notes on Camp.’
the kind of aesthetic criteria that you’d want for
a published magazine. Not that it should : a lot of
420: Did you find it difficult at first to generate
this work is written for therapeutic or erotic rea-
interest in the project? If so, why do you think
sons, and there’s nothing wrong with that. But that
that is?
which is therapeutically or sexually necessary isn’t
Simba: It’s the type of thing that people support,
always art.
but fewer will have time to write for it, or will
I was also interested in the idea of the magazine
want to write for it. Like reading, writing is not
as something you could store in a time machine.
something that people look forward to, especially
An online forum is an awkward fit for a time ma-
if it’s writing that’s in essay form, and not the type
chine. The writing is transitive : always in motion,
of quick sentence-making that one can do on an
always changing over time, with one hot topic be-
online forum. But let’s face it : no one gets paid,
ing pushed to the second page just hours after the
and contributing to something like the magazine is
new hot topic emerges : and a lot of the material
decidedly a volunteer effort, and I’m pleased that
isn’t the type of stuff that would be of interest
there are people who have the time and interest to
even to the original posters six months not to men-
contribute what they can. We certainly have talent
tion six years down the road. A magazine, even in
and skill on the board, and we can see that talent
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reflected in different areas, including these pub-
420: As a Buddy, you are often a member’s first
lications. Often the board focuses on the lowest
contact in the boylove community. Are there any
common denominator : who can make the silliest
stories you would like to share? Did you build
post and get praise for it? In that environment, it’s
any lasting friendships through being a Buddy?
difficult for people to stand out with the best of
Simba: When I was on staff, the typical breakdown
what they can do.
was something like this: for every 10 New Kids that
My hope is and was that these publications would
you were assigned, you could expect two of them
reflect many different voices from the board. Nei-
to become full members by making their ten posts.
ther of them would be very interesting as the sole
And if you took ten of this latter group, only two
reflection of a single voice. There are, however,
of them become long-term active posters on the
only so many hours in the day, and people only
board. Many would still be around, but only lurk-
have time to write something after they’ve worked
ing in The Gallery, or maybe making one post every
the hours they need to work and done everything
three months or so in one of other rooms. So this
else that needs to be done in their lives. So it can
is roughly 1 in 50 New Kids who will become known
be exhausting trying to assemble enough mate-
by their posts on the board : and, come to think
rial, which is the chief reason why I thought that
of it, that really does fit the ratio of active mem-
a once-every-six-months publication schedule for
bers that we can see. We have 50,000 members
the magazine made sense. To allow not only the
in theory, but maybe no more than a thousand of
accumulation of enough material, but to make it
them have a presence such that you can say “Oh
personally less taxing to organize it.
yeah, that guy!” when they post : if that! I actually
don’t mind The Gallery lurkers and the people who
420: You were an active staff member for al-
don’t post a lot. If the community offers them no
most two years. Did you openly volunteer to join
more than a place to download boy pictures and
the staff crew, or were you asked by a fellow
talk about them with glee, what’s wrong with that?
member(s)?
Owing to the “1 in 50” rule, there aren’t that
Simba: I joined the board in September 2005 and
many former New Kids that I established last-
became a Buddy that December. I didn’t know that
ing bonds with, but there are a few. Mostly, the
you could write to the Buddy Manager or the Mod-
friendships that I made were among fellow staff
erator Manager to let them know you were inter-
members at the time, or through other New Kids
ested in a job. I first heard about the possibility of
that I met through threads in The Entry. Like every
becoming a Buddy when I received a message from
Buddy, I’ve also had my share of dicey New Kids as
one of the Senior Buddies. This was at a time when
there were more English-speaking Buddies being
well. One of my first New Kids was so happy about
hired than now. Today, there’s more consistent
becoming a member of the board that he offered
need for Buddies who can speak a language other
to send me naked pictures of boys that he knew.
than English, allowing them to participate in one of
I gently reminded him of board rules, and never
the rooms of the International Wing. It’s no coinci-
heard from him again.
dence that English is not the primary language for
three of the current Senior Buddies.
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420: If we were to go back in time and follow
before the thought of getting naked with them
an 8 year old SimbaLion into his bedroom, what
entered my mind. I can probably trace several
could we expect to see?
fetishes to this period as well. One of the first
boys I really fell for was an all-around jock, and I
Simba: Probably a mess. My packrat tendencies
can remember, for instance, how incredibly hot he
expressed themselves at a very early age, and I
looked sweating in his baseball uniform.
haven’t really outgrown them. The last time a
friend came to visit me, I arranged a hotel room,
420: What was your school social life like? Did
because I couldn’t bear the idea of cleaning up.
the young Simba have a large group of friends, or
There are people who have their desks organized
were you more of a loner?
and very clean. Mine is the kind where there are
Simba: I was well known at school without really
papers and upturned books strewn everywhere,
being a member of the most popular clique. Since
but I somehow know where things are when I need
adult life often reduplicates life at school, it’s
to find them. These are no doubt signs of an intro-
probably not surprising that this statement prob-
verted personality. It matters more to me what’s in
ably describes my status at Boylover.net as well.
the papers and books than in them being well orga-
I did a lot of extracurricular activities : school
nized. So the young SimbaLion was an introspective
government, etc. : and was also active in class-
child, prone to reading and other flights of imagi-
room discussions. So I was fairly well known. And
nation, who cared less for the niceties of making a
even though I didn’t belong to the popular clique,
good appearance, including in his bedroom.
