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EkiZen - Newsletter from the Sangha of Shinnyoji Winter 2013 - n. 17 year IV OurbelovedTemple,Daijojiimmersedinthesnow ZenTempleLaGendronnière18‐20October2013 Our Teacher Shinnyo Roshi visited “La Gendronnière” Zen Temple in France to attend the AnnualSeminarorganizedbythe“EuropeanSōtōZenOffice”. This year the conference, held in English and translated into French was titled “Critical Interpretation and Technological Instruments in the Study of Doctrinal Foundation Sōtō Teachings”specifically“ThewayofstudingDōgenandtheSōtōZenTeaching‐Introductionto Japanese and Western approach”. The speaker was Seijun Ishii, ex‐Director of Komozawa University,ofthegreatestinternationalexpertofresearchandmoderninterpretationofthe Sōtō Zen teachings and of the most notable academics in traditional and modern methodologiesinBuddhistStudies. WarriorsoftheSpirit The other night during the Kusen held at the second Zazen, our Teacher used this phrase “Warriors of the Spirit”, referring to us, Zen practitioners. It was lovely! So whoever of us chooses to practice the Zen Way with our Teacher, is a warrior, and the adversaries are illusion,attachments,conditions,habits,egoism,andincorrectviews.Summedintooneword: yourego. Us warriors of the spirit have a very powerful weapon: Zazen. Our Teacher, faithful to the heritage of our Lineage, doesn’t ever get tired of telling us how much importance Dōgen placed onmeditation. Furthermore, like every true Zen Teacher, Shinnyo Roshi tells us that evenwhodoesnotpracticeZazencanbeapersononthePath.Eachoneofus,asshealways says,isaBuddhaandwealllivewithourkarma. IamonceagainonthepathandthankmyTeacherandmyfriendsoftheSangha,especially those with whom I have been practicing for a long time. Whenever I was down, they know how to support me with their gazes (every time we saw each other) and with their Zazen. Thanks Gasshō Beingthere OurTeacheroftentellsusabouttheimportanceofourpresenceattheTemple.Athousand booksarenotequaltoaZazendonewithaSanghaandZenTeacher.Beyondbeingthere,itis alsotheonlywaytolive,withpractice,theBodhisattvaspiritthatcanhelpothers.Howelse cannewandoldpractitionerstestifythatwearethere,inZazen,supportingandencouraging ourselves. Shinkai Silence Silence‐it’saphysicalnecessity,almostlikeair. Whatissilence?WhatdoesitmeantomeandwhydoIneeditsomuch? Silence scares us because it frees a suffocated scream inside the mind. Silence is disarming becauseitputsusinfrontofourselves,itliberatesusfromdistractions,ittakesawayexcuses andoptions,itobligesustocatchourbreathandlistenclosely.Itishardtomanage,itseems useless and dangerous, unattractive and often unknown, silence, in reality, is a big effort. It helpsusopenthewindowsofthosedarkmustyandstaleroomsinourminds.Thebrightlight ofwisdomandcompassionshinesandfinallyletsusfindthethingsthathavebeentherefor yearsbutwehavenevernoticed. Silence strips bear the I ‐ it disarms it, making it insecure, taking away its strength. At the beginning its reaction is angry and it unleashes a complex creation of images, visions, apparitionsmadejusttodistracttheattentionfromitsnudity,buttheeffectlastsjustalittle bit because it doesn’t have the catalyzing element: the listening, observing and gawking public.Withoutit,theIcannotbearthe standoff with its worst enemy: the impossibilityforittoexistalone. Silence, a great inspiring strength, a greatrefuge.Initwecanperceive,even ifjustforamoment,theessenceofour existence. Onecanhaveavisualflashofwhatthe complexmechanismisthatgovernsus, the unstoppable flow of our mind evolving that mixes into infinite other beings,likewaterintowater.Insilence, every movement, every thought can move with a very natural cadence allowingitselftoexistinawareness. Willweeverhaveenoughofsilence?It issomethingtoobigforusandforour minds. Our continuum, exactly like a river,wearsawayatthebed,makinga channel along a path determined by causesandexternalfactors.Ifitdidn’t, it would disperse into thousands of useless streams and would be easily absorbed into the ground. No, we are still not ready to give ourselves up to silence,ourmindsstillcannotpenetrateeverything‐wearestillnotlikewaterinwater. I turn on music, I open a book, I squint my eyes, I look for someone to talk to.... I fill an emptinesswithemptinessbutIfeelmoresecure,andfromthevoid,theIreappears,rejoicing forhavingescapeddanger,arrogantasusual. Ei‐shin Thankyou Thepastfewyearshavebeenveryhardforme.EkiZenhasbeenaclearandsilenttestimony. Mytestimonieshavegatheredandrevealedhowmuchthathashappenedinmylife. Today I can say that thanks to my pain, I am free from any “illusions”. I am certainly more aloneandIhavefewerhopes,buttherearestillsome. Practicewasabighelp.ShinnyoRoshiknewhowtostayclosetomewithoutdoinganything outoftheordinary,butshewasthere.Shewasmylightthroughdesperation.Ifpracticeisfor this,forthejoyofbeingableto‐maybe‐onedaybealighttosomeone:mychildren,mywife, myfriends,strangerswhoIhavemetand‐whoknows‐evenpeoplewhohavehurtmealot andIwouldliketoforgive. Shinkai QuarterlyNewsletterfromtheDaijojiMonastery,DaijojiDayorin.115 September2013 “TheFoundationoftheSekaiZenSenta,InternationalZenCenter” SekaiZenSentawasfoundedatDaijojionMay14th,2013. TheInaugurationandFirstReunionwasheldonJune9th. DuringtheSecondReuniononJuly3rd,theofficialassignmentsweregiventothemembers and our Abbot Azuma Ryushin Roshi was nominated President of the Center and Hei Dōki RoshiasVicePresident.Theotherrolesarepublishedonthefollowingpage(2). The main objective of the Sekai Zen Senta is to define the current reality of Zazen practitioners throughout the world, mainly their state of collaboration and reciprocal relationship.Wedeepenourprayerforworldpeace.Theactivityforpreparationandservices arebeginning.Wesincerelyaskforyourunderstandingandcollaboration. “TheSuzukiDaisetsuMuseum” ASeriesofConferencesheldfromSanshuRoshi‐OurAbbot” The Suzuki Daisetsu Museum in Kanazawa organized a series of conferences to help us understand this great philosophy on the theme: “Suzuki Daisetsu and Zen Culture”, upon whichSanshuRoshi,ourAbbot,heldtalkson:“TheSourceofEverydayCultureinJapanand Zen”onMay18th,2013andlateron:“TheOriginsofZenCulture”onJune15th,2013,bothat theKabukiTheaterinKanazawa. Sincethereweremorerequeststoattendthanexpected,theMuseumorganizershadtolimit themaximumnumberofattendeesto70people,whichwasthemaxcapacityofthevenue. “AnItalianGroupLeadbyShinnyoRoshi:TheVisitandthePractice” Iten Shinnyo Roshi, Abbot of Shinnyoji and follower of our Abbot Azuma Ryushi Roshi returned to Japan with three of her followers, Iten Goshen, Iten Benshin and Gregorio Pitti. They intensely dedicated themselves to practicing the Way of our Temple from June 7th to 18th. They were all very happy to have follow the