Pressions 2013 - James Madison Memorial High School
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Pressions 2013 - James Madison Memorial High School
Pressions 2013 PRESSIONS Volume 31 Spring 2013 A Journal of Creative Writing James Madison Memorial High School Editor Zoë Townsend Assistant Editor Monika Hetzler Art Editor Jenny Vang Technical Assistant Mike Peterson Faculty Advisor W. R. Rodriguez Our first magazine appeared in the spring of 1983. It was modeled after the independent literary magazines of the 1970s. Our mission: to showcase poetry and fiction at a school which does not offer a creative writing elective. For three decades, most of the work Pressions has published was written not for a grade, but for the sake of writing. After thirty-one magazines, I remain impressed by the creativity of our students. I thank Memorial for supporting the arts and for enabling Pressions to thrive for so long. It is an honor to have served as its advisor. When I retire at the end of this year, I will take with me many fond memories of the students who participated in our workshops and who worked on our magazine. My best wishes to the Pressions alumni: may you be blessed with peace and happiness. —W. R. Rodriguez, Advisor " Back Issues of Pressions, volumes I – XXX, are online at: https://memorialweb.madison.k12.wi.us/pressions An Index of Authors appears in volume XXX (2012). An Index of Artists and An Index of Chapbook Authors appears in this issue. " © 2013 Pressions Press Authors Rebecca Anderson.................................................................. 5 John Paul Martinez................................................................6 Monika Hetzler...................................................................... 7 Autumn Battaglia................................................................. 10 Jenny Vang.......................................................................... 14 Margot Wulfsberg................................................................ 18 Gabe Jackson....................................................................... 19 Griffin Webb....................................................................... 20 Morgan Snow...................................................................... 26 Zoë Townsend..................................................................... 27 Sarah Tolmie........................................................................ 46 Kimberly Chubaty............................................................... 49 Laela Ezra............................................................................ 50 Kristin Foglestad................................................................. 56 Grace Olson........................................................................ 58 Artists Morgan Spatola....................................................cover, 36-37 Joan McCarthy.......................................................................4 Jenny Vang....................................................................25, 55 Josie Bratt ...........................................................................64 Kristin Foglestad................................................................. 72 Copyright reverts to authors and artists upon publication. Pressions Press reserves the non-exclusive right to reprint. Pressions Press W. R. Rodriguez, Advisor James Madison Memorial High School 201 South Gammon Road Madison, Wisconsin 53717 Index of Artists 1983 – 2013................................65 Index of Chapbook Authors...................................69 Rebecca Anderson Untitled You whisper in my ear come with me I try to resist the pull of your voice, calling, calling Constant temptation on my shoulder You can destroy me with just a thought I feel your weight crushing me, obliterating me Falling deep into oblivion You are a seething, staining darkness I succumb, forever weak to your shadowy grip Twisting and tainting my very soul Until I am lost 5 John Paul Martinez Monika Hetzler Untitled Floating He submerges his face into the still, cold water and screams, letting out all the frustration that has built up inside. He screams at the top of his lungs until all air is expelled, and then some more. He screams until the melancholy in his voice dissipates into the water and the bubbles of despair rise away from his delicate mind. He screams until no more bubbles surface and then remains there; the tears amalgamate into the once again still water. He comes up for a slight huff of air and repeats the procedure. Th e muted and muffled cry of agony transforms into pleasure, in the euphoric sense, and, for a slim, slender moment: bliss. And in that millisecond, all worries are lifted, all pain gone. No troubles, no fears, no emotion. He becomes detached from mind and body, from soul, and simply exists. A smile appears under the beaten water. Breaching from his damp heaven, he looks down into his rippled reflection until it is once again still. A husk of a home. Crumbs of bread are chairs and spider webs, the drapes. A sofa made of dust and the , a pebble. We are tiny ashes in an effervescent sea, ripping from the whole and wandering so small and insubstantial. No one cares to notice we are gone. The smile remains. The Bottom of the Pillow Case You were my marshmallow my peanut butter cup so sugary sweet you made my teeth ache. I looked at you wistfully with salivating lips only to find you had gone stale. Milk chocolate turned to flaky powder crumbling to my touch. So I picked up the wrappers dusted off my jeans and threw you out. 6 7 Monika Hetzler Monika Hetzler Observations I. He was a tall man with a short temper and countenance. His furrowed brow rested just below the brim of his felt hat, his white shirt stained with coffee and sweat. He swore at the pigeons who were pecking at bagel crumbs by his feet, emerald green and red eyed. He noticed the mud on his shoes and dust on his jacket. Popping his collar he opened the door and craned his neck listening for the voice he dreaded most to hear. III. She sat in the salon chair tiny pieces of hair hugging the nape of her neck. The room was cold and bare besides an old dusty mirror and a pair of office scissors. She looked at her reflection and wondered how by only looking at herself could she