I had a few friends who did, which always helps, I
420: Did you have a favorite series or author
suppose. As for close friends : the people I spent
when you were a boy?
time with over the weekend : that group was
fairly small. Most of my weekends were spent in
Simba: Oddly, I can’t recall any single book that
the company of one, two, or three friends. Oc-
stands out as being a childhood favorite. My book
casionally there would be larger groups, but I was
reading was fairly eclectic, and there are a few
less interested in those. And I was never a fan of
things that I read that made more sense to me
parties, in large part because the typical goal of
when I encountered them later in life (like Crime
a party : finding someone to make out with at the
and Punishment). I also collected a lot of comic
end of the night : was something that my closeted
books, and enjoyed many different titles : The
gay self wasn’t really that interested in.
Uncanny X-Men, the Alan Moore run on The Swamp
Thing, and just about anything that Frank Miller
420: Could you describe your ideal young friend?
did.
Simba: He knows my sexual needs and fulfills
420: Did you enjoy school as a child?
them. And he likes to walk around the house in
white briefs and tube socks. And he likes to eat out
Simba: Yes, very much so. It was intellectually and
at fancy restaurants and go to the opera. In other
creatively inspiring, and : later on : sexually inspir-
words, Freddie Highmore.
ing as well, even before I knew what sex really
was. I had attractions to other boys develop long
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420: You are known on BLN for having many fe-
boy’s feet (or shoes, legs, socks, etc.) in public, or
tishes. What are your thoughts on them? How did
look at pictures of them, and not be violating any
you come to realize you had them?
rules. What a wonderful thing.
Simba: The traditional explanation for why people
420: You are also a homosexual; are you openly
develop sexual fetishes is interesting, but not fully
gay in your offline life?
compelling.
Simba: Yes. Which in addition to being true is also
According to the traditional psychoanalytic view,
a good cover. It frees me from having to talk about
people who develop fetishes fear or are trauma-
relationships and sex, because people just as-
tized by thinking about the genitals. As a result,
sume that I’m involved in some kind of gay sexual
their sexual interests get ‘displaced’ onto some-
underground, or some such. It’s not the kind of
thing else (a non-genital part of the body : like the
thing people want to bring up over coffee, or when
foot : or a non-bodily object : like a shoe). After
you’re at their house for a backyard barbecue.
this fetishistic ‘displacement,’ people can develop
420: So, are you involved in a gay sexual under-
a ‘fixation’ on the thing that now attracts them
ground, or some such?
sexually.
Simba: We don’t talk about such things. Recently,
My problem with this theory, which is my problem
though, some have questioned why I have silver-
with traditional psychoanalysis in general is that it
plated dog bowls in my living room, but don’t own
believes that procreative sex is the normal state of
a dog.
things, and that every other sexual experience is
therefore abnormal. So whole categories of people
420: In countries where people are more open
: those who desire sexual relations with members
about homosexuality (such as the United States,
of the same sex, for example : are deemed abnor-
Canada) there is still a level of discrimination.
mal just because they have no interest in procre-
Have you ever felt discriminated against person-
ative sex.
ally, or had to overcome barriers because of your
sexuality?
Relatedly, the traditional view also holds that sexual pleasure is only correct if it comes from procre-
Simba: Oh certainly. But most of the time it’s
ative sex. For me, I prefer not to be so judgmental
pretty low-key. Anytime someone calls someone
about such matters. And perhaps rightfully so,
else a “faggot” and means it as an insult, or says
since a boy wearing a pair of tube socks can really
something is “gay” and means it as an insult,
excite me. If something is sexually pleasurable, I
there’s homophobia there. It may not be person-
say enjoy it, rather than worry about whether it
ally intended, but it’s there nevertheless. But this
is normal or not, or whether you should be finding
is much different from not renting an apartment
pleasure in things that another person might find
to someone because he’s gay, or something like
strange.
that. Thankfully, I’ve lived in cities with active
gay populations, so I haven’t experienced serious
Finally, having a boy-related fetish can be ben-
discrimination, but I certainly brush up against
eficial. Someone who loves boyfeet can look at a
homophobia in its lower forms all the time.