course held by our Abbot on the the ShōbōgenzōZazengi. “Buppō,Bukkyō,Butsudō:TheBuddhaDharma,Buddhism,theWayoftheBuddha”byAbate AzumaRyūshinRoshi ReadingthetextsbyDōgenZenji,forexamplethe95volumesintheShōbōgenzō,wenotice the fact that, besides the Bukkyō chapter, they mostly contain numerous words such as “Buppō”or“Butshudō”. Therearevariousinterpretationsoftheterm“Hō”(Dharma)oftheBuppō,butaccordingto me,DharmameansTruth. SowhatisTruth?Itsignifiestheconsciousnessthatcannotbeexpressedthroughwordsand letters, meaning Reality itself that goes beyond our discernment. Through the three times: pastpresentandfuture(time)andtheTendirections(space),everythingthatexistsisReality. Even we are Reality. But if he try to understand this, we immediately fail. The Shakamuni BuddhaunderstoodtheDharmathroughZazenandbecameawareofbeingDharmaitself.The term “Kyō” (teaching) by Bukkyō represents the transmission and words of the Shakamuni thatoriginatefromhiscompassionbyhelpingusbeawareoftheDharmamanifestedbefore us. They are the Sutras. The Sutras are the Buddha’s teachings. The Sutras are taught accordingtothelevelofwhoisstudyingthembecausetheycanbeacceptedbyeveryone.Itis why they care called “Hachimansisen no Hōmon ‐ the 8,400 doors to the Dharma ‐ the numerousteachings”.TheSutraswillnumerouslyarisealsointhefuturebecausepeoplewill besavedandEnlightedthroughthem. Intheend,althoughtheteachingsoftheBuddhaareverybeautiful‐themeritsoftheBukkyō cannotariseifitisnotpracticed.ThispracticeistheWay,inotherwords,theBuddhaWay‐ Butsudō.TheWayoftheBuddhaislimitlesslyextendedlikeourdailylives. “ZazenandZen” Everywhereintoday’ssocietyweloudlyhearthewordZen.DaijojiisaBuddhistTemplefor theZenSchool.Itisgenerallydefined‐bymyselfandbyothers‐asaTemplebelongingtothe SōtōSchoolofZenBuddhism,butthisdefinitionisusuallytheconsequenceofthecustomof today’ssociety.Inhistexts,DōgenZenjiveryoftenmentionsthethewordsZa(satdown)and Zazen. He rarely uses the word Zen. He said that it wasn’t possible to correctly define the teachingtransmittedfromtheBuddhaandthePatriarchswiththesameofaSchoollikeSōtō orZen.TheoriginofthewordZenisDhyāna,inSanskritwhichcomesfromtheChineseword Channa, abbreviated as Chán, or Zen in Japanese. According to the Buddhist dictionary by Iwanami Publishing House, the word Zen means meditation or unification of the mind and body. However,accordingtoDōgenZenji,theZazencorrectlytransmittedfromSākyamuniBuddha andofthePatriarchsisHishiryō,meaning“tostopallthoughtmomentandtheconcentration ofthemind,”orinashorterversion,nottothinkofanything.Thisiswhyit’sbettertousethe wordZaratherthanthewordZen,andevenbetter,tehwordZazen.DōgenZenjisaidthatZa wastheTrueNatureofourselves.Zazenisn’tmeditation.Itdoesn’ttrytounifythemindand body.Itcan’tbecomeMu,nothingness. Kyosaku TheKyosakuisa70cmlongstickthatresemblesaswordwithoutahilt.ItisoftenusedinZen Monasteries and Temples to help practitioners concentrate. During Zazen, an elderly practitionerslowlywalksbehindthefellowpractitionersastheymeditateandhitsthemona precisepointontherightshoulderwiththeKyosaku.Thishithasthepowertocalmsomeone downifheorsheisnervousoritcanawakenifthepersonissleepy. AtShinnyoji,theKyosakuiskeptnearthealtar.OurZen,althoughitisrigorousandrespects thetraditionoftheAncientPatriarchs,doesnotusetheKyosaku.I’mnotgoingtoexplainwhy notbecauseI’mjustapractitioner,butIcansaythathavinghaddirectexperiencesinZazen practiceinotherItalianZendos,Ithinkthatourpraxisisveryinteresting.Also,this“missing element” forcesus to work harder to calm down or wakeup, on our own. Italso givesus a larger silence and a larger concentration, as well as solitude during meditation. Lastly, it doesn’tbring“lightpunishment”thatusingtheKyuosakumayprovoke.Itdoesn’tignorethe fewtimesthatourTeacherusedtheKyosaku,wewelcomeitlikeeverythingelseatShinnyoji‐ withopenarms,withoutjudgment,weletourbodiesandmindsgo.Oratleast(Isaythiswith asmile)Itrytodoso. Shinkai ATeacher’sExample AlthoughtheZenWayispracticedbyfewpeopleintheworldandfewthroughouthistory,it hasproducedmanytexts.Thisisverystrangebecauseifwereadafew“official”texts,likethe historic ones, it seems that our Practice must be done along with a Teacher. It’s an uncomfortableideabecauseaninstructionalbookislikeadog,youareincommandofit,buta Teacherontheotherhand,aTeacherinteractswithyouandsometimesnotinagreementof howwewouldlike.Frommyexperience,IcanconfirmthataTeacherisnecessarymostofall for the example. It doesn’t matter if he or she says something, just that he or she moves. A person on the Path understands the silent language of the Teacher. Our Teacher Shinnyo Roshiveryoftenspeaksthroughheractionsthatcreatenumeroussilentteachings.Arecent example: Roshi decided to shave her head a little while ago for the Rōhatsu night, a very important night for us Zen Buddhists and in particular, for us at Shinnyoji because two practitionerswereordained.Thegestureofshavingherheadwasverypowerfulandgavea strongexampleforallofus. Shinkai Excerptfrom:“Introduction”Chapter1oftheLotusSutra “AndIseethosewho observetheprecepts, noflawintheirconduct, pureasjewelsandgems, andinthemannerseekingtheBuddhaway. AndIseeBuddhasons abidinginthestrengthoffortitude, takingtheabuseandblows ofpersonsofoverbearingarrogance, willingtosufferallthese, andinthatmannerseekingtheBuddhaway. Iseebodhisattvas removingthemselvesformfrivolityandlaughterandfromfoolishcompanions, befriendingpersonsofwisdom, unifyingtheirminds,dispellingconfusion,orderingtheirthoughtsinmountainand forestforamillion,athousand,tenthousandyears inthatmannerseekingtheBuddhaway.” SincemyrecenttriptoShinnyojilastSeptemberIfeelevenstrongertheimportanceofhaving andtakingcareofanaltarinmyhome.MyisintheloftareaofmyapartmentinSeattle,alittle space about the living room with a ladder meant for a storage space, for me it is where I practiceZazeneverymorning.WhenImademyaltar,Itookaboxandarollofbamboo,thenI putalittleBuddhastatueontopthatmybrothergavemeformybirthday.Iaddedafewgreen and grey stones, crystals and a white candle. I always keep a lemon or sprig of basil, or something that reminds me of Italy on my altar. Our Teacher gave me a small bowl that came from a temple in Kyoto for daily offering. I always keep seashells from Viareggio, one is turned upside‐down and filled with sugar for the offering. Somethings change on my altar, like when someone gives me something, or sends me a postcard, inthepicturethereis the incense that the Teachergaveme.NowthereisapostcardfromthePantheon,averyspiritualplaceforme. IthinkalotaboutthealtaratShinnyoji,Ifeelthecandle’sflameandthesmelltheincense.I thinkaboutyouallwhilewesittogether,IwishIcouldbewithyou,rememberthatmyheart isthere.ThankyouTeacherandmySangha,whomIloveverymuch.Thanksagain. Gasshō Tenshin OurTeacherwasinvitedbyRev.TaigōSpongiaSensei‐HeadInstructorin