In Loving Memory of
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In Loving Memory of
Memorial Book In Loving Memory of khia grant jones (October 4, 2006 - January 16, 2009) GOD TOOK ANOTHER ANGEL HOME, You Laid there in that hospital bed, You tried so hard to hold on. God was calling you home. He needed Another Angel to help poor out the rain. Tears have fallen, hearts where shattered, But it was time for you to fly home. Your loved ones came to say their goodbyes, To tell you they loved you, and that you Will be forever be missed As your heart beat stopped, and your eyes Slowly closed, GOD took another Angel Home. He received his Angel Wings on January 16, 2009. We only had him here with us for 2 years, 2 months 16 days. Khia was sent from Heaven on October 4, 2006. He was a Borrowed Angel until January 16, 2009. He left behind a big brother Travis, big sister Savannah, little sister Aniyah, and so many more that loved him so much and helped take care of him. No one ever really understands why someone so young was taken back to the most beautiful, safe, loving place, God knows the answer he just needed another Angel to help bring out the beautiful sunshine in the morning, bring out the beautiful stars at night, make it rain so the beautiful flowers will grow, & make it snow so that when it does Khia's brother & sisters knows he is thinking about them and love & miss them so much. We all were left here to greive for the most beuatiful baby that was taken from all of us, but we all need to celebrate his life and the time that God had given to us before giving Khia-Khia his beautiful Angel Wings and not feel like anyone is to blame. Just think one day we all will see him again then we won't ever have to let him go again. Khia may not of known this from me but I loved him more than anyone can ever imagine. My heart breaks more everyday knowing that he is not here with his family. Knowing that he is with our other Angels that we lost along the way is a little comfort. Everyone says it gets easier as time goes by it only gets harder. Our Borrowed Angel is now in the arms of God and in the most beautiful place so we need to know that he is our Guardian Angel and is watching over all of us. KHIA GRANT JONES A Thousand Times We Needed You A Thousand Times We Cried If Love Alone Could Of Saved You You Never Would Of Died A Heart Of Gold Stopped Beating Two Tinkle Eyes Closed To Rest God Broke Our Hearts To Prove He Only Takes The BEST Never A Day Goes Bye That You're Not In My Heart & Soul Do Not Stand By My Grave Do Not Stand By My Grave & Weep I Am Not There, I Do Not Sleep I Am The Thousands Winds That Blow I Am The Diamond Glints Upon The Snow I Am The Sunlight On Repened Grain & I Am The Gentle Autumn Rain When You Awaken In The Morning's Hush I Am That Swift Uplifting Rush Of Quiet Birds In Circled Flight I Am The Soft Star That Shines At Night Do Not Stand By Grave & Cry I Am Not There, I Did Not Die Welcome To Heaven On January 16, 2009 A Beautiful Angel Welcome In Heaven A Child So Special That God Called Him Home To Sit At His Side On His Almighty Throne We Don't Understand It & Ask Dear Lord Why Such A Beautiful Baby Boy So Young Had To Die Two Years Old & Just Starting To Live Taken To Early With So Much Love To Give Sweet Little Angel, We Will Never Forget You When We Kiss Your Brother And Sisters, It's A Kiss For You Too With Heaven As Your Playground Again, I See Your Smile Play Hard Beautiful Khia-Khia You Are A Very Loved Child Til The Day We Meet In Heaven Taken On Angels Wings You Were Taken On Angels Wings As You Sweetly & Quietly Slept And Returned to Heaven Before We Knew That You Have Even Left Our Hearts Are Heavliy & Sorrowed That Our Time With You Was So Brief For You Were Our Gift Of Heavens Light That Is Now Replaced With Grief But Not So Much That We Can Be Grateful For Every Second You Were Here You Filled Our Hearts With So Much Joy Treasures Memories We'll Hold Forever Dear & Though We Weren't Blessed To See You Grow Up We Were Blessed To See You Smile For 2 Yrs & Hold You Lovely In Our Arms Gone Away An Angel Whispered, Take My Hand & Come With Me, You're Work Here Is Done I Went Away To A Place, Where's There's No Tears Nor Sorrow, Only Laughter & Smiles There Will Always Be A Tomorrow As I Move Amongst The CLouds I'll Look Down & Smile Upon You While The Angles, Sing A Heavenly Song I am Not Alone All Who Went Before Me Are Here, They Waited My Return I'll Know You'll Grieve & Wished I Was Still There I Am Here In The Memories, You Hold Dear Remember How Much I Love You & Know I Took Your Love With Me, I Did Not Wish For You To Cry Nor Feel Sad, My Pain Is Gone & I Am Free Soon You'll Come To See Me, Until Then God Will Be With You, Just As He's With Me Death Of A Brother You're Still Here In My Heart & Mind Still Making Me Laugh, Cause Your Story Lives On I Hold You In A Thought, & I Can Feel You I Feel You & That Gives Me The Strenght And Courage The Tears I Have Cried For You Could Flood The Earth And I Know You Have Wiped Each One Away For You Brother, I Promise This I Will Go On With My Life, & Make You Proud I wILL Always Hold You In My Heart I Promise I Will Be Missing You Everyday Until The End Of Time But This Is Not My End, & I can't Hold My Head Underwater, I Need To Miss You But Also Need To Live, Because Through Me You Will Live, You Will Still Laugh & Love You Will Still Sing & Dance, You Will Still Kiss & Hug You Will Be Forever In Our Lives, You Forever Be A Brother A Son, Uncle, Cousin, Nephew, Grandson & A Friend I Am Going To Miss Your Shining Face I Think Of You & Wonder Why? I Might Cry Or Smile, But At The End Of The Day I Am One More Day Closer To You Love, Travis & Savannah The Myth of Closure "When will I begin to feel better? When will I return to normal? When will I achieve some closure?” grievers often ask. Closure, our culture tells us, will bring about a tidy ending, a sense of completion. Some grievers hope that the desired magical closure will occur after the funeral or memorial service. Others are confident it will come once they have cleared out their loved one’s room. Or maybe after a special personal ritual. Or perhaps after the first anniversary comes and goes—“surely then, we will have closure,” we think. We pray… The reason we long for closure, of course, is because we would like to neatly seal away all of this pain. We would like to close all of the sad, confused, desperate, angry feelings out of our life. We would like to put all of this behind us. Closure. What an odd concept really, as if we could truly close the door on pain—turn the lock and throw away the key. The truth is far more complex, of course. Closure is for business deals. Closure is for real estate transactions. Closure is not for feelings or for people we love. Closure simply does not exist emotionally, not in a pure sense. We cannot close the door on the past as if it didn’t exist because, after losing someone dear to us, we never forget that person or the love we shared. And in some ways, we never entirely get over the loss. We learn to live with the loss, to integrate it into our new identity. Imagine if we really could end this chapter in our life, completely. It would mean losing our memories, our connections to those we love. If we really found closure, it would ironically hurt even more because the attachment would be severed. And this attachment is vital to us—the memories are treasures to be held close, not closed out. Perhaps it is better