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420Guy: Top or bottom?
might just accept this distinction, and others will
just laugh at the clumsy attempt to justify a politi-
Simba: I like to be dominated. Even when I’m
cal view through language, and note that the only
doing the dominating, I have a hidden need to
thing really separating terrorists from freedom
be dominated. After all, what’s hotter than a top
fighters is that freedom fighters are terrorists on
who’s been overpowered and made someone else’s
our side. So “boylover” is a lie in much the same
bitch? Boy or man, I crave someone I can submit
way that “freedom fighter” is a lie, to the extent
myself to. In other words, Freddie Highmore.
that it’s a term intended to efface the sexual at-
420: Can you remember the first time you real-
traction we have towards boys. Pedophile, the
ized that you might be a pedophile? What were
term they want for us, is more upfront; pedosexual
your initial thoughts and feelings about it?
is even better. Indeed, it’s more consistent with
the way other orientations are described. We gen-
Simba: Oddly, it was probably more of a problem
erally describe gay men as “homosexuals,” after
dealing with “being gay” than “being a pedophile.”
all, not “androphiles.”
In part, this is because one’s attraction to boys
doesn’t really seem so odd when you’re closer in
420: Do you think that a pedophile should be
age to them. It’s the old “gay teen or teen boy-
law-abiding above all else?
lover” phenomenon. It’s quite different being a
Simba: That is rather slippery of you, Agent Star-
14-year-old attracted to a 10-year-old versus being
ling. Is sex a basic human need? If so, what’s a
a 34-year-old attracted to a 10-year-old. And since
person to do if his sexual desires are against the
I was always also attracted to people my age as
law? That’s a tough question to answer, yet it’s one
well as boys, I didn’t really think of it being one
of the most essential ones we face.
thing or another. Plus, the culture thought and still
thinks that gay men are pedophiles at some level
420: Is there anything that you can tell us about
anyway, so this all seemed like part of the pack-
yourself that we might not know?
age.
Simba: I’ve been trying to keep it a secret, but I
420: You will often use the word pedophile in-
have a thing for Freddie Highmore.
stead of boylover, what are your thoughts on the
use of the word ‘boylove’? Is there a difference,
should it matter which word we use?
Simba: The problem with “boylover” is that it
often sounds like a euphemism. “No no : I’m not
someone who wants to have sex with boys : I LOVE
boys!” It’s become one of those terms that seems
so evasive that whenever anyone uses it, you wonder what else they’re lying about. It’s like when
a politician tries to make a distinction between
“terrorists” and “freedom fighters.” Some people
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TOP TEN Reasons Boylover.net Matters To You!
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It’s an escape for me from offline life that helps bring down
my heart rate!
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Because this board has been an education both about life and
male sexuality.
8
To just talk about boys constantly without the audience getting sick and tired, cos it’s basically all they want to talk
about too.
7
It’s a special place where I can go to get away from all the
stress I have.
6
Because of all the great
people I have met on here!
5
The freedom to be friend and have a bit of fun.
4
Because where else can you tell people your fantasy of Cole
Sprouse and Freddie Highmore getting it on without people
lookin’ at you funny?
3
Because it feels like home,
I can put my feet up here.
2
Because here there are 54744 persons who have the same
feelings as I do for boys.
1
To feel more comfortable about being a boylover.
ds wi th
“S ome i have be come fr ien
art an d
some have to uche d my he
me !” T.B.L
a fe w have se en th e re al
“...plus there are heaps of cool people here.
and they all like me:-D” boy Whisp erer
Statements posted & voted on by members of Boylover.net in July, 2008. Special thanks to Mr Bolo, Kylito, two boys together, boy Whisperer,
doodinthemood, ELP, imbooboo, tyrew01, BubbleGum, T.B.L, thelittlehappyprince & 420Guy for their contributions! Also thanks to Underdog,
Vanitas and everyone who voted!
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CREATIVE WORk
In Dreams
by Pantherion
The boy of my dreams
sheds his jeans
licks his lips of shining red
as he jumps into my bed.
If horses could fly
high in the sky !
But did they not in Ancient Greece?
Where men would teach and boys would please?
Or is that just a sorry myth
to cling to over the abyss?
If horses could fly
high in the sky
my dreams wouldn’t shatter
my dreams wouldn’t die.
So I’ll pin my dreams on horses,
the winged variety,
and study Greek in evening courses
quite sure that I will see:
That horses can fly
high in the sky
and that boys shed jeans
not only in dreams.
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Editorial Essays
The State of the Childlove Movement
by Crake
As we all know, what began in the seventies as the
lantes accosted that innocent family because they
much maligned and now defunct organization NAM-
happened to have moved into a house once belong-
BLA in North America (in Europe: DPA, Martijn, and
ing to an individual listed on Perverted Justice, we
IPCE), has become nothing more than a fragmented
were at the center of that just as much as they
batch of privately owned message boards and photo
were. When vigilantes attacked that daycare center
galleries. There is no movement because there is no
for supposedly allowing an employee listed on their
chance of anything less than life threatening retali-
database to work there, it was us that they were
ation from a vast, well organized, and well funded
targeting. We exist, and so long as we exist, we
vigilante counter-movement that has been wreak-
make impacts on society. Our choice now is, what
ing havoc on society, and profiting handsomely from
kind of impact do we want to make? Passivity leads
it, for the past three years using pedophilia as a
to hysteria, activity can lead to rationality.
scapegoat.