ItalyoftheIOGKF‐heldadayofZazenkaiattheToraKanDōjōinRome. Conferenceon“TheStyleofJapanesePoetry:Haiku”byProf.PaoloPagliat ShinnyojionOctober13th,2013. Conference:“TheHistoryofBuddhisminJapan”byProf.HirooNakajimaat ShinnyojionNovember16th,2013. Zazenkai October 13th, 2013 SPECIALRŌHATSU2013 Excerptfrom“ZenintheArtofEnlightenment”byKeizanJokin,thesecondAbbotofthe DaijojiTemple1268‐1325 Chapter1‐BuddhaShakyamuni TheShakyamuniBuddhaabandonedhispalacewhenhewasnineteenyearsoldandshaved his head. For six years he followed ascetic practice. He sat for 6 years in an indestructible chairsostillthattherewerespiderwebsoverhiseyelidsandabird’snestuponhisheadand plantsgrewaroundthechairwherehesat.Onhis30thbirthdaywhichwasthe8thdayofthe 12thmonth,wewassuddenlyEnlightedwhenthefirstmorningstarappeared.Hesaid,“Iam Enlightedalongwithallothersentientbeingsoftheearth”. Hethenpassedthenext49yearsteachingandhelpingothers,withouteverbeingalone.With onlyhisrobeandasinglesmallbowl,hehadeverythingheneeded.Hetaughtatmorethan 370assemblies,finallypassedtheEyeTreasureofTruthtoKashyapaandthistransmission continuestoday. ThisistherootoftheTransmissionandthePracticeoftheTrueTeachinginIndia,Chinaand Japan. The Shakyamuni Buddha’s behavior throughout the his life is a model for his disciples who succeededhim.EversincetherehavebeenpeopleintheworldwhosearchedfortheWayof his Teaching, they have always imitated the form and behavior of the Buddha and in their everymovement,theykeptthetaskofself‐awarenesspreeminent. HavingbeenpassedfromBuddhatoBuddha,fromfollowertofollower,thetrueTeachinghas neverbeenforgotten.AlthoughtheBuddhadidnotalwaysindicateorexplainthesamething in more then 370 discussions during his 40 years, the various stories, parables, metaphors and explanations do not go beyond the exemplified principle of the story of his Enlightenment. This means that the self is not the Shakyamuni Buddha, even if the Shakyamuni Buddha comes from the self. Not only does it give birth to the Shakyamuni Buddha,butallbeingsontheEarthcomefromit.Inthatsamewaythatawovennetcreatesa cloth,whentheShakyamuniBuddhawasEnlightedsotoowereallofthebeingsoftheEarth andallBuddhasofthepast,presentandfuture. Being likethis,whatis theprincipleof Enlightenment?I’masking:TheBuddhaisEnlighted along with you? Are you Enlighted along with a Buddha? If you see that you have become EnlightedalongwiththeBuddhaorthattheBuddhahasbecomeEnlightedwithyou,itisnot the Enlightenment of the Buddha. This is way you cannot call it the principle of Enlightenment. Also, I, and others together are not neither one nor two. Your skin, flesh, bones,ormarrow;doesnothavegreatphysicalelementsnotmentalelements.Thereforedo notconsidertheEarth’sbeingdifferentforyourselves.Theseasonscomeandgo,mountains, rivers and regions change in various moments: know that it’s due to the Buddha who is raising its eyebrow or blinking its eyes. It’s due the unified body that is manifested in a myriadofforms.Thisiswhystudyingitfromeveryangleandpenetratingitineveryway,you clarifytheEnlightenmentoftheBuddhaandunderstandyourEnlightenment. “Abranchprotrudesfromtheoldapricottree.Atthesametimethornsareborn.” PRACTICETESTIMONIES Yūshin It was difficult developing this year’s practice theme. Mushin is a very delicate and fragile conditionforme,thatcanescapeatanymoment. It’s hard to free the mind from the attachments of everyday routine defined by my study schedule,myfamilyandwork.PracticingZazenhasbecomemoreandmoretangibleasthere arenotonlyattachmentsandobstaclesthatmustbeovercomebutworriesinconnectionto worldactivity,worriesthatourmindsironicallydon’twanttoseparatethemselvesfrom. TheSesshinsthisyearhavehelpmeexperienceclearingawaythecloudsthatweighmymind, Zazen after Zazen the habits of our thoughts cease, naturally and spontaneously allowing Mushinconcentration.Themoretimethatpasses,themoreexperiencesoftheWaythatshow mehowdifficultitistopracticeZeninaworldandinaconditioninwhichwealllive.Despite thesedifficulties,IamnotdiscouragedbecauseIknowthatI’mathomeuponthepaththatI’m taking. Piergiorgio Our practice has made me understand and appreciate the sense of being aware. Sitting in Zazenwithmyeyesopen,alowgaze,Iawake,IsettledownandIfeellightasafeather.Ifind myselfaware,present,Igointoaflowwitheverything,here,now,butalsowithmypastand future. I notice that I am without form, empty and full at the same time. I smile during this momentsofawareness. Daishin Ever since I began sittingin Zazen, as a mountain lover, I have thought about writingi somethingon“ZenandtheArtofMountainClimbing”:primarilyfocusingonthephysicaland emotional act of climbing that involves the body and mind, moments of interior confusion, inclinations, hesitations, fear and imagination, all to be recovered in the “here and now” representedbyyourbreath,bytheclarityofthemind,andbytheactiondoneinthemoment: stepbystep,withawareness,withhandlesthatareoftenunexpected. Recently,othermetaphoricalaspectsofmymountainclimbingexperienceshaverelatedtomy PracticeattheTempleandintheSangha,2013waslikeatheatrewithsuddentwists,changes, expansionsandregressions. Evenmyprivatelife,timesoftirednessandfear,havecontributedtothisresonancebringing breathlessness,exhaustionandtheemptinessthatIfeelwhileclimbing. Economiceffortstosustainpeopleclosetomeindifficultyandmysonwhostudiesinanother city, all choices made with a heavy heart, mind and body, have created weight, like friends attachedtomebyametaphoriccordaroundmywaist,emphasizingtheresponsibilityIown for their well being. Between work, practice, everyday exhaustion, pain and stiffness my of agingbody,andashorthoursofsleepfullofdreams,likethehighaltitudeescapeinterposed whenpossible,Ihaveoftentreatedmyselflikeanobject,betweenclarityandalighttrance.I have often perceived the Temple as a peaceful oasis, but even it has seen unforeseen avalanches.Ihavesharedlongcollectiveeffortsforsupportingthosewithemergencies.Some fellowclimbershavemarchedtogetherinaconvoytogether,whileotherhaveseensomeone stumbleabit,riskingafall,draggingnewerclimbersbehindthem.Sometimesafoots“falls” into hard snow on the surface and goes deep: the equilibrium is broken and the cord is yankedcausingustogasp.Ifsomeoneslipsfromasteepcliffsomeoneelsemustdivetothe otherdirectioninordertosavetherestofthegroupfromfalling.Wehardlyevertakerisks,or wefallalone.ThisisaSangha.ThisishowIfeel. The rigid formality of the Temple is like a self‐examination, done in refuge, with your own toolsandonyourowncapacitytogetoutandclimb;itiswhatyouknowaboutyourselfand whatyouare,andfreefromresourcesthatallowyoutocontemplatearoundhorror,beauty, easeanddanger. Igo,Iact,Iwalk....ina giventimeIthinkthat I’vereachedthenextpinnacle,I try, Idetach myself,....andIfindmyselfstillfarawayfromit.Mydisappointmentofthemirageshouldn’t