to think in terms of healing. Yes, we can process our pain and move to deeper and deeper levels of healing. Yes, we can find ways to move on and channel our pain into productive activities. Yes, we can even learn to smile again and laugh again and love again. But let’s not ever think that we’ll close the door completely on what this loss means, for if we did that, we would unwittingly close the door on all the love that we shared. And that would truly be a loss too terrible to bear. Empty Spaces I Sit Alone Here Every Day Thinking Of The Child You Took Away He Was My Heart, He Was My Soul He Is The Thing That Made Me Whole I Have No Hope, I Have No Faith, I Have No Energy He Was The Only Pride & Joy That Rose Inside Of Me & Now There's Just An Empty Space Where Laughter Used To Dwell, My Heart Has Got No Purpose Now, It's Just An Empty Shell As I Look At The Children Play, In The Parks & On The Beach I Think About My Biggest Loss, The Child I Can Not Reach Sometimes I Wonder What He Thinks When He Mind Remembers Me, Does He Think About The Mom He Lost The Family He Never Sees My Days Are Filled With Anger, My Nights With Painful Grief How I Face Each Day Without Him Is Way Beyond Belief His Toys Are Strewn Bout The Floor, His Bed Is Empty Now Abondoned Like The Autumm Leaves Shaken From The Bough There's Nothing Left For Me To Have But Distant Memories Of The Times We Had When He Was Young & Full Of Energy I Hear His Voice Inside My Head Calling Out To Me & When I Close My Eyes To Sleep, His Face Is All I See, But Deep Within The Darkness That Lives Inside Of Me There Is A Tiny Glimmer, A Spark That's Hard To See That Spark Is Just A Remnant Of The Love That Is Inside The Love Which Cannot Disappear, The Love I Cannot Hide If Tears Could Build A Stairway Tears Could Build A Stairway And Memories A Lane I Would Walk Right Up To Heaven And Bring You Back Again No Farewell Words, Were Spoken No Time To Say "Goodbye" You Were Gone Before I Knew It And Only GOD Knows Why My Heart Still Aches With Sadness And Secret Tears Still Flow What It Meant To Love You No One Will Ever Know But Now I Know You Want Me To Morn For You No More To Remember All The Happy Times Life Still Has Much More In Store Since You Will Never Be Forgotten I Pledge To You Today A Hollowed Place In Our Hearts Is Where You Will Always Stay. Sorrow To The Living..I Am Gone To The Sorrowful..I Will Never Return To The Angry..I Was Cheated But To The Happy.. I Am At Peace And To The Faithful..I Have Never Left I Cannot Speak..But I Can Listen I Can Not Be Seen..But I Can Be Heard So As You Stand Upon The SHore Gazing At A Beautiful Sea..Remember Me As You Look Upon The Flower, And Admire It's Simplicity.. Remember Me.. Remember Me In Your Heart, Your Thoughts.. And Your Memories, Of The Times We Loved, The Times We Cried The Times We Fought, & The TImes We Laughed For If You Will Always Think Of Me I Will Never Be Gone My Dad Is A Survivor My Dad Is A Survivor Too Which Is No Surprise To Me He's Always Been Like A Lighthouse That Helps You Cross A Stormy Sea But, I Walk With My Dad Each Day To Lift Him When He's Down I Wipe The Tears He Hides From Others He cries when no one's around I Watch Him Sit Up Late At Night With My Picture In His Hand He Cries As He Tries To Grieve Alone And Wishes He Could Understand My Dad Is Like A Tower Of Strength. He's The Greatest Of Them All! But, There Are Times When He Needs To Cry... Please Be There When He Falls Hold His Hand Or Pat His Shoulder... And Tell Him It's Okay Be His Strength When He's Sad Help Him Mourn In His Own Way Now, As I Watch Over My Precious Dad From The Heavens Up Above... I'm So Proud That He's A Survivor... And, I Can Still Feel His Love A child that loses a parent is an orphan, A man who loses his wife is a widower, A woman who loses her husband is a widow, There is no name for a parent that loses a child, For there is no word to describe the PAIN!!!!!!! I've Earned My Wings I'm Sorry Mommy I Left You So Soon I Was There When The Angels Woke You Up That Day I Know I Was Gone From The Flash From The Start Mommy Remember, I'll Always Be In Your Heart I Listen To You Dearly, When You Visit My Grave Please Don't Cry, Be Sad, Continue To Be Brave I Didn't Mean To Leave You All So Soon I Was Looking From Heaven When Everyone Released Thier BALLOONS Take Care Of My Big Brother, Big Sister, & Baby SisterToo There Will Always & Forever Be A Part Of Me Living In You I'll Be Waiting For You Here, At The Golden Gate Time Is Ticking Mommy, Please Don't Be Late I Long To Embrace You In My Arms, Don't Worry Mommy! I'm At A Place Where There Is No Harm I've Earned My Wings, I Live In The Sky I'm Waiting Everyday Mommy So Please Don't Cry! Love Your Son Khia-Khia God Looked Around God Looked Around The Garden Found An Empty Space He Looked Down Upon The Earth Saw Your Tired Face He Put His Arms Around You Lifted You To Rest God's Garden Must Be Beautiful For He Only Takes The Best He Knew That You Were Weary He Knew You Were In Pain He Knew That You Would Never Be Wel On Earth Again He Saw The Roads Getting Rough The Hills Were Hard To Climb So He Closed Your Weary Eyelids And Whispered Peace Be Thine If Love Could Undo A Wrong If Love Could Undo A Wrong You'd be Home Where You Belong The Choices That Were Made Caused You To Rest Where You Were Laid You Were Young & Didn't Know We Lose You & Miss You So Too Young To Really Understand So GOD Reached Out His Mighty Hand Now You Hear The Angel's Sing And You Don't Want For Anything You're Finally Safe From Earthly Harms Wrapped Up In God's Loving Arms Although I Miss You Everyday Know Heavens Where You'll Stay But Someday Khia, We'll Meet Again When I Walk Through The Gate To Heaven! Our Hearts Will Always Touch When I Laid There Beside You Could You Feel Me There? My Arms Were Wrapped Around You & I Was Stroking Your Hair I Was Talking About All The Good For Me They Were Every Single Day I Wanted You To Feel Love And Comfort & Happy In Some Way I Watched Your Every Breath & PrayedTimes That Each One Wasn't Your Last The TIme We Got To Share Together Went By Too Quick..Too Fast I Wanted You To Wake Up Please Khia... Open Your Eyes Tell Me This Is A Nightmare & Not Our "Goodbyes" As Your Last Breath Grew Closer We Laid There Peacfully Together My Heart Continually Breaking Because I Wanted You Forever Then There It Was Your Final Breath Of Air I Didn't Want To Believe It This Is So Cruel And Not Fair I Held Your Beautiful Face And Prayed You'd Breath Again I Wasn't Ready For You To Go I Couldn't Admit That This Was The End But Then I Realized That You Were Now In Peace Not Suffering Anymore You Were Beginning The Life Of An ANGEL Your Body Would No Longer Be Sore I held You Close & Squezzed You Tight & Tried To Say "Goodbye" I've Lost My Baby Khia-Khia & My Friend All My Heart Could Do Is Cry I Slowly Got Up, I Wanted So Much To Stay I Leaned Over & Gave You One More Kiss "Goodbye" It Was So Hard To Walk Away & Leave You Behind Khia-Khia You Are My Entire World, & I Miss You So Very Much I Wish I Could Feel Your Loveable Cuddle, & Your Soft & Gentle Touch, But For Now I have To Wait Until We Meet Again You Will Always Be In My Heart & Thoughts My Dear Khia-Khia My Best Friend, You Were So Important To Me & I Loved You More Than Anything & Wished I Could Of Stayed Their In The Hospital Bed & Gone To Heaven For You, Cause You Were Much Too Young To Die You Had So Much To Live For Baby Always & Forever Our Hearts Will Always Touch Love Your