The Childlove Movement is no longer a pedophile
However, criticism has been swift. With pending
movement, but a human one. We can’t stand up
lawsuits over the accidental death of a suspected
for the right of adults and children to have sexual
(not charged) individual spurned on and encircled
relations anymore, the issue has gotten so out of
at his own home by Dateline camera crews assisted
control. Bygone are the days of the “Boylove Mani-
by vigilante group Perverted Justice, the media
festo”. These are different times, and we need to
has been beginning to take note of the dangers in
change our purpose. Outside our little play areas,
this trend. With a hit list of more than 2000 so far
boylove is one big joke. It isn’t taken seriously by
untried people, trials underway all over the United
anyone, and when we make it an issue by being
States, convictions using evidence obtained illegally
serious, such as the case with Rookiee and Lindsay
(via Perverted Justice vigilantism) are becoming
Ashford, we face life-threatening prejudice to such
common place in the American justice system, and
an extreme that there is no martyr’s remorse, no
it won’t be long before this establishes a very dan-
historical vindication — just utter personal destruc-
gerous legal precedent for all areas of prosecution
tion that continues long after we’ve given in.
to follow.
One only has to look at NAMBLA to see the effects.
We are silenced, but we still exist. Our presence in
Despite being long defunct, it is still harassed in the
society is unleashing a whole new array of social ills
media as if it were a viable and working presence.
perpetrated by those who rule though hysteria. We
Despite being long defunct, many boylovers count
have to be mindful of this situation, seeing as we
on these organizations to provide for the frontlines,
are the scapegoat for these atrocities. When vigi-
as if it were still possible to those who wish to
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make a difference to do so. How ignorant and far
such antagonism is counter productive to keep-
removed we have become, on either side. Young
ing children safe. We have to make the children’s
boylovers are becoming passive pawns in the social
safety and happiness the key issue, not pedophile
upheaval, fighting with each other for superficial
rights, and we’ll remain true to our beliefs as child-
status on message boards when their unique talents
lovers.
and perspectives could be ushering in a new era for
Privately, we’ll live the way we speak, and change
our kind.
one mind at a time. This is the only way change
Our new century is a dynamic one though. The
will happen. Continuing to campaign for pedophile
Childlove Movement must not get distracted by
rights is only digging the hole deeper in a fruitless
the ignorance of those parading around message
pursuit. That’s why I encourage you all to write
boards with talk about changing laws for our sexual
editorials, blogs, phone in responses, to comment
purposes, or making something legal that is now il-
and call into question. Be the rational person in the
legal. We must also not get drawn in to useless and
room without having to come out as a pedophile
endless debate on topics concerning these pointless
attempting to “surprise” everyone else with your
issues such as the meaning of “consent” or whether
good nature. That never works. Love your yf’s, but
children possess it. We have to change our way of
don’t be expecting them to spread the good word
thinking.
about pedophilia in the future. Society won’t ever
listen to children, not at the policy making level at
The current discussions were NAMBLA talking points
least.
as far back as Ginsberg and the gay movement and
are no longer relevant. This mode of conversation
In the coming century, we have to put our mes-
has been nothing but a pointless distraction for
sage out there without identifying “ourselves” as
the last decade, it has been set in the fabric of our
the messenger. Irrational minds are taking control
communities to keep us low, inhibited, and pur-
of the conversation for us, and we are silencing
posefully ignorant of the real issues facing our kind,
ourselves out for superficial and outdated reasons.
by those who stand to profit from the practice.
We can not afford to be passive any longer in this
One doesn’t have to look farther than the pages of
climate.
this magazine to see examples of our passive negli-
This is the state we find ourselves in. Be safe, but
gence. This self-repressing cycle must end.
more importantly, be PROACTIVE.
In the new century, proactive boylovers no longer
will come out in support of pedophilia, but rather
come out as a rational mind against the absolutely
vulgar and completely irrational perspectives of
those condemning it. If someone comes out in any
media with such violent antagonism expressed
towards our kind, we have to be there, writing our
rational response — never condoning pedophilia or
child molestation, but stating quite clearly that
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BOY FASHION
Rich Boy Threads
by Blondeboy
In this edition of “Boys Quarterly” we get to take a glimpse at the gear of the extremely privileged little guys. The attire we’re taking a look at come courtesy of world-renowned name that needs no introduction, Giorgio Armani. Unlike some of the brands I have covered in previous issues, this label makes
the vast majority of its money with adult lines. But, alas, I saw it completely fitting to give his Junior
line some credit and lets face it, there are bl’s out there(including myself) who get hot and bothered
with boys dressed in the crème de la crème of the fashion industry.