destroy the tension of progress: never think too much, don’t have regrets, get mad. I think about rhythm, counting and breathing step by step, or singing, keeping rhythm, ancient memories,powerfullikeaSutra. Inthesamewaythedeceivingfeelingthatthesoughtafterpinnacleisnearvanishes.Theysay thatyoucanneverownthemountain:onthesummit,itisthemountainthatpossessyou,and yourealizethisonlywhilelookingupfromthevalley,yourfeetarehumbledbytheeuphoria of trying, after having loosing concentration and exhaustion of descending. I have always riskedthisinmyPractice,everytimeIseemtohavereachedandgraspedontosomething Fromabove,ifyouhangaroundonthecordorstumbleintothehypnosisofautomaticsteps, someonemayyellatyouortugyou.AttheTemple,Roshi’dKyosakudoesn’tstrikethosewho aredaydreamingorundisciplined,butwords,themind,andgoals,ithitsmorethanwood,and withthesameobjective,strikesenergyandcompassion.IntheSangha,weareboundtogether by the chord of our practice, sometimes in the smiles of green pastures and streams and sometimesbetweenpainandhardshipsofwarwithinaparchedinteriorduringZazen,Samu, assigned responsibilities and our everyday private lives, together we resist and progress together. Withsnowuptomywaistline,thefirstinlinecreatesthetrailandwhoeverfollowsstepsin thefootstepsmakingchangesuponit.Someoneretreatsbyuntyinghimself,disappearsinthe fog,orfallsandislostforeverorjustforalittlewhile.FromwhatIhaveseen,betweenusin theSangha,thereciprocalrepercussionsoftheseeventsareneverbrieforgowithoutnotice. In light of climbing and the “race to the top”, we recently had an experience regarding somethingoftendebatedevenbetweenusclimbers.Inthepast,asperhapsinmartialZenthat one feels in some environments, the verticality, the absolute heroic tension toward the top, andit’sunquestionedfollowing,areunalienablevalues. Today,somedissidentandtransgressivevoices,fundamentallysustain,ifnecessary,thevalor ofquittingorholdingback. AsinZazen,oneshouldpracticewithoutgoals,asyoushouldmovetowardthesummitwith aninnocentspirit,withsimplicity,naturalness,andsensitivity,hearttoheart,betweenperson andenvironment,betweenClimbingBuddhaandMountainBuddha,whichisthemomentin whichaclimbercanbreakaneggshellanddare,whiletheMountain,likeateacher,welcomes himtothetop. Sometimesitisnecessarytostop,evenifjustastepawayfromthesparklingicytop.Abandon plansandorganization,ifinadequate.Iadmireandsmileupontheideaofknowingwhento quit. Back on the ground again, tiredly walking, amongst our own imperfect Zazen and repeated errors,ourintegrityandtheintegrityofothers:admittingandacceptingwhoweare.Thisis why, in order to stay whole, to stay optimistic but in realistic conditions, you don’t have to alwaysonlyclimb:youcanalsowander,orgodown,foralittlewhileorforever:thisdoesn’t meantogiveup,itmeanstoworkonandcareforaprocessofawareness. In2013Iperceivedthisveryoften,andRoshi,withagreatheart,wordsandactionsseemed toemphasizethis. I see the stone tower built and demolished many time by Milarepa, by apparent fits of his TeacherMarpa,beforecomingtohimandwelcominghimasastudent,andalwayssupported fromafarbythecompassionoftheTeacher’swife. .....“TheLifeofMilrepa”byRechung,“TheAnalogMountatin!byDaumal,“TheMeditationsof theSummit”byJuliusEvola... Books,trees,rocksandice:thelivingBuddhaofmyPractice....Irunmyfingersalongthebook bindingsalongmypartner’sbookshelf,andthatonlyhaveapartialexistenceinmylife,Iread atitle,anauthor,andIopenarandompage,Ifeelvoracious,fullofhumanpainandtension, withoutenoughpracticeandtime,liketheproseandpoemsofDinoCampana. Iwanderbetweenjourneysandrestingplacesthepilgrimmountain. Words that welcome many more, Mushin, and that I freely construct: I find these words adequateforthiseveningofvigilandthistime:“Ilivedbetweenmysticlonelinessdetached likeasimplegreydoveflyingtowardstheimmenselyopenvalleys....Thetallrockcolumnsof theVerna,thatreflectgreylightatthesummitduringsunset,adarkforestallaroundme... On the unending rocks that go higher and higher, natural towers are built that suport the conventual house reflecting light from the West... The peaceful strength of the spirit, rocks throwninapilefromastrongwindtowardthesky,thepeacefulnessofnaturebeforebeing coveredwithgreenwoods,purifiedbyaninfinitelovingspirit...” “Thereisthenight;andhereIstayvigil Clearerandclearer:Iamfarandalone Theserviceisquiet,towardtheinfinite (Thespiritisquiet)solemnpoems Tothenight:tothenight:Imean:Only Shadowsthatreturn,thathadleftus....” Benshin SittingattheTempleduringtheRōhatsuvigiltomesignifiesthatanotheryearofpracticehas passedandI’mstillpracticing.Thereforeaitislikealittlepersonalcelebrationatthesame time as the great celebration of the Buddha’s Enlightenment. The Teacher spoke about Mushinthisyearasthethemeforourpractice,itseemsrightsasthatImomentarilysensedits perfume,loweringmygaze,Iwelcomeditsomehow.Anyway,thepathseemedstraightand clear,howeverIcametoaslipperypathfullofconfusion,doubtandfear,lotsoffear I remember a Benshin from a few months ago, she was so serious, efficient and always present,shewassostrongandconvincedoftheTemple’spracticethatshedecidedtoreturn to the Temple in Japan. Sometimes I regret it. Maybe she was too efficient, too present, too convinced. And this is how the prickly period began after the stay in Japan. A break from practicingattheTemple,buthavebeenconsistentathome. It’strulydifficulttopracticealone,youfeelnakedandverylonely,andonedoesn’tknowhow tomoveforward,butonecangoalone,atleastforalittlewhile.Butwhatafearitistolose yourpractice,tobelost! IcamebacktotheTemplethankstotheTeacher,aswiththerestofthedifficultieswithherI left them behind. Now there is a hesitant Benshin, on her own, without Samue and Sangha friends.Morefragile?Moreaware?Maybeonlydifferent. SometimesIaskmyselfwhyIpractice.Idon’tfindananswer.ButIpractice,andmostofall, whenit’ssunnyout,I’mhappy.Thankyoueveryone. Shinden It’snoteasyformetospeakaboutmyexperienceattheTemple,wordsaren’tenough....They arefirstofall“due”todeepthankfulnesstoShinnyoRoshi,Iwouldsay“endless”thanks,a thankfulnessforexistingwithusinthismoment,forbeingsomeonetosharewith,onmany levels, the same Path. Thanks forhow she encourages and supports Living and Life. Roshi’s presenceinourlivesisundeniable,notbecauseit’suseful,butratherbecauseshe’s“nextto us!”