Mom-Mom It's The Saddest Day January 16, 2009 It Was The Saddest Day That I Would Of Know Today On This Date, One Year Ago All Together In The Hospital, Praying For You And Wishing There Was Something We Could Do Then The Doctors & Nurses Came In With The Devastating News That You Were The One GOD Would Chose Just A Few Short Years, After Your Birth The ANGELS Swift Down & Took You From Earth Oh Why! Oh Why, Did GOD Take You So Soon Up ThroughThe Clouds & Over The Moon To A Beautiful Place, We Know As Heaven Why Couldn't You Stay, Til You Were 97 But It Just Wasn;t Meant To Be It Seems That GOD Needed You More Then Us And Now We're Left With The Memories & A Day to Look Forward To When GOD Calls Our Names & We Finally Get To Join You We'll Hug & Kiss You & Never Let You Go Because We Missed You & Love You So You Left Your Footprints All Over Our Hearts & To Be With You Again Will Be When The Joy Starts We Will Finally All Be Together Again Just "One Big Happy Family, Amen" To Be Free.... Each day I wake to silence Broken by my tears With memories of your laughter So afraid will disappear Visions of your smile Such sparkle in your eyes I never had my moment To hug, or say goodbye I seem lost as if I wander On from day to day While others all around me Believe that I'm okay That is their illusion What they wish to see For I have changed forever I am new to even me Wishing for a miracle Asking why each day Living on my memories When life was not this way Years move on around me Time does not stand still But deep within my heart For me it always will That day my world exploded My heart and soul died too Words just can't explain this I'm so lost here without you I try so hard to handle What life has dealt to me But deep inside my body I am longing to be free Liittle Angel Missed We Miss Our Little Angel, So Indefinitely Dear We Shared A Whole Lifetime Of Love In Your Short Lifetime Here If It Had Been Within Our Power We'd Nor Have Let You Go & Yet, We Trust The One Who Said He Loved The Children So & Though The Years Will Pass & Time Heal All Wounds They Say We'll Always Miss Out Little Angel Sweet The One Who Went Away But We Can Smile, For Up In Heaven Where Little Ones Are Kissed We Know You're In Jesus Arms & Never, Forever Missed Life As l Live It Sleep does not come easily With thoughts of missing you My days are spent denying What it is I've lived on through Grief continues on each day Within my broken heart Questions race within my mind of why we are apart There is no getting over it No magic pill to take Living with this nightmare I so wish were a mistake I won't be getting better as so many have proclaimed I pretend my life is different... as if I'm playing some strange game I want to scream from rooftops That I hurt within my soul Losing my sweet child left me playing some new role I can't pretend forever hide these tears that wish to flow This deep internal sadness Has continued to just grow I've begged I've prayed, I've pleaded That this pain would somehow cease That I could find some hope in life A little bit of peace But since the day I lost you I just drift through all my days With deep sorrow,...deep emotion That will greet my everyday What My Child Has Taught Me I`ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can`t I`ve learned that learning to forgive takes a lot of practice I`ve learned that friends may become strangers And strangers become friends I`ve learned that ignorance isn`t an excuse for lack of compassion I`ve learned that some people will never,ever-"get it" I`ve learned that the community of sorrow is the strongest of all I`ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn`t stop for your grief I`ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of minutes I`ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words It may be the last time you ever see them I`ve learned that love isn`t measured by the amount of time you have with someone Called You Home We little knew that morning, God was going to call your name In life we loved you dearly, in death we do the same your home You left us beautiful memories, Your love is still our guide And though we cannot see you, You are always at our side Our family chain is broken and nothing seems the same But as God calls us one by one, our Family chain will link again Forever in our hearts, we love and miss you... If I Had Of Known If I Had Of Known It Would Be The Last Time That I'd See You Fall Asleep, I Would Of Tucked You In More Tightly & Prayed To The Lord, That You I Could Keep If I Had Of Known It Would Be The Last Time I See You Walk Out The Door, I Would Of Given You An Extra Hug & Kiss & Then Called You Back For One More If I Had Of Known It Would Be The Last Time I Would See You Smile & Hear What You Have to Say, I Would Of Recorded Each Action & Word, So I Could Play Them Back Day After Day If I Had Of Known It Would Be Your Last Time, I Could Spare An Extra Minute Or Two, I Would Of Stopped What I Was Doing & Spent Every Single Minute With You If I Had Of Known It Would Be The Last Time I Would Have To Share Your Day Well I Just Knew We'd Have So Many More, I Would Not Of Let That Day One Slip Away If I Had Only Known What Was In Store For Us That Day I Would Not Of Let You Out Of My Sight Instead I Would Have Stood By Your Side To Protect You & Held Back The Hands Of Time With All My Might If I Had Of Known What I Know Now I Would Of Prayed To God Begged Him To Change Our Fate Somehow It broke our hearts to lose you, You did not go alone For part of us went with you... the day God called I Thought of You Today I thought of you with love today But that is nothing new I throught about you yesterday and the days before that too.. I think of you in silence I often speak you name All I have are memories And your picture in a frame Your memory is my keepsake With which I'll never part God has you in His Keeping I have you in my Heart Best Angel Friends A beautiful little angel showed up to Heaven’s gates, Confused and unknowing the plan that for him awaits. Then another little angel walked up and took his hand, And said, “Please don’t be sad you left, you’re in the Promised Land.” “I’m glad to be here but I do not think I was to go. Perhaps there was a mistake, for my mommy wanted me so. “ The little greeting angel gave a sweet smile and said, “My mommy wanted me too, but to Heaven I was led. You see, we do not get to choose when on Earth it’s time to go. He gave us life, love and joy and a mother’s womb to grow. The Lord still needs new angels to guide them down on earth. To watch over, comfort them, and help them see their worth. “ “Is there still a way that I can sleep in my mommy’s bed?” The greeting angel grinned and said, “that luxury you’ll keep. I visit my mommy nightly and softly sing her to sleep.” The little angel replied, “then I think I’ll like it here. I’ll visit my mommy nightly and weaken her pain and fears. I love her and will keep her safe at night and in between. And let her know with a sweet memory that she is still with me. “ The greeting angel gave her new friend a big hug and said, “Until our mommy’s meet us here, let’s be best angel friends.” “Okay, “ said the new angel, “that sounds good to me.” Then the angels sat and played keeping their mommy’s in sight, Humming the tunes to the song they would sing to their mommy’s tonight Baby Boy Baby Boy Come To Me Come To Me Upon The Wind Baby Boy Touch My Heart Touch My Heart & Soul Again Fly From Where The Angels Dwell And Fly Into