I wasn’t able to gather as much information on Giorgio’s clothing as I was on some of the past designers,
but I do have some very good pictures that I think will make up for a slight lack of writing material. I
have decided to break this article up into different sections. I wanted to make sure I had a little something for everybody here so I have gathered pictures starting at about age 4 or so up to our beloved
tweens. So, there’s two sections, one for the little guys and another for the ones just starting to sprout.
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Let s get on to the goo ds, an d tak e a
loo k at the ult ra-pam pered wo rld of
the Ar ma ni we ari ng 7 an d under set
.
Thi s firs t outfit is a sim ple t-shirt an d
sho rts, but someho w bec aus e of all
that Gio rgi o Ar ma ni sta nds for ma kes
it see m so much hot ter to me .
Thi s nex t loo k is bec om ing mo re an d
mo re pop ula r in bot h the adu lt an d
chi ldren’s fashio n indust ry. It tak es
the
sho rts an d t-shirt loo k an d dre sse s it
up a bit by adding a cas ual bla zer. I fee
l
thi s outfit app ears a bit aw kward but
I
wo uld be lying if I said I didn’t fee l tha
t
a certai n boy can definitely pul l it off
.
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ado rable and ver y
Thi s nex t loo k is one I find to be sup er
pai r of pan ts wit h
sophis ticated . It inc orp orates a nic e
t and voi la. You
a pre sse d but ton up shi rt, add s a ves
le guy that is sure
have a sup er mo der n loo k for you r litt
it, that is wh y I
to dri ve the BL’s cra zy. An d lets fac e
le way to attem pt
wr ite the se art icle s. Its my ow n litt
g to all of us.
to ma ke the wo rld a litt le mo re aro usin
From that litt le bun dle of
cutene ss, we wo rk our way
up to a ful l on sui t min us
the tie. Ag ain, thi s outfit
tak es a timele ss cla ssic
from the adu lt line s, and
put s it on a litt le guy. An d
as u can see , the res ult s
can be stu nni ng. The formu la here is pre tty sim ple .
Tak e a sex y lad , dol l him
up in hot clo the s and u get
a boy that no res pec table
per v wo uld tur n dow n.
boy, a t we en if you wil l.
From here we mo ve on to a litt le older
-12 yea r old s in sho rts
The re we ren’t any pic tures of the 10
thi ng and sta rte d from
and a t-sh irt so I too k the nex t bes t
’s for mu la is pre tty simthe re. As wit h the litt le guys, Gio rgio
oling boy lovers . I kno w
ple , sex y boy + vin tage clo the s = dro
doe sn’t see it that way,
that the res t of the wo rld pro bably
The onl y thi ng that is rebut we all kno w his rea l intent ion s.
t the T-shirt is a V-neck .
ally dif ferent abo ut thi s outfit is tha
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Nex t we have thi s same boy in the
same outfit, wit h a sna zzy bla zer
and u have a wh ole dif ferent sty le.
Las tly, we mo ve ont o
eve ryb ody’s ero tic
fav ori te, sw imwear.
An d I have to say that
thi s sec tio n is a strong
sug ges tio n that he
might be int o our litt le
object s of aff ect ion
as we ll. I me an, he put
his name on the bac k
of a tigh t-fitti ng boys
spe edo. That is somethi ng a high percen tage of us cou ld onl y
dre am to do. An d I have
to say the spread eag le
on the bac k ma kes
me thi nk ext remely
naught y thi ngs .
Thi s is Mr. Arm ani’s way of hanging
10 in the wo rld of the
sur fer boy loo k. Eve ryb ody kno ws tha
t boa rd sho rts have
bee n pop ula r on the We st Coa st for
a long time. In fac t, the y
ear ned the ir name from the sur fers
wh o init iall y wo re the m.
Now, the y have per me ate d the res t of
the cou ntr y and oth er
cou ntr ies as we ll bec aus e the y are a
highly fashio nable pie ce
of clo thi ng that is ver y versat ile. Som
e boys eve n we ar the m
in the ir dai ly act ivit ies. An d aga in, u
wil l not ice how he has
dro ppe d the wa ist ban d ver y ver y low
on his version of boa rdies and pic ked an abs olu tely stu nni ng
boy to mo del the m.
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Boys and Health
Testicular Torsion
by Liam96
Not long ago, about a week, I was checking on my son in the shower. He impressed on me that something felt weird with one of his testicles. He said that it hurt, and he was having pains in the lower right
quadrant of his abdomen as well has his right testicle. To me everything seemed fine. Nevertheless, I
took him to the doctor who checked him out and ran some tests. By this time my son was in real discomfort. We found out that he had twisted some important equipment while playing. Below is a very
real issue that all parents and sons should be aware of.