. Thank you for her passion and intelligence for the constant work and for establishing and alwaysdefiningherZen,Shinnyoji’sZen,andItalianZen,whichIfeelthemostapartofandof whichIsharethedeepspiritandmostjoyousabout.Zenisbasedontheclearteachingsofthe BuddhaandPatriarchsandofferafreshandlivinghistoricmemory,welcomingthisWayof freedom with individual peculiarities and life choices that today express different types of freedomandconcepts.AZenthatturntoothers,tochoosingcompassionforopeningupand helpingothers,inareciprocalsense.AZenwithoutahintofecclesiasticalexaggeration,that however maintains a living ritual. The seriousness that is held in Shinnyoji, the historic Lineageisrecognized.TheeleganceofeveryaspectinShinnyoRoshi’slifeexpresseswhatus practitionershaveyettolearn.Thejoyofliving,thelackofawarenessandmortifications,the deepbeliefinbeinghumanandrespectfortheabilitytoevolveaspeople.Theironyandthe gamesthatarealwaysthere.Thedeeplisteningandcomprehensionofeveryissue.Aboveall, the Truth of Zen practice that Shinnyo Roshi expresses with her life, her being. Verifying‐ usingagesturethatIreallylove,Zen.Inthis“pathonapath”,Ibelieve,Iwouldlikeandhope topracticewithyou,ithashelpmesomuch,aspecialandimportantoccasionthatwillalways bewithme‐becausethereisalways“history”. Ithasbeenanintenseyearformeineverypointofview,IamhappytobehereatShinnyoji,I am well and I feel good with a Shangha that reciprocates the support, transmits a positive energy, without any competition or careerism. Honest and sincere. Being so happy with a Sangha is not to be taken for granted, I hope that everyone fully understand and feel the strengthofthisgift... AthoughtfulthankyourecognizingtheAbbotAzumaRoshiwhohasdonealotforShinnyoji. Onthisholidayevening,Ithankandhopethatallofmylovedones,oneofwhichIwouldlike to mention: my mother, Massimo, Sergio, Stefano, Elisabetta.... and everyone else. On this Rohatsuevening,IfeelagainmyfaithfulwishforShinnyoRoshi,totheSanghaandeachoneof us. ThankyouBuddha! MicheleN. IamwhatIam HappytobewhoIam AndIwouldneverwanttobeanythingelse. IamwhoIam,hereandnow; IthinkofwhatIam IspeakofhowIam Iwelcomemybeing,aboutbeingwhoIam hereandnow. Intheimpermanenceofeverything,aflameofhopebecomesreality,“tobetouched” bythestateofthespirit; intheebbandflowofcontinuousbeing,aflexibleaction...alion’sheart; inthechangeandrelativityofevents,anindissolubletruth.... thatisbornandre‐emergeswhatseemedinexistent; stopping,tocheckyc,indepth,oncedone,refound,youwillneverforget, ormaybeyouwill,THISISPERMANENT. IsmoShinkō DearestTeacherShinnyo,FriendsoftheShinnyojiSangha,thoseoldandnew, IpracticedatShinnyojiwhilelivinginItaly2yearsago.Itwasaveryimportanttimeforme andmyfamily.InowlieinFinlandandpracticeinadifferentZenSchoolundertheguidance ofanewteacher,butShinnyojihasalwaysbeeninmyheartandIstillconsiderShinnyoRoshi as my Teacher‐ she will always be important. In a bit I will do sanpai and take down the offering,alittlecupofsugarwater.IlearnedthispracticeatShinnyoji.Ilikegivingofferingin themorningremovingitintheevening,IsupporttheBuddhaastheBuddhasupportsme.The differentschoolsanddifferentTeacherusedifferentwaystohelptheirfollowersunderstand reality.Idon’tthinkthatonemethodissimilartoanother‐FormisEmptiness,Emptinessis Form. EvenifIhavebeenpracticingformanyyearsnow,Idon’tthinkIwilleverbeabetterperson.I getangry,Igetbeatendown,sometimesIdrink,sometimesIfeellikecrying.Atthesametime my life has not gotten better and I still have a lot of problems ‐ but the practice goes along withdifficulties,thisisok.Ihavealottohandleintheworldsurroundingme.Icannotchange much,notevenmyself,butpracticehasopenedmymindtotherealityoflifeandhasallowed me to accept things as they are. Paradoxically, this has been a great change. Thanks to you, Teacher Shinnyo, and all of my friends of the Sangha, have a fantastic Rōhatsu, a Merry ChristmasandHappyNewYear.Abighugtoyouall. Ivano WhenIarrivedatShinnyoji,duringmyfirstmeetingwiththeTeachersheaskedmethemost difficultquestion:“Whydidyoucomehere?” Myanswerwas,“topracticeZazen”,Roshisimplysmiledwithoutsayinganythingelse.Ever sinceourfirstmeeting,IhaveknownhowZazenatShinnyojiisdone,continuousandintense. A Zazen done from many things, continuous attention where awareness is a part of every gestureandword.AnancientIndiansayingsays,“whenthediscipleisready,theTeacherwill come”.ThankyouRoshiforgivingmeaplacetosit. Marco Ihave beengoing to theTempleforayearandhalfnow.When I’m here,I trytofollowthe rhythm that the Teacher implies through her actions. I sit and breath like everyone else. I joyfully sit, sometimes with a bit of fear, about being about to speak with the Teacher. Heartfelt greetings to everyone. Thanks to the Teacher, the monk, the elderly and all practitionersthathavemadethisplacepossible. Tenshin Ihaveobservedandlearnedmanythingsthroughoutthisyearofpractice.Ipracticednearly theentireyearaloneathomeinAmericawiththesupportoftheTeacher,theSanghaandthe Patriarchs.Thisyearwasverydifficult,betweenwork,moving,lonelinessandvariousother unfortunateevents,butIfoundinspirationanddeterminationthroughmyPracticeandVows oftheBodhisattva.IhavedoneZazeneveryday,IdidservicetotheTemple,andIleanedupon faithinmyPath.BeforecomingbacktotheTemplethisSeptember,Iwasabitnervousfrom thefearthatIhadn’tpracticedwellenoughandthatIwouldhavedisappointedtheTeacher. Instead, my return was a marvelous confirmation of my practice and faith. I felt a deep connectionbetweenmyself,theTeacher,ShinnyojiandthePatriarchs.Thinkingaboutitnow remindsmeofhowIfeltwhenIrealizedthatIhadbeenwalkinginthefogandreturningto theTemple,Iwaswet.Honestly,Ididn’tthinkIwasdoinganything.Ireceivedthevowswith seriousnessandeffort,fromthereon,everythingunfoldedonitsown.OurPracticeisagreat gift,Iacceptitwithstrengthanddelicateness,andmostofall,withthankfulness.Thankyou Teacher!Gasshō GregorioP. HiTeacher,howareyou?ThingsarefinehereinBerlin.IbeginGermanlanguagelessonson January13th.Ihopetofindajobsoon(it’snotaseasythatI’vebeentold).It’salsodifficultto findaplacetoliveifyoudon’thaveajobanddon’tspeakGerman.IdoZazenassoonasI’m aloneathome.WarmgreetingstoyouandtheSangha.IwilltrytositwithyouduringtheVigil onthe8th.Seeyousoon.Gasshō MicheleG. I thank the Shinnyoji Temple for this year where I have concretely strengthened the awarenessinmyselfthatisthebaseofmyspiritualpath:everypersonhastheirownBuddha Nature. In front of this reality there is a myriad of illusions, useless goals occur, while embracingthetruepathofmantowardexistence.Onecan’tsaythatwe’rejustmadeacertain wayandthere’snothingthatwecandoaboutit,inreality,therearemanythingswecando aboutitnowandyoucandothem.WhatmagnificentRealitythatoccursrightbeforeoureyes, peoplewhoarenolongerslavesofthemselves,freefromthemselvesinall,manychallenges, battletoconfrontwithaconstructivespirit,movingforwardwecreate,uncovertheHumanity ineveryhuman.HumblyGasshō.... Lō OurTeacheroftensays,“everythingisOne”.Yourealizehowmuchthisphilosophicalconcept isinrealityabsolutelyrelativetoeverydayexperienceinthemomentinwhichlifegivesyoua hardship. A strong lesson, violent and sudden. Learninghow not to judge, not to follow our foolishdualmindthatdominates:thisismygoalthatI’msettingforthisnewyearofPractice. Learninghowtonotjudgemyself,letalonediscovermyself.Toknowmyself‐andtherefore