My Dreams Take Me Back To Yesterday Before The Morning Gleams Let Me Rock You In My Arms And Sing You A Lullably Let Me Hold You Baby boy Before You Say Goodbye Baby Boy Come To Me Come To Me Upon The Wind Baby Boy Touch My Heart Touch My Heart & Soul Again Waiting For Yesterday I'm Waiting In The Shadows Of The Time Slipped Away Not Watting For Tomorrow Only Waiting On Yesterday Today I Have My Memories But Tomorrow I May Forget I Yearn To Live In Yesterday Where Time Will Never Quit Tomorow Holds No Promise Yesterday Holds Everything I Never Cease To Long For What Tomorrow Can Not Bring Someday I'll Be In Yesterday In The Place Where Time Stands Still Reliving All My Memories Once Again I'll Be Fulfilled In Yesterday We'll Be Together Where You Can't Be Taken Away Until Then There's No Tomorrow Only Waiting For Yesterday Do You.... Do you hear me when I speak to you? Can you feel my love so deep? Have you transcended to another world... Where once again we'll meet? Do you see my tears continue As I live on without you here? Is it you that comes to visit... When I feel you are near? Do you see I'm lost without you? Can you tell how much I've changed? I live my life as if I'm lying Was this all just prearranged? Do you know how much I need you? Can you come take me away? For living on without you Is so very difficult each day. Have others just forgotten? Or do they just ignore... That grief lives on forever Deep down within my core When my time on Earth is over And I have worked my whole life through Will I travel up to heaven... To finally be with you? My Brother And I I remember the days at the park when we use to play from daylight to dark, when I made mommy laugh for a while and that made you smile. I remember I wanted to grow up and be just like you, I wanted to be loved the way they loved you. when mommy told me you died I fell on the ground and started to cry, I couldn't believe it cuz I felt you near by, how I got up I don’t know cuz it was so hard to just let you go. before I cried for a muffin but now its the thought of you in a coffin. Whispers From Heaven To My Family Who Has My Whole Heart I had to leave so quickly No time to say 'GOODBYE" I know your heart is breaking And you just wondering why You couldn't be there to help me But please don't be sad It's not your fault And I really love you all Besides, an Angel came in your place that day And gently took my hand Then with a smile she said "Come with me Little Man" She led me up to HEAVEN Where the lights were shining bright Where there are no tears, pain, or suffering And there's no fear of the night I really didn't die, you know So stay close to GOD and PRAY I went to Live with JESUS And will be together again one day GOOD NIGHT, GOD BLESS I LOVE YOU ALL! , My Mom Is A Survivor My mom is a survivor or so I've heard it said But I can hear her crying at night when all others are in bed I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand But like the sands on the beach that never wash away... I watch over my surviving Mom who thinks of me each day She wears a smile for others a smile of disguise! But through Heavens door I see tears flowing from her eyes My mom trys to cope with death To keep my memory alive But anyone who know her it is her way to survive As I watch over my surviving Mom through Heaven's door... I tryed to tell her that angels protect me forevermore! I know it doesn't help her or ease the burden she bears So, if you get a chance, go visit her Show her that you care For no matter whats she says.... no matter what she feels My surviving MOM has a broken heart that won't ever heal A GRANDMOTHER'S GRIEF Hello, Oh friend Oh, yes, you know I lost my grandson awhile ago No, no please Don't look away And change the subject It's ok You see, at first I couldn't feel It took so long, but now it's real I hurt so much inside you see I need to talk Come sit with me? You see, I was numb for so very long And people said, "My she is so strong" They did not know I couldn't feel My broken heart made all unreal But then one day, as I woke I clutched my chest, began to choke Such a scream, such a wail Broke from me My grandson! My grandson! The horror of reality But everyone has moved on, you see everyone except for me Now, when I need a friend most of all Between us there now stands a wall My pain is more than they can bear When I mention my grandson I see their blank stare "But I thought you were over it" Their eyes seems to say No, No I can't listen to this, not today So I smile and pretend, and say, "Oh I'm ok" But inside I am crying, as I turn away And so my old friend, I shall paint on a smile As I have from the start The Busiest Day In Heaven It's The Busiest Day In Heaven, I'm Planning A Big Surprise To Let You Know I Love You & That No One Ever Dies Even Though Your Down Below, & I'Am Up Above I'm Sending You These Wishes & All My Angel Love It's Really Quite Exciting To Plan This Event For Lots Of Gifts Will Come Your Way & All Are Heaven Sent First I'll Take A Bubble Bath-My Splashes Might Cause Some Rain But Knowing All The Fun I'm Having Fun, Will Help Ease Your Pain Next I'll Get Some Pictures In My Halo Gown So When You Get To Heaven, You Can Show Them All Around I Have Color Crayons In Heaven, & I Will Draw Some Stars So Bright And Place Them In The Sky Today For You To SeeTonight Then, Jesus Will Have Story Time, & I Will Sit On His Lap He'll Tell Me All About You Before I Nap, I'll Wake Up Full Of Energy & Play A Game Or Two, Before I Finish Sending You All My Love To You, After Snack, I'll Write A Song For All The Birds To Sing And Know I Made You Happy With All The Joy It Brings At Night Time I'll Be Tired , But I Still Hold You Tight My Arms Will Wrap Around You & Keep You Through The Night And When You Finally Slumber, I'll Kneel To Pray Asking God To Bless You On This Special Mother's Day Dear Mr. Hallmark, I am witting to you from heaven, and though it might appear. A rather strange idea, I see everything from here. I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card. A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard. There must be some mistake I thought, Every card you could imagine. Except I could not fine a card, From a child who lives in heaven. She is still a mother too, no matter were I reside. I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she's cried. I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know, That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so. She talks with me, she dreams with me, we still share laughter too. Memories are our way of speaking now, could you see what you could do. My mother she carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight. She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night. She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells. She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well. So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth. I must find a way to remind her of her wondrous worth. She needs to be honored, and remembered too. Just as the children, on earth will do. Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you'll do your best. I have done all I can do, to you I'll leave the rest. Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me. Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity. The Silence Of Christmas Morning The silence of Christmas morning Echoes through my lonely soul No laughter or excitement Just the sound of growing old Growing old without my son No more light upon my face Oh how I miss Christmas morning In this abondoned..silent place I have memories of the laughter and the whispering joy within From noisy Christmas mornings But the memories have an end His sweet life was quietly hushed When he left us without warning This one memory will always bring The silence of Christmas morning. Grief - Holiday season and “special” days throughout the year It is my First Christmas without my Grandson Khia and I have all I can do coping with the "spirit of the holiday" on radio, TV, in the newspapers and stores. I do not feel joyous and trying to pretend that this Christmas is going to be like the last Christmas with Khia, it will be impossible because we are missing one. Our family traditions will be too painful for me to continue this year, like it was last year. Please understand this and maybe some Christmas in the future we will have these traditions again. Please allow me to talk about my child, if I feel a need. Do not be uncomfortable with my tears. My heart is breaking and the tears are a way of letting out my sadness. I plan to do something special in memory of my child. Please recognize my need to do this in order to keep our memories alive. My fear is not that I will forget, but that you will. Please do not criticize me if I do something that you do not think is normal. I am a different person now and it may take a long time before this different person reaches an acceptance of my child’s death. As I survive the stages of grief, I will need your patience and support, especially during these holiday times and the "special" days throughout the year. Thank you for not expecting too much from me this holiday season. NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS New Years resolutions In a life with no solutions Those resolutions from before Do not mean much anymore..... I don't need to lose some weight For I can't eat what's on my plate Work harder in the year... Make something out of my career? Eat healthy, exercise Don't eat those extra fries What I really wish to do Will not happen without you I lost the drive to get ahead It's hard to just get out of bed Sometimes I think I'll start to smoke There are times I cry so hard I choke Let the sorrow finally end Maybe then, my heart might mend Lose the grief, find happiness Oh my god my life's a mess Resolutions can't be made I've tried so hard, I've truly prayed That I would somehow find a way Just to make it day to day I could have another drink Go to visit one more shrink They will tell me I'll be fine That I will heal with some time I guess for me it is quite clear It will be just another year.... New Years resolutions In a life with no solutions Tears One by one the tears fall Like little drops of rain Silently I wonder How long will this remain I find it hard to live on With grief right by my side But see no way around it For years I've truly tried Sometines I want to scream out Tell the world about this pain But I hold it all inside me No earthly words could I explain Others thinl I'm better Moved right through this grief I wish just once they'd realize Tat there is no relief These tears forever falling Days then months then years A different life I'm living As if a new frontier Lost most of my past freindships They don't wish to see me grieve And others that just see me I have learned I can deceive I weat this mask so tightly It has become a part of me This grief just holds me captive I will never be set free I look at your sweet picture Reminisce back to the years Only memories to cherish Now I'm left with only tears Life Has No Answers..So I Cry I ask the questions simply why? Life has no answer, so I cry A loss so deep can't be explained This broken heart is what remains Tears that fall upon my face Love for you won't be erased Time moves on without you now I ask the questions simply how? Day in day out I wear this mask Life has changed into a task I aks the question simply Why? Life has no answer so I cry Some have said I need to pray That I will be just fine one day This was waht was meant to be You're now at peace..you are set free Within my heart it hurts so deep The days are long, I cannot sleep Time moves on without you now I ask the questions simply how? Someday I hope that I will find.. Some happiness, some peace of mind For Losing you, I still ask why? Life has no answer.. so I cry Please Light A Candle... Please light a candle in their honor For the children we have lost Tears that have been shed each day Sleepless nights that we have tossed Our lives that have forever changed Out of our control We will never understand this fate We can never be consoled Each day we wake again to pain That comes from deep within Unless you've lived this awful fate You can not know where we've been We will never be over losing them Tried so hard to let you know That this love will last forever Till the day on Earth we go Our memories are bittersweet Some smiles and some tears Longing for this all to end Then days turn into years We somehow move along in life This pain right by our sides Grief is now a part of us Our heart, it does reside Please light a candle in their honor As we picture them set free To lose a child is so tragic This is not how life should be I Wish I Wish Upon A Star That I could see just where you are To watch you smile, and laugh again For that might help to ease this pain I wish I wish that this would end Somehow my broken heart would mend Each day and night continues on This game of life I'm but a pawn I wish I wish this were untrue That I would wake and be with you To hug you close to me once more To have you race right through the door I wish I wish for no more tears For I have cried for all these years I'm tired and so full of grief I just would like a bit of peace I wish I wish and wonder why Life took a turn and went awry You still live on within my heart Although we now must live apart I wish I wish upon a star To travel up to where you are To never have to say goodbye... Forever to be by your side Don't Tell Me Don't tell me that you understand, Don't tell me that you know. Don't tell me that I will survive, How I will surely grow. Don't tell me this is just a test, That I am truly blessed. That I am chosen for the task, Apart from all the rest. Don't come at me with answers That can only come from me, Don't tell me how my grief will pass, That I will soon be free. Don't stand in pious judgment Of the bonds I must untie, Don't tell me how to grieve, Don't tell me when to cry. My life is filled with selfishness, My pain is all I see, But I need you and your love... Unconditionally. Accept me in my ups and downs, I need someone to share, Just hold my hand and let me cry, And say, "My friend, I care." A Bereaved Parent's Wish List 1. I wish my child had not died. I wish I had him back. 2. I wish you would not be afraid to speak my child's name. My child lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that he was important to you also. 3. If I cry and get emotional when you talk about my child, I wish you knew that it is not because you have hurt me. My child's death is the cause of my tears. You have talked about my child, and you have allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both. 4. I wish you would not "kill" my child again by removing his pictures, artwork, or other remembrances from your home. 5. Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you would not shy away from me. I need you now more than ever. 6. I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you; but I also want you to hear about me. I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you would let me talk about my child, my favorite topic of the day. 7. I know that you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my child's death pains you, too. I wish you would let me know those things through a phone call, a card or note, or a real big hug. 8. I wish you would not expect my grief to be over in six months. These first months are traumatic for me, but I wish you could understand that my grief will never be over. I will suffer the death of my child until the day I die. 9. I am working very hard in my recovery, but I wish you could understand that I will never fully recover. I will always miss my child, and I will always grieve that he/she is dead. 10. I wish you would not expect me "not to think about it" or to "be happy." Neither will happen for a very long time, so do not frustrate yourself. 11. I do not want to have a "pity party," but I do wish you would let me grieve. The pain is overwhelming; it will take time to learn how to survive with this nightmare. 12. I wish you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is miserable for you to be around me when I am feeling miserable. Please be as patient with me as I am with you. 13. When I say, "I'm doing okay," I wish you could understand that I do not "feel" okay and that I struggle daily. 14. I wish you knew that all of the grief reactions I am having are very normal. Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness are all to be expected. So, please excuse me when I'm quiet and withdrawn or irritable and cranky. 15. Your advice to "take one day at a time" is excellent advice. However, a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you could understand that I am doing good to handle an hour at a time. 16. Please excuse me if I seem rude, certainly not my intent. Sometimes the world around me goes too fast and I need to get off. When I walk away, I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone. 17. I wish you understood that grief changes people. When my child died, a big part of me died with him/her. I am not the same person I was before my child died, and I will never be that person again. 18. I wish very much that you could understand; understand my loss and my grief, my silence and my tears, my void and my pain. BUT I pray daily that you will never understand. My Little Boy Your Little Boy Cries To Much My Little Boy Makes No Sound Your Little Boy Is Warm To Touch Mine Lies Cold In The Ground Your Little Boy Woke Up Today My ANGEL Never Will Your Little Boy Can Laugh & Play My Little Boy Lies Still Your Little Boy Makes You So Proud But Just As Proud As I Caused Though Your Boy Will Learn To Walk My Little Boy Can Fly! My Inside Would Shake My insides would shake, With each breath I took; I can't concentrate, I can't find my nook. I have no concept, Or caring of time; You live in your world, I survive mine. There are silent screams, That roar in my head; And I still have days, That I wish I was dead. This huge mass of pain, That is inside of me; Only I can feel it, This you can't see. The harsh isolation, In the midst of a crowd; That innocent fun, That I'm not allowed. The anger inside me, The feeling so blue; That I can't escape, Since my life started new. What Makes a Mother I thought of you all, I closed my eyes and prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard Him say, A Mother has a baby. This we know is true. But God can you be a Mother when your baby's not with you? Yes you can! He replied with confidence in His voice, "I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice."Some I send for a lifetime and other's for a day. And some I send to feel your womb but there's no need to stay. I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared His throat and then I saw a tear. I wish I could show you what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile with other children and say, We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear. My Mommy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me I learned my lesson very quick My Mommy set me free. I miss my Mommy oh so much but I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep on her pillows where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear, Mommy don't be sad today I'm your baby and I'm here."So you see my dear sweet one, your children are OK. Your babies are here in my home and this is where they'll stay. They'll wait for you with me until your lesson is through. And on that day that you come home they'll be at the gates for you. So now you see what makes a Mother. It's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize that you are a Mother until their time is done. They'll be up here with me one day and know you're the best one. Wings of An Angel From our hearts to your filled with pain The unimaginable anger, in life it may linger, but never Let it hinder the time you had together The binds and ties that will never be broken as GOD held him tight and told the Angels to take flight to Prepare the night for a Glorious site On the wings of an ANGEL and under the bosom of GOD Khia flies to Heavenly skies laughing, smiling and enjoying the ride with no remebrancehis if how he died, safely in heaven is where he abides, with wings & a halo waiting his arrival. His first task is to let you know he will always be with you. A star in the skies to always remind you he will be there when it is time for your arrival My brother is an ANGEL now...& all of heaven is his playground The Sadness The sadness is overwhelming since you left us that day even though you are not beside me Your memory will never pass away I need you here to hold my hand To share our thought throughout the days To see that beautiful smile again This to the Lord I pray You are my baby brother And YOu could never be replaced I am tired of relying on pictures To remember your loving face We never did get justice We fight for it every day We all miss you so much Not to mention Travis Khia we need you here with us To ease some of the pain I need my bestfriend back Before I go insane You have no idea how hard it has been To lose my true best friend It angers me more & more each day How quickly it all came to an end I never really said goodbye I thought you'd be here for many years Now every day I sit and cry These endless bitter tears Please give me some answer Some kind of a sign So I'll know you are happy where you are the sadness is all mine You're an angel now with wings of gold I feel you watching over us every day Even though you were only 2 years old You were the best brother Even though you were younger than I I looked up to you with pride I never thought there would come a day You wouldn't be our side So tell me KHIA how do we go on "Wings & Halos” Halos” I was so excited when I woke up today I heard my Mommy was coming to play I washed my wings and my halo too because that's what Mommy likes me to do I went to the place where I knew she'd be It's where she comes to visit me She comes for comfort in her despair Oh Mommy, can't you feel me touching your hair? I'm by your side all through the night I never let you out of my sight I was your baby for only a day But soon we can be together and play You know we'll never be apart You'll never let me leave your heart Mommy I'm not really in the ground, lift your head and look around The clouds, the birds, the raindrops too these gifts of life were given to you Don't cry for me Mommy, I know you're here Please let me wipe away your tears. I was sent to you from up above And you showed me the ultimate love Instead of giving me all of your years You freely gave me all of your tears Remember your relatives, the ones who have died? They brought me here, I'm by their side They watch over me and help me to see Just how much you really love me So don't be unhappy when you come visit me I'm the angel above you, up in the tree And when you leave, leave, you'll never be through You'll always be my Mommy And I'll always love you. . 