Advertising Disclaimer
Causes:
Testicular torsion is a disorder in which the testi-
Injury to the scrotum can initiate a muscle spasm
cles rotate (twist) and strangle the spermatic cord,
that cause the testicles to twist. Some cases result
which consists of blood vessels, lymphatic vessels,
from inadequate connective tissue that “anchors”
nerves, and the duct that carries sperm from the
the testicle within the scrotum. Many cases are
body (vas deferens), cutting off the blood supply
idiopathic (i.e., have no known cause).
to the testicles. Torsion can cause shrinkage (atro-
Signs and Symptoms:
phy) and tissue death (necrosis), and may require
Blood in semen, Lower abdominal pain, Lump
surgical removal of the testicles (orchiectomy) if
in testicle, Nausea and vomiting, Sudden severe
not treated promptly. Torsion often occurs during
testicular pain, followed by diminishing pain after
sleep.
several hours (after necrosis begins to set in),
Incidence and Prevalence:
Redness of scrotum, Swelling of one testicle
Testicular torsion primarily affects infants in the
Diagnosis:
first year of life and adolescent boys age 12-18,
although it can occur at any age. Males with one or
Advertising Disclaimer
both testicles not descended into scrotum (cryp-
A patient history and physical examination is usu-
torchidism) develop testicular torsion more often
ally sufficient to diagnose testicular torsion. Tes-
than the general population.
ticular torsion may cause symptoms (e.g., testicular pain and swelling) similar to epididymitis (i.e.,
Risk Factors:
inflammation of the tubule where sperm is stored)
Injury to the scrotum or groin and vigorous physical
and diagnostic tests may be necessary.
activity are risk factors.
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A true story
Color Doppler sonography (color printout of an ultrasound echo test) is used to identify the absence
I’ve never told this story to such a wide audience.
of blood flow typically found in a twisted testicle,
Most people don’t know this happened to me but I
which distinguishes the condition from epididymi-
feel compelled to tell everyone about it, and may-
tis.
be just maybe I can help some young 12-18 year
old cope with this extremely painful experience.
Urinalysis (analyzing chemical composition of
urine) can be used to rule out bacterial infections.
It was May of 1993 (the link goes to things that
happened in 1993 - good stuff!!!)
Surgical exploration may be necessary if diagnosis
cannot be made using other methods.
I was a ripe 13 years old and in the 7th grade. I
Treatment:
wish I had some photos of me when I was 13 years
Treatment involves untwisting (detorsion), manu-
old. I was extremely hot trust me with that. Imag-
ally if possible and surgically if necessary. Surgi-
ine a young Gregg just entering puberty with a
cal detorsion requires anesthesia followed by an
lean semi-hairless body! I was in a couple of bas-
incision in the scrotum. The testicles are untwisted
ketball leagues and played sports on the side with
and evaluated for necrosis. Dead tissue is removed;
my friends so I stayed very active. The day arrived
removal of one or both testicles may be necessary.
and it was a warm spring evening. My brother, his
If necrosis has not occurred, the healthy testicle(s)
friend Doug & I decided to go play some hoops
are then sutured (stitched) to the scrotal wall to
(basketball - duh!) at Stonehill College.
avoid recurrence.
We got to the courts and the basketball rims
Prognosis:
were really low. They weren’t the typical 10 feet
If torsion is diagnosed and treated within 5-6
high - these were more like 9 feet high. Well we
hours, the prognosis is good. The more time that
played basketball for a couple of hours. We played
elapses before resolution worsens the prognosis.
“Horse” “21” & “Around the World” When we were
After 18-24 hours, necrosis usually develops and
finished playing we all tried to grab the rim and
indicates removal of the affected testicle (orchiec-
dunk the ball. Well my brother and Doug had no
tomy).
problem doing it. My brother is 6’2, Doug is 5’11
& in 1993 I was 5’7. I could only grab the net not
the rim. I tried grabbing the rim a good handful of
times. Well on the ride home I started to get these
stomach aches which weren’t uncommon for me
during this time. I would often get really bad stomach aches and then they would eventually go away.
So as you can see I was thinking it was just another
bad stomach ache. We got home and the “stomach ache” persisted for about 2 hours. I said to my
mom my stomach ache won’t go away and it really
hurts, I think I need to go to the emergency room.
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So she called the emergency room to get info on
if they could take me immediately and so I went
outside and I began throwing up uncontrollably. My
sister came out and tried to comfort me but I kept
getting sick so she went in and told my mom. My
mom, sister & I then all headed to the emergency
room at Brockton Hospital.
We arrived at the hospital and they took us in immediately. They asked me where the pain was and
I told them my stomach so they started to push
on my abdomen, my testicles and stomach. They
finally found where it hurt most when they pushed
on my testicle and they determined it was either a
twisted testicle or a tumor in my testicle but they
needed to do x-rays to be sure. Now as I waited for
them to get the x-ray room ready the pain was getting worse and worse. I’ve never been in such bad
pain in my life. I was rolled up in a ball, squeezing my mom and sisters hands, yelling for them to
get me some pain killers but no one could get me
anything cause I needed to go into surgery.