knowmyBuddhaselfinthesilenceofZazen.UncovermyselfinfacadesthatIencounterinthe everydayworld,towelcomewithoutcategorizingthebehaviorofthosearoundme.Ifeelthe closeness of every member of the Sangha. I feel the presence of the Teacher in my life, and with her‐ through her ‐ all of the Ancient Patriarchs. A sincere thank you to her, tirelessly, constantlypointingherfingertothemoontous. Shinkai TheeveningofRōhatsubringsbackalotofmemories.Isaanunforgettableevening,formany reasons.IremembermyfirstRōhatsuinSanDomenico.Manypreciousfaces,someareeven heretonight.Thenthelastone,lastyear;oneofthemostdifficultandpainfulyearsofmylife. My physical presence was there, but my mind and spirit were not. After one or two Zazen sittings,IhadtogodowntotheguestquarterswhereIslept,layinginthoughtaboutbeingin the only place in the world where I wanted to be in that painful moment, but aware that nothingandnoonecouldhelpmefeelbetter. ThisRōhatsurepresentsarebirthforme.Iamheretotestifythatevenaftergreatpain,you cangetupandstartagain.Iamnothereformyself,buttodivemypresencetoallofyouand to carry an important lesson: keep going on that Path that first Buddha, then Dōgen have givenus.Rōhatsuwithoutpractitionersisonlyaword,withushereitbecomesaneventand wecanconfirmthatafterhundredsofyearstheZenWayisstillalive. ForuspractitionersofShinnyoji,itisstillmoreimportantforustobehere.Weasupported by our Teacher Shinnyo Roshi ‐ within our official Lineage ‐ our personal way of verifying Practice. Whoever crosses the doorway of our Temple may notice the love, welcoming, compassionandgiftthatarehere.Likeamusicalvibration,ourwavesmoveinharmonywith the teachings from our beloved Teacher that penetrate the being of each guest and we are surethatwillremainintheirmemoriesandintheirheartsforever. Gasshō Haiku‐RōhatsuVigil2013 Theholymirror, repolished,isalsopure‐blossomsofsnow Toginaosu kagamimokiyoshi yukinohana. MatsuoBashō(1644–1694) TearsofReverence Nowdyedcrimson Bythefallingmapleleaves.... Tōtogaru namidayasomete chirumomiji. MatsuoBashō(1644–1694) Hehideshistrail: that’showamastertravels! Autumnisnowwaning. Atokakasu shinoyukigataya kurenoaki. YosaBuson(1716‐1783) Autumnnight readinganoldbook, theNarapriests. Akinoyoya furukifumiyomu Narahōshi. YosaBuson(1716‐1783) Lightning‐ streakbystreak curestheworld Inazumaya hitokirezutzuin yoganaoru. KobayashiIssa(1763‐1827) Theyearends howlongwill thatturtlehanghere? Toshinokure kamewaitsumade tsurusaruru. KobayashiIssa(1763‐1827) Standinginthecoldrain forother’ssake theBuddha. Hitonotame shigureteowasu hotokekana. KobayashiIssa(1763‐1827) PicturesfromtheVigil SPECIALRŌHATSU2013 TESTIMONIESaftertheRŌHATSU CorrespondencebetweenShinnyoRoshiandMaestroDami DearTeacherDami, During the evening of Rōhatsu, your music expanded our hearts, it passed through every emotional rivulet and tremor. The vibrations from your impromptu notes, in their compositionanddissolution,remindedusofeveryjoy,pain,weary,effort,difficulty,elation, disappointmentandeuphoriaofourlivesinPractice,throughamusicalcounterpointthatina magicalmomentthatwesharedhadthechancetoexpressitself. The music that you created was not “another” from our Meditation, and this is why, within your notes, the silence of our Zazen was played in a harmonious continuum. A deep and thoughtfulthanksforthissublimegiftthatyouhavegivenus,withhopeofseeingyouagain. Inparticular,thankstoyourwifeforhersweetpresence. ItenShinnyo DearTeacherShinnyo,itismyhonortothankyoufortheextraordinaryopportunitythatyou havegivenme.BeinginyourTemplewasasourceofhappinessandandgreathonor.Itwas more than the strong emotions that I play through my instrument. I wish you a lot of happinessandIamsurethatourpathswillcrossagainsoon. Awarnhug, VolfangoDami CorrespondencebetweenShinnyoRoshiandVenerableLongo HonorableLongo, Adeepthanksforyourpreciousparticipation atShinnyojiduringtheRōhatsuevening,asa fatherandtestimonytoIvanoEi‐shin’sOrdination.Itwasagreatjoyformeandtheothersto havemetyouandyourpresenceexpandedtheinter‐religiousdimensionattheheightofour TraditionandinthesacredbreathduringtheOrdinationCeremony.Gasshō ItenShinnyo ReverendItenShinnyo, Thankstoyouforsharing,thanksforthehonorandprivilegethatyouhavegivenme.Iwas very happy to be with you, I felt at home with my Dharma sisters and brothers, with deep feeling and presence I pass a very important Zen evening, and therefore, as for the entire Buddhistworld,theRōhatsuevening. ItwasaveryintenseandsignificanttimewhileEishintookRefugeandwasOrdained. Ihopetoseeyouagainsoon. RaffaelloLongo LobsangGonpo CorrepondencebetweenShinnyoRoshiandtheCalligraphyTeachers DearPaola, DeepthankstoyouandNicolaforthesplendidgiftofcalligraphythatyoumadeduringthe Rōhatsuevening.Seeingin“inaction”waslikedoingZazenalongwithyou.Oursilenceunited with your expert and joyful hand that impressed with strength and sweetness the sign “Satori”andsupportedusinharmoniousUnity. Thank you for your precious presence with us on the Vigil evening to celebrate the EnlightenmentoftheBuddha. InGasshō,withrecognition ItenShinnyo GoodmorningShinnyo!! ThankyouandyourSangha,silentlyandstronglyunited,theintensewelcome! Abighug PaolaeNicola Rev.PaoloTaigōSpongia DearShinnyoSan, We got back to Rome at 8, and of course, went straight home, I wasn’t able to fall asleep, somehowourVigilcontinuewithyou. IwouldliketoexpressmythankfulnessforthewarmwelcomeinwhichyouandyourSangha offeredtous. I was deeply moved by finally being able to sit in the Reign of Peace and Harmony that Shinnyojihasbecomethankstoyourgenerouseffortandyourimmenselove.Youaretrulya Great Teacher, a Great Mother of all Beings, you have always been this, but now more than everyouareofferingarareandpureDharma. I hold a deep admiration for your and unconditional affection for you. The look that we exchangedintheDōjōwhenwewereabouttoleavewasthesealofanunbreakabletiethat wastrulyhearttoheartlikethebeautifulcalligraphythatyougaveme. Icareforyouandifyoueverneedanythingfromme,Iwillalwaysbehereforyou. PaoloTaigōSpongia Yūshin Lotsofenergyandlotsofenthusiasm.ThetraditionatShinnyoji,asdesiredbyoutTeacher, makes Rōhatsu an occasion of welcoming and sharing. Again this year, showed its fruits, confirming apreciousopportunitytolivein harmonywithjoy andto practicetogether.Old andnewpractitioners,guestsfromourandothertraditionsunitedtocelebrateonebrotherly spirit,the EnlightenmentoftheBuddha.Thespontaneousadhesionof thosewantingtobea partoftheRōhatsuconfirmedthatthisyeartherewouldbealotofparticipants,helpandjoy fromallpractitioners,surelyemphasizedbythenewOrdination.Thisenergythatsupported usandhasbeenwithusthroughtheVigilwasthebenefitfromtheworkanddedicationfrom theTeacher,theSanghaformakingsurethatthistraditionisrepeated,weopenourhearts, practicedtheJapaneserigorousformfromourLineage. Gasshō MicheleN. THEDAYAFTER:MondayDecember9,2013. ThedayaftertheVigilwasatruerealizationofTakingRefugeintheThreeTreasures;during afreneticandveryemotionalbutcontrolledRōhatsu.Aware,sereneofwhatIwasabouttodo in every step, I felt a passed time, in a flash, a moment in which a door was opened to me, unable to be explained through words, as if I was trying to explain a though to a robot... MeetingaLama,withwhomaftershakinghandsandtalkingalittle,“Iunderstandthathehas understood”isauniquefeeling,saidfromsomeonelikemyself,whoisfarfrom“feeling”the Tibetantradition. As I said, the day after was a true “realization”: wearing the Rakusu for the Sutra in the morning, a true volcano exploded, all of the magma that was inside, that has always been there,wasjustwaitingfortherightmoment...Bummm!!