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Neka te grije sjaj ove svijeće. Gd morn angel i lv u so much dnt 4get watch for your balloons at 4:30 am thats when you came an angel I'll be up 2nite to send 01/14/2010 01/14/2010 01/14/2010 Aunt charde Aunt Jenn renie I love you khia=) Hey sunshine I miss you Keep watch over mommy shes very sad she loves and misses you very much You are one of GOD ,s most handsome angel 01/14/2010 01/14/2010 01/14/2010 01/13/2010 renie aunt renie mommom Aunt charde Tell uncle jesse i said happy b day give him a hug for me love u baby Hi sweetie your mom mom is sooo sad please tell her you are ok ,,,you gg ,uncle dane and pop po p are all together now having fun Gd morn angel, watch on saturday we are going to send you some balloons, cause it would be 1yr already, we miss,love u I love you khia. Your birthday is almost here=) A candle of loving remembrance For you on your angel anniversary. 01/13/2010 01/13/2010 01/13/2010 01/13/2010 Aunt Jo to Angel Leah Avril jenn nickey mommom mommom You are missed and u will always be loved Over again, it's like losing you all over again, I wish you were here with us.im sorry i wasnt there for u but i did luve u so Gd morn angel, 3 days it will be 1yr that u lf us, my heart is breaking as if it was yest that we lost you, the pain just started 01/12/2010 01/12/2010 01/11/2010 01/11/2010 aunt mommom mommom Aunt charde Hey khia, i love you=) I love you baby i am almost done with thewebsite hope ou like it Hey baby just wanted to say i love you and miss you so much I love you khia(= 01/10/2010 01/10/2010 01/09/2010 01/08/2010 mommom Aunt charde mommom mommom Hi angel i love you and miss you have a good day Hey khia. . . i love you=) Hey angel i love you so much miss you sweety Uncle wayne is making your cross just like uncle dane's & it's going 2 but with your tree at aunt renee's yard..lu Please accept my deepest sympathy on the passing of your Angel Baby, Khia. How precious!♫rock- a-byebaby♫in Jesus arms♫keeping U ♥♥ 01/08/2010 01/08/2010 01/08/2010 01/08/2010 mommom Felicia Hinton Granma Felicia Aunt charde Hey baby i've been working on your site all day & night i promise it will be done by 1/16 love you Pop-pop said to tell you hi Hi Khai just learning how to light a candle I love you and miss just lighting this candle brings tears to my eyes but I know that Hey khia, it snowed last night just a little bit it was enough for me to not go though...i love you=) 01/07/2010 01/07/2010 01/06/2010 01/06/2010 Aunt charde mommom Aunt charde mommom Hey khia, just saying i love yu'=) Hi baby i'm still work on website should be done by next week i hope you like it.love you miss you... Hey baby, its so cold outside. Im going to the mall with your grandmothers in a little while. We love you. Watch over the family=) Hi angel wanted to sa i love & miss u so much. talk 2 u later. 01/05/2010 01/05/2010 01/04/2010 01/03/2010 Aunt charde mommom mommom mommom Hey baby, happy new year=)i love you and miss you.. Gd morn angel i love you and miss you so much. you are a beautiful angel say hi 2 everyone for me. love u Gd morn angel, can you give travis & savannah a little hug today cause mommom really miss them 2 watch over them lv u miss u 2 Hey baby it's 3.30 in the morn still woking on the website just want to finish for you.i love u so much 01/02/2010 01/02/2010 01/02/2010 01/02/2010 savannah travis Nancy Fuller mommom I miss you khia and wish i could play with you I miss you khia and love you!!!! Little angel you will be an angel in our hearts, Love u baby. Gd morn angel just wanted to say hi and i love u so much. talk to u later 01/01/2010 01/01/2010 12/31/2009 12/31/2009 Aunt Jenn mommom aniyah (baby sister) savannah ( big sister) Miss You Angel and Love You Happy new year sweet little angel i hear you making all that noise r u all up partying bringing the new yr with all the angelslove Hey big brother even though we never met i still love you and wish you were here with me Hey baby brother i miss you so much and love you so much and stop making gg run after you 12/31/2009 12/31/2009 12/31/2009 12/30/2009 travis (big brother) Megan mommom mommom Hey baby brother i love and miss you very much.i wish you were here so i could play with you Happy new year buddy i love you and miss you more everyday Hey little angel i love u the snow is beautiful r u playing in the snow making a snowman see u soon. miss u so much Good morn angel i love u hope u r having a good day. miss u so much. 12/29/2009 12/29/2009 12/28/2009 12/27/2009 MOM~TO JOSHUA~JAMIE WAGGONER mommom mommom mommom Good morn angel i love u so much miss u have a good day talk to u later baby Good morn angel just wanted to say i love u so much and have a good day...talk to u later Hi angel i love u and miss u hope u got alot trucks for from santa i know u r watching over travis & sissy they miss u so much 12/26/2009 12/25/2009 12/25/2009 12/25/2009 mommom mommom Daddy travis Jones Grandma june Good morn angel i love u miss u so much It just does not seem like xmas without you,travis & savannah, love u so much merry xmas baby I love you baby boy merry christmas I love you khia merry christmas from the family 12/25/2009 12/25/2009 12/24/2009 12/23/2009 Uncle andrew mommom mom mom mommom I love you baby merry christmas i wish you were here just watch over everyone love you Merry Christmas Little Angel hope Santa brought you some trucks,look over Travis & Savannah make sure they have a good XMAS.LU Hey baby santa will be coming in afew hrs i sent you balloons 2day hope u gotem.love u miss u Hey baby just wanted to say i love u and miss u alot.. What a beautiful little man you are. May this candle forever burn bright in memory of you sweet angel. Hugs to you and your mommy. 12/22/2009 12/20/2009 12/19/2009 12/19/2009 mom mom mommom junestewart mom mom Hi angel love u, miss ycou so much. Hi angel just wanted 2 say love & miss u. having fun in the snow... Hi khia i know you send all this snow from above with love we love you too. Hi Angel snows beautiful travis & savannah will be so happy & know u made it snow for them & thinking of them love u 12/18/2009 12/17/2009 12/16/2009 12/15/2009 mom mom mom mom mom mom mom mom Gm angel lv u santa be here sn,make sure gg& u bake him cookies dnt 4get make it snow xmas,my heart aches evday 4u love u, Good morn angel i love & miss u talk to u later little angel have a good day Hi angel i miss & love u so much it's been 11months 2day that u left us still feels lke yesterday.miss u Ur beautiful angel so can you make it snow 4 xmas 4 travis& savannah i will make sure we never 4get our last xmas 2gether loya 12/15/2009 12/14/2009 12/13/2009 12/12/2009 Uncle Andrew N Grandma June mom mom mom mom mom mom Hi angel just wanted to say i love and miss you so much..i'll u soon Good morning angel just wanted to say i love u and miss u. have a good day. Hi angel