They took the x-ray’s and determined it was a
twisted testicle and it needed to be operated on
immediately! I was taken into emergency surgery
and they untwisted my testicle. I later found out
it was twisted 6 times inside and it was the worse
case they had ever seen! If I hadn’t gotten the
surgery I would have lost my testicle because what
basically happens is the testicle isn’t getting any
oxygen so it just dies. I was also the proud parent
of 6 stitches in my testicle - ouch!
I went to a Urologist once a week for him to check
it all out and on the last visit he pulled the stitches
out - Ouch!
I hope you enjoyed my story. It’s a story of the
ages that the whole family can enjoy!
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CREATIVE WORk
CREATIVE WORk
Sandcastles
by _ami_
My hands shape an image,
once the world
Towering testimony to tenacity
is beautiful
My mind seeks a flight
to the boy with blue skin
Caged dove remnants of a prevailing culture
not now
Soul’s sight, piercing eyes enraptured smile
his blue skin
We cry, through curved lips, thrashing
is only hidden
Fragile wing, empty bones snap,
behind all the blue skin people
White, to crimson,
hidden from the distance
As our Tears and Blood mix
the boy with the blue
skin
We smile, he glances again
then feel
An invisible hand, divinity, turns him,
sorrow inside
Pulls away, away,
My heart, sunken treasure
dont overlook
lost to the world,
that feeling
lost to me,
dont lost the feeling
lost to the small boy, who cried in his smile
over what going on
we who know
wonder and amazement
Artwork by Caiman
At the bottom of the ocean
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Features and Profiles
An Interview With Blondeboy
by Underdog
Blondeboy has been a member of BoyLover.net since February 2004. He is a regular contributor to the
fashion section of MBM. This interview was done in June 2008.
Underdog: When you first noticed your attrac-
Bb: No, I realized quickly that there were way bet-
tion to boys, did you think that you were just a
ter parts to the board.
homosexual at the time? Did you initially think
Ud: How have you evolved into yourself as a boy-
that your attraction to boys your age would grow
lover since joining the site?
into an attraction in to men your age?
Bb: Well, there are a few very influential people
Blondeboy: Yes, I initially thought I was simply a
who have played a big role in creating the perv you
homosexual. The answer to the second question
see today. I still feel like I have a lot to learn about
isn’t as simple. It’s complicated because I am into
myself to be honest.
guys my own age too but not nearly as much as
boys. I think I truly realized I was different when I
Ud: Has your AOA (Age of Attraction) changed
was about 15 or 16 and was still wanking thinking
since you became a member of BoyLover.net?
about 10 year olds.
Bb: Yeah. It has gotten a little lower. The upper
Ud: When did you decide that you were in fact a
end hasn’t come down but the bottom end has. My
“boylover?”
AOA kind of goes through phases. When I joined my
AOA was like 10-21. I was 19 when I joined.
Bb: It’s pretty simple. I obsessed about Haley Joel
Osment when “The Sixth Sense” came out. It was
Ud: Who have been some important boys in your
pretty obvious then. I didn’t know the term boy-
life? How have these boys changed your life for
lover though. I remember one time in the mall
better or worse?
when I was going to buy the DVD and my mom
Bb: They have all been important in one way or
asked me why I was so into it. I could sense she
was suspicious.
another. The first boy was Bailey and he was more
Ud: If I remember correctly, you came across the
cer practice together when we ran into these high
board like me and many other members. How did
school kids. They were gay bashers, big time. They
you come to find BoyLover.net?
literally beat him to death. I couldn’t do anything
a bf than an yf. We were walking home from soc-
to stop them. They weren’t prosecuted as adults
Bb: I admit, I was looking for pictures.
because they were only 16. When they turned 21
Ud: As you evolved into your membership on the
they were released.
board, did you immediately leave the galleries
Then there was Neil. He was the little brother of
or did you lurk before realizing that there was
my best friend and was a god among boys. Next
more out there?
was Dylan. He was the boy that I was closest too. I
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truly loved him. I was 21 when I met him,
know you’re probably jackin now but let’s focus. I
he was 13.
have a simple rule about boys clothes, when they
are single digit ages dress them to be cute. For
Ud: So has the incident with Bailey affected how
double digits, dress them sexy and preppy.
you feel about society as a whole? Has it changed
Ud: Let’s talk about images. Is there a certain
how you display your sexual orientation?
image that you couldn’t imagine life without?
Bb: Yes, it has some. I don’t flaunt being gay at
all.
Ud: As these boys get older, do you keep
contact with them? How is your relationship
now?
Bb: I visited Neil a few times when I was in Cali
last year. Dylan is passed too. Car crash. After
Dylan came Tyler. My relationship with him is
over. It ended with him hating me.
Ud: Let’s change gears. In past issues of the
magazine, you have done articles about boys
fashion. What has drawn you to boys fashion? If I gave you a hot ten year old right now,
Bb: This image is just two cuties who are obviously
how would you dress him?
very good friends. Boy friendship is so special.