“HereyouareMichele,gosit,dowhat youneedto,welcomeback”. Gasshō. Daishin LittletimehaspassedsincetheRōhatsuVigil. It was a great effort for Roshi and for the Sangha to organize and prepare for the event, to welcome the many expected guests, to celebrate with dignity the Ordination to Bodhisattva andTakingRefuge,thisyearfallingonthevigilnight.Anintenseandharmoniouseffort. Thedeterminationremainsinmyheartandmind,butsodoesthehappinessandjoylivein thiscommunalaction;afeelingofinteriorstrengtheningfeltbyadheringandcomingcloser thanevertooutTemple’stradition. Thankfulness for the experience lived, for the music given to us during the evening, for the precisely maintained order of the ceremony, reading the testimonies of practice, the ceremonyofTakingRefugeandOrdination,theformalmealintheZendo. Joyfulness for this collaborative feeling of reunion, togetherness during the tension and aligningtoservetheBuddhaforallthosepresent,betweenthestress,thewearinessandtheir overcomingtheseobstaclesthroughoutthevigil. Happiness, also, even for the serenity expressed by the Teacher. Everyone seemed to have sharedthefeelingofunionandpositiveconnection,fromthosepresenttothoseabsent,that insomewayweareconcretely“madetoperceive”fromAmerica,toFinland,toplacescloser to Shinnyoji: the perception of the universal Sangha. Rōhatsu 2013 helped me live in an intenseway,Istillcarrythevibrationswithme,thestrength,thesupportandthejoycoming frombeingabletoPracticewiththisSangha,inthestepsofourLineage. Gasshō. Shinden I personally lived this evening in a very tranquil way and with ‘unconscious’ awareness of being in a ‘special’ moment, but without rhetoric or effort of forcing myself to ‘do my best’ because it was obliged. The feeling of being there and not being there was beautiful. We affectionallyandfaithfullywelcomedthewordsofShinnyoRoshiwhowishedusagoodnew yearofpractice,offeringusanewtheme:Mushin,newbecauseitisanotherthingtouncover andpractice. I heart beautiful music played ‘impromptu’ by Teacher Dami, I saw the calligraphyteachers workingwithjoyandtechnique,Iheardthesplendidhaikus... We participated with lively emotion during the solemn Sanbō‐kie Ceremony and Zaike TokudoexpressingandconsolidatingtwopresencesintheWayofourSangha,MicheleandEi‐ shin.Thosewhowerewithus,myfriends,wereactivelypresent,theywelcomeduswithjoy throughoutthenight,thereweren’tpractitioners,followersandguests,justa“everyone”for thisevening,agift,ahomage,deeplyfelt,withserenityandhonesty. TheTemplehadguestsfromRome,theRev.SpongiaandhisfollowerstheVenerableLobsang Gompo Longo, each brought something inexpressible through words, something serene and joyousthatwillremainwithus. Theinterventionsfrom theSanghawereverybeautiful,touching, andeach hadexpresseda sincereTruththatmovedinandinacertainsense,‘tookinmyheart’consolingthehappiness ofthatmoment. The meal in the Zendo was in silence, Zazen until dawn, the Zazen that ‘opens’ and keeps goingfromthefirsthoursoftheeveningupon‘It’sWay’. This night is like a life‐zazen‐poem. It’s this for me. Without thinking about it, I lived, I was there,wewereallthereandthat’sall.NowIthinkaboutitand‘Imissit’, butIknowthatI can’t miss everything about it because everything continues, it still is. Thanks again to ShinnyoRoshi,IknowthatshehaddoneaforthepastRōhatsuvigilsandwhoknows,thosein thefuture...withadmirationandwithaffectionandallrespectpossible,thankyou,thankyou fortheLIFEatShinnyoji! Shinkai AftertheRōhatsu2013 The temptation is to color a rainbow rather than write words. Leaving the colors and their meanings, I try to evoke what happened. It was without a doubt the most intense, lively, emotionalandmovingRōhatsu.Formeitwasthepersonalandprofessional“rebirth”Rōhatsu afteraperiodofdarknessandpain.Ialsohaveinfrontofmeaaparticularanddecisiveyear formyZenBuddhistpracticeandthishasplayedanimportantroleineverytimeIcometo Shinnyoji which has become my second home. There were many crucial and touching moments.IcriedwithBenshin improvisedhertestimony.SaturdayeveningBenshinmelted myheartwithhers.Ifeltclosetoherlikeneverbefore.Iamhappyforherandhercourage. HavingTaigōSenseiherewithhisgroupofpractitionersfromRomewasatruejoy.Itseemed thattheywereathome,ratheritwasthefirsttimethatI’vebeen.TheVenerableLamaLongo representedanunexpectedpresencebutequallywonderful.Iwasabletospeakwithhimfora bit and he seemed like a very interesting person. I really appreciated his simplicity and essence. WhatcanIsayaboutmydearfriendVolfangoDami,agreatmusicianandorchestradirector, whohasgivenmeforviolinimprovisationsthataretrulypreciousandmusicallystunning. Abeautifulwalkunderthestarsawokeourmindsandourbodies,towardthehalfwaypointof thelongVigilnight. The significant light from which we burnt our propositions for practice that we wrote last year.Idon’tknowwhattosayaboutmySanghabrothersandsisterswithoutfeelingthatthey justallowedallofthistohappen. EI‐shin and Michele were delicate and strong along with an embrace ‐ officially ‐ on the BuddhaWayandBodhisattvas. I’ll end with a thankful thought for Shinnyo Roshi. Everything at Shinnyoji is there by her impulsivevisionandherundyingfaithandauthenticity.Formeitisagreatjoytowalkwith herandserveherwithdevotionandrespect.ThankstoherIamproceedingstrongalongmy pricklywalkwithmykarmaandhernurturingknowledgeabouttheDharma,alwaysknowing whentointerveneattherightmoment,toteachandindicatemypath.Thanks. Grazie.Gasshō ItenEi‐shin This is my first Rōhatsu Vigil and Jukai ceremony and my ordination at Shinnyoji. A unique night, unforgettable, rich of emotion and an intensity that I have never felt until now. The tensionandthetirednessaccumulatedbythepreparationswentawaythemomentIentered theZendoandIfelttheextraordinaryenergythatitgaveoff. DuringthecourseofthenightIfeltjoy,Icried,Iunderstood,IabandonedandIletgo.When dawnbroke,nothingwaslikebefore. VenerableTeacher,inthesefewmonthsIhavereceivedsomuchfromyou.Notonlyhasthe SanghawelcomedmebyacceptingtoguidemealongtheWay,butitallowedmetotouchthe