jsut wanted to say i love you and miss you so much have a good day wish u were here We love u N Miss U Watch Over Ya Big Head Father C U Lata 12/11/2009 12/10/2009 12/09/2009 12/08/2009 mom mom mom mom mom mom mom mom Hi, baby i love you and miss you i tried to see Travis & Savannah 2day but couldnt so just watch over them love you Hey baby just wanted to say hi and i love you so much and miss you alot Good morning angel i love, & miss you so much. make sure you watch over your sisters and brother.....later little angel Sorry it took so long to light you a candle but just know that i love you still miss you so much little angel love you 10/21/2009 10/20/2009 10/19/2009 10/18/2009 mom mom mom mom mom mom mom mom Good morning angel i love you so much Hey little angel i love you I miss and love you little angel I love you sweet little angel miss you so much 10/17/2009 10/17/2009 10/16/2009 10/15/2009 MAMAW TO LOUIE mom mom mom mom mom mom God bless your family. I love you angel I miss you little angel. see you soon i love you Hey baby it looks like their's another angel coming home today. so just make sure you show her the ropes up in heaven love you 10/15/2009 10/14/2009 10/13/2009 10/13/2009 mom mom mom mom mom mom Good morning little angel hope you have a good day and i love you more everday. I love you sweet little angel Good afternoon angel i love you more and more everyday. see you soon keep watch over travis and savannah for me.love you sweethear Mom to Angel Justin Lindley Those whom we have cherished live on forever for love wraps itself around the heart. 10/12/2009 10/11/2009 10/10/2009 10/09/2009 mom mom mom mom mom mom mom mom Good morning angel i love you I miss you little angel Good morning my little angel i love and miss you very much Good morning little angel. i love you more then words can ever say 10/08/2009 10/08/2009 10/08/2009 renie khia khia mom mom Hope you keep gg busy sure her and pop pop are giving you lots of love uncle dane too This candle is sent to u with a lot of hugs and kisses. your family loves and misses you very much. Happy birthday and i love and miss you very much Condolences from the deepest of our hearts.. mom 2 Waylon Kitchens thinkin of you The sky is filled with Angels With puffy lacy wings The remnants of God's beauty With treasures they now bring January 5, 2010 Each one of them a Guardian That travels in the sky To watch throughout eternity Their parents from on high Smiles that come from Angels They fall like crystal rain Eases earthly burdens Lifting all life's pain Halos so astounding That glitter gold each day Following their loved ones In such a perfect way Wings in gentle breezes That fall from up above Kissing every parent With everlasting love Angels soar through heaven With everlasting light Looking down from heaven Saying their "goodnights" Kissing all who loved them So gently on the face This life's tender mercy Each parent can embrace Wings and shiny halos Travel from on high Surrounding all their loved ones They never say good-bye. JOSHUA~JAMIE'S MOM SENDING A BIG HUG TO YOU KHIA December 29, 2009 Hendrick Polanco My deepest condolences October 9, 2009 My deepest condolences. May these few words from the Holy Scriptures bring you comfort in your time of grief... John 11:32-45 32 And so Mary, when she arrived where Jesus was and caught sight of him, fell at his feet, saying to him: “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” 33 Jesus, therefore, when he saw her weeping and the Jews that came with her weeping, groaned in the spirit and became troubled; 34 and he said: “Where have YOU laid him?” They said to him: “Lord, come and see.” 35 Jesus gave way to tears. 36 Therefore the Jews began to say: “See, what affection he used to have for him!” 37 But some of them said: “Was not this [man] that opened the eyes of the blind man able to prevent this one from dying?” 38 Hence Jesus, after groaning again within himself, came to the memorial tomb. It was, in fact, a cave, and a stone was lying against it. 39 Jesus said: “TAKE the stone away.” Martha, the sister of the deceased, said to him: “Lord, by now he must smell, for it is four days.” 40 Jesus said to her: “Did I not tell you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?” 41 Therefore they took the stone away. Now Jesus raised his eyes heavenward and said: “Father, I thank you that you have heard me. 42 True, I knew that you always hear me; but on account of the crowd standing around I spoke, in order that they might believe that you sent me forth.” 43 And when he had said these things, he cried out with a loud voice: “Laz´a·rus, come on out!” 44 The [man] that had been dead came out with his feet and hands bound with wrappings, and his countenance was bound about with a cloth. Jesus said to them: “Loose him and let him go.” 45 Therefore many of the Jews that had come to Mary and that beheld what he did put faith in him; Please go to the following link for more information regarding the Hope expressed in this passage http://www.watchtower.org/e/200809/article_01.htm Memories all the gray you turned into colors.. mommom I remember the day your crazy sister Savannah covered you in makeup we thought she picked you up and maybe dropped you but she just decorated your beautiful face, GG always was letting you sleep on her bed, take care of you, she must of knew you both were going to heaven and be together forever i guess she just wanted you with her. Make sure that you keep uncle Dane on his toes maybe he can take you for a ride on his motorcycle, It's only afew days from one year and this time has gone way to fast. Your brother and sister really miss you so much. We love you felicia hinton I remember how you use to always sit around and bounce and thats when i decided to call you bouncy Love Grandma Felicia mom mom i remember the day i walked in the house with Savanah and you pushed her out of the way just to run to hug me, on christmas day you had Savannah's Hanna Montanna wig on your head and she said that you look like ET, and when you were playing with the little motorcycle that i got for uncle dane and then you took it home with you that day, i really wanted you to have it. You also use to climb over my couch on my bed everytime i wasn't looking. no matter how many times i yelled at you to stop you would wait until i wasn't looking to do it again and again. i am so glad that we had a chance to go to the beach last year cause that was the first and only time we ever had a vaaction, you stayed in my arms the whole time on the beach you were so scared of the water and so was Travis but your crazy sister wasn't afraid of getting in the water. Life Story every hour, every thought, every smile.. December 31, 2009 It will be the little things that you will remember, the quiet moments, the smiles, the laughter and although it may seem hard right now, it will be the memories of these little things that help to push away the pain, and bring the smiles back, again December 31, 2009 A Mother's Daily Nightmare I woke up this morning, And you where not there. I can't kiss your cheek, Or brush back your hair. The day's of joy are over, The pain and sorrow start. Because when you went to heaven, You also took my heart. I have to live my nightmare, Each morning when I wake. I have to feel this pain, With every breath I take. With gut wrenching sorrow, And mind numbing pain. I daily live this nightmare, Over and Over again. ~Author Unknown Our Deepest Sympathy www.last-memories.com