Bb: Well boys and fashion are my two favorite
Ud: What are your thoughts about boy-related
things. It just kind of makes sense. To answer the
porn? Are all the boys who appear in such mate-
second question, it would depend on a few things
rial victims of exploitation, even though they
about his physical attributes. His hair and eye color
may not think so? Should one feel guilty about
would determine the possible colors of the shirts
seeking or finding pleasure in such material?
I would put him in and his body type would deter-
Bb: No, I don’t believe that at all. I was a bit of a
mine a lot of things.
porn actor and I loved it.
Ud: Blonde hair, blue eyes, light skinned, skinny
Ud: This next question could be the most used
and semi muscular. His hair is in a surfer cut.
question but I think that it can give us a perspec-
Kind of bowl cut but messier.
tive on where you stand right now. What has
your membership on this board meant to you?
Bb: I see him in a red shirt. I’m thinking a Volcom
polo or maybe Gap. No boy doesn’t look cute in
Bb: It means a place to be myself. A place where I
Gap. Especially the younger lads. White looks good
can vent about frustrations that all boylovers deal
on blue eyed blondes too. It really picks up their
with in the real world. It’s a simple answer for me
eyes. He would also have some cute little plaid
really.
polo chino shorts and some cute little flip flops. I
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CREATIVE WORK
Moonlit boy at the riverside
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by Caiman
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MEMBER REFLECTIONS
A Reflection on Brotherhood
by Underdog
“To the outside world we all grow old but not to brothers. We know each other as we always were. We
know each other’s hearts. We share private family jokes. We remember family feuds and secrets, family grief’s and joys. We live outside the touch of time.” Clara Ortega
I can remember the first night in great detail.
you are twelve, would you like to take the man
We were both sleeping in my brother’s room. He
test?” I asked. “What do you mean?” He asked.
was on his bed and I was on the trundle that was
“You let me touch you anywhere I want and you
so low to the floor because it was broken. It was
can’t giggle.”
summer so mom was letting us stay up later than
usual while she went to bed. That was when it hap-
“Ok.”
pened. I asked and he nervously obliged.
“Get naked.”
It would probably make more sense if I gave some
“Why?”
more background. The summer after fourth grade,
I attended a YMCA day camp because my dad was
“I did say that I would have to touch you any-
too busy to watch us. It was there that I was asked
where.”
if I have ever tried masturbation. Being a curious
and never shy boy, I answered honestly that I tried
“Ok, I guess.”
but quit when it felt like I passed out. I was informed that I had to keep going and that I wouldn’t
I proceeded to start with his feet. He was gig-
pass out. After that evening I was in masturbation
gling a little and I had to stop and explain the
heaven. I immediately told my best friend.
rules again. Him promising that he wouldn’t giggle
again. Seeing him lay there naked was such a
Through fifth and part of sixth grade we fooled
pleasure. I was sporting a large hard on that was
around. We masturbated and sucked each other
hidden in my boxers. As I moved to his leg, I could
any chance we got. Looking back, it has to have
tell that he was getting excited. I stopped at his
been the best years of my life. This was also the
inner thigh and began with his arms, gently moving
time that I discovered that I was into younger
to his armpits, and then to his ribs and stomach. At
boys. I told my friend this and I don’t think that
this point, he was semi hard and I made my move.
he thought much of it. I was hoping that by telling
He fit into my had so well.
him he would get his sexy little brother to join in
however, much to my disappointment, that never
With this new touching he began to giggle a bit as
happened.
I worked him. Then the giggling was replaced with
soft grunts and moans. He wanted to stop me say-
Moving back to that summer night, I was thirteen
ing that he felt like he was getting light headed.
and my brother had just turned twelve. “Now that
I persuaded him to let me continue until he shot
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what little juice he had. I was more than excited
to share with him a joy that I had been sharing
with my friend for years.
Night after night for over a year he would sneak
to my room so I could take care of him. He would
then return the favor. Hell, there were even times
in the day when Mom would run to the store and
he would ask me to take care of him. He would
even ask when Mom was around but working in the
house! Of course, I obliged.
My brother and I are now 21 and 22 respectively.
We live two hours apart and never really speak
about what happened to us anymore. Has this
made us closer as brothers? I would say yes. We
shared something that I wouldn’t change for the
world. It’s almost like today that there is a taboo
on things that happened in the past. My brother is
in a serious relationship with a woman and I often
wonder if he ever told her. I’m guessing that he
hasn’t. I don’t think it was gay, even today.
“Our brothers and sisters are there with us from
the dawn of our personal stories to the inevitable
dusk.” Susan Scarf Merrell
My brother and I are still very close even though
we live in different towns. I miss him everyday and
the companionship that I could always rely on. I
am thrilled that I got to share a large portion of my
journey, sexually and physically, with him.
To my brother: I love you. I will always love you.
I miss what we had but understand that we have
to move on. I hope that one day we can look back
on what happened and laugh. Thanks for being the
greatest little brother I could ever ask for. I love
you.
“A brother shares childhood memories and grownup dreams.” Unknown
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