true Dharma, live and pure that flows with our Lineage through you. I await a long and tiresomewalkbutintheawarenessforthestrengthandprotectionofthePrecepts,Iconfront itwithanopenheartandfreemind.Deepheartfeltthankstoyou,theNoblePatriarchs,allof theSanghafromDaijojiandShinnyoji‐nowIamathome. CommunicationtotheSangha Dear Sangha, Our Teacher would like to inform us that in light of the last Rōhatsu, Lisa Tenshin sent a o‐fuse from America, complete kits for calligraphy. Alos, Ismo Shinkō sent a generous monetary offering to the Temple, a deep thank you to both the you for your offeringstotheTempleandtotheSangha.CZFSecretary‐ShinnyojiTemple TeacherReverendItenShinnyoRoshi DearSangha,dearOrdained, Ideeplythankeachoneofyouforyourparticipationanddedicationgivenduringtheevening ofRōhatsuatShinnyoji. This year was a particularly intense, attended and complex Rōhatsu in the events starting with the magical notes from Teacher Dami’s violin, to the sacred and solemn Ordination Ceremony,thepresenceofReverendTaijoSpongiaandhisfollowers,tothetestimonyfrom theVenerableLobsangGompoLongo. It is thanks to your generous, harmonious and attentive presence that you were able to participateineverymomentoftheVigil,thatweliveanintenseandunforgettablemomentof Practicetogether,dedicatedtotheEnlightenmentoftheBuddha. InGasshō,withinfiniteaffection Rev.ItenShinnyo Benshin DearTeacher,Ithankyou foryour thoughts, yourpresence andyourheart.Participatingin the Vigil was good for me, I was happy to have been able to be with all of the people who contributed. Gasshō Shinden Thanks Roshi, a profound thanks for the Zen that you transmit to us. Your words give us comfortandhelpus.Withfaith. Daniele DearTeacher, Thanks for having guided and encouraged us throughout the night. I remember some very beautifulmoments,mostlythekinhinunderthestarsandtheSutrafire. Gasshō THE TEACHINGS OF THE BODHIDHARMA Chapter IV – The Awakening Sermon [TABLE13] Longago,therewasaBuddhanamedDipamkara,orlamplighter.Thiswasthemeaningofhis name.Butfoolsdon’tunderstandthemetaphorsoftheTathagata.Persistingindelusionsand clinging to the tangible, they light lamps of everyday vegetable oil and think that by illuminating the interiors of buildings they’re following the Buddha’s teaching. How foolish! The light released by a Buddha from one curl between his brows can illuminate countless worlds.Anoillampisnohelp.Ordoyouthinkotherwise? Practicing all six periods of the day and night means constantly cultivating enlightenment amongthesixsensesandperseveringineveryformofawareness.Neverrelaxingcontrolover the six senses is what’s meant by all six periods. As for walking around stupas, the stupa is yourbodyandmind.Whenyourawarenesscirclesyourbodyandmindwithoutstopping,this is called walking around a stupa. The sages of long ago followed this path to nirvana. But people today don’t understand what this means. Instead of looking inside they insist on lookingoutside.Theyusetheirmaterialbodiestowalkaroundmaterialstupas.Andtheykeep atitdayandnight,wearingthemselvesoutinvainandcomingnoclosertotheirrealself. [TABLE14] Thesameholdstrueforobservingafast.It’suselessunlessyouunderstandwhatthisreally means. To fast means to regulate, to regulate your body and mind so that they’re not distracted or disturbed. And to observe means to uphold, to uphold the rules of discipline according to the Dharma. Fasting means guarding against the six attractions on the outside andthethreepoisonsontheinsideandstrivingthroughcontemplationtopurifyyourbody andmind. Fastingalsoincludesfivekindsoffood.Firstthere’sdelightintheDharma.Thisisthedelight thatcomesfromactinginaccordancewiththeDharma.Secondisharmonyinmeditation.This istheharmonyofbodyandmindthatcomesfromseeingthroughsubjectandobject.Thirdis invocation, the invocation of Buddhas with both your month and your mind. Fourth is resolution,theresolutiontopursuevirtuewhetherwalking,standing,sitting,orlyingdown. Andfifthisliberation,theliberationofyourmindfromworldlycontamination.Thesefiveare the foods of fasting. Unless a person eats these five pure foods, he’s wrong to think he’s fasting. Also,onceyoustopeatingthefoodofdelusion,ifyoutouchitagainyoubreakyourfast.And onceyoubreakit,youreapnoblessingfromit.Theworldisfullofdeludedpeoplewhodon’t seethis.Theyindulgetheirbodyandmindinallmannerofevil.Theygivefreereintotheir passions and have no shame. And when they stop eating ordinary food, they call it fasting. Howabsurd! [TABLE15] It’sthesamewithworshipping.Youhavetounderstandthemeaningandadapttoconditions. Meaningincludesactionandnonaction.WhoeverunderstandsthisfollowstheDharma. Worship means reverence and humility it means revering your real self and humbling delusions.Ifyoucanwipeoutevildesiresandharborgoodthoughts,evenifnothingshowsits worship.Suchformis its realform.TheLordwantedworldlypeopletothinkofworshipas expressinghumilityandsubduingthemind.Sohetoldthemtoprostratetheirbodiestoshow theirreverence,tolettheexternalexpresstheinternal,toharmonizeessenceandform.Those who fail to cultivate the inner meaning and concentrate instead on the outward expression never stop indulging in ignorance, hatred, and evil while exhausting themselves to no avail. They can deceive others with postures, remain shameless before sages and vain before mortals,butthey’llneverescapetheWheel,muchlessachieveanymerit. But the Bathhouse Sutra says, "By contributing to the bathing of monks, people receive limitlessblessings."Thiswouldappeartobeaninstanceofexternalpracticeachievingmerit. Howdoesthisrelatetobeholdingthemind?Here,thebathingofmonksdoesn’trefertothe washingofanythingtangible. When the Lord preached the Bathhouse Sutra, he wanted his disciples to remember the Dharma of washing. So he used an everyday concern to convey his real meaning, which he couched in his explanation of merit from seven offerings. Of these seven, the first is clear water,thesecondfire,thethirdsoap,thefourthwillowcatkins,thefifthpureashes,thesixth ointment, and the seventh the inner garment He used these seven to represent seven other thingsthatcleanseandenhanceapersonbyeliminatingthedelusionandfilthofapoisoned mind. SanghaFondatorimet: SundayOctober13‐MondayNovember11 PRACTICERETREATS Zazenkai13October2013 Sesshin15‐16‐17November2013 RōhatsuVigil7‐8December2013 TranslationfromEnglishoftheBodhidharmatextbyEvaYōshin PicturesbyFabioDaishinandLisaTenshin EditingbyGiancarloShinkai TranslationofEkiZenfromItaliantoEnglishbyLisaTenshin Calendar of meetings for Zen Practice: Zazen–Threemeetingsperweek: Mondayeveningfrom8:00to10:00, Tuesdaymorningsfrom6:30to7:30, Fridayeveningfrom8:00to9:30. Zazenkai–OneSundaypermonth from9:00a.m.to6:00p.m. Sesshin–Oneweekendpermonth fromFridayeveningat8:00to2:00 Sundayafternoon.