feel so alone. II. She was an old woman sitting by the radiator hands shaking hair grown past her shoulders as wispy and white as spun sugar, candy floss. She put her scalding mug of coffee to her lips. Out of the corner of her eye a pigeon was building a nest of moldy newspaper scraps and doll hairs. She watched the tiny people scurrying below her window like beetles in black, bottle green, and raspberry red coats. She looked for the face she knew she would never see. 8 9 Autumn Battaglia Autumn Battaglia No Soul My Ocean of Thoughts No soul in his eyes She is craving pain No soul in his eyes She feels insane Phenomenon Beautiful Life so simple Happy living Wishing, wanting, loving Beneath the surface Vivid colors Extravagant Dream life Wishing, wanting, loving Water flowing Wave’s distinct sound Fish ignorantly living No hate Wishing, wanting, loving Mind is lost Dreaming quietly The ocean is my wonderland No surface trauma I do not suffer I just keep wishing, wanting, loving No soul in his eyes How can she survive No soul in his eyes Feeling sick to be alive No soul in his eyes The voices fill her head No soul in his eyes Her blood is scarlet red No soul in his eyes Why won’t they help her No soul in his eyes Love is the only cure 10 11 Autumn Battaglia Autumn Battaglia Anxiety, My Enemy Teachings of Hate I do not know why I am crying There is fierce pounding in my heart It feels like I am dying Begging my lungs to start I will never forget Angst fills my soul to my fingertips I remind it to stop Why don’t you care I need to refocus How uncontrollably ridiculous I must not live life hating You will not turn me into this I will never be a monster Though you have filled me with demons I have to be stronger The chills through my body The lump in my throat I cannot think of you without physically hurting Your torture I will compel you I restrain from violence You taught me everything I should not be Evil passion will not take over my soul I let love wash away my sins I will never be you I feel so stupid now Telling myself to breathe Please just take a bow I beg of you to leave This silence makes me crazy My head brutally spinning My eyes are getting hazy Depression you are winning I am in a room of many Oh, misery makes me alone Tears, feeling no company I must be sorrow prone As I slowly start to adjust Air now can be inhaled Mirrors view me with disgust I feel that I have failed I know I cannot stop it I know that I must try This disorder, how I hate it Someone hear my cry 12 13 Jenny Vang Jenny Vang Absence Passing Moment There are no voices inside my head just my own a single voice speaking in many tongues my single voice growing louder within the confines of my skull the echoing words become tangled within themselves colliding in a chaotic mess and twisting into unknown shapes there are no voices inside my head just a lonely whisper speaking in a tongue I no longer understand Sunlight on my face the cool grass beneath my hair I can feel the wind wash over me let me drown in sunlight with nothing but your breath beside me Regrets A Symphony of Years Bitterness in my heart a cold comfort I do not want monsters in my head whispering lies I already know little claws scratch at my throat as if I still have a voice left to scream So many years of silence and the whispers in my head grew louder Quiet days flew by and the nights grew noisy with echoes Hush, symphony Hush, storm a nova of sound tightly packed inside a tiny heart 14 15 Jenny Vang Jenny Vang Presbyopia Broken Pocket Watch An eye in the palm of my hand delicate and fragile, it shines like glass. Feeble fingers curl around its surface and crush it into sand. The grains scatter. Will the wind take them far and allow me to see the world? Or have I just become blind by my own ignorance? I’m late said the rabbit I’m so terribly late he whispered But Alice was already too far ahead I’m late the rabbit murmured to himself He had not moved an inch I’m late, so terribly late And Alice continued on farther away from the rabbit’s sight He had not moved an inch What was the point When Alice had already moved so far ahead I’m late whispered the rabbit as he stood alone 16 17 Margot Wulfsberg Gabe Jackson Winter Angel From Life Ain’t No Joke The deep shadows darkened under his eyes as he looked out at the snowfield, barren and cold. A place once so pretty and green and alive had now become weakened, all shriveled and old. Getting older. Be grown soon. Where to look for a clue To what I should do? Long forgotten pain… Just can’t shake What I’ve awakened to. Life’s sorta new. What will I face as I cruise through? Old news? Getting older. Wish I could go back and erase What I knew I shouldn’t do. People are gone. No one left To talk Life through. Life ain’t no joke. He remembered the birds who once sang in the park but they’re gone, fled the cold, went farther south. He lamented the girl, now forever in the dark and a whimper, then a wail came out from his mouth. For the girl, like the birds, left winter’s harsh reality and with a rope and a chair, grew her own angel wings. She flew far away, never to return he thought sadly not even to snowmelt and flowers and spring. The tears streaked down under his eyes and the snowfield remained frozen under his feet. The beautiful girl he had loved left his side without a hug or a kiss or a single goodbye. 18 19 Griffin Webb Griffin Webb Typical Anxieties That chair is looking at me funny It is! It’s trying to throw me off balance Make me look ridiculous Crazy even But I’m way ahead of it I stared it down I told it You’re the one that’s crazy Because everyone knows That chairs aren’t nearly as scary As phones The phone looks surprised at this Typical Everyone has them You don’t see them But you have them Some of them ride around on shoulders Tugging your ears impatiently Some are more subtle Clinging to your foot Weighing your steps down Until you have to stop and think about them Some even grip your neck Throttling you Until you collapse on your back Gasping for air Then they sit triumphantly on your chest Demanding your undivided attention No matter what kind You always have at least one A small one clinging to a lock of hair perhaps A pair jumping around in your belly Pounding on your teeth Chomping on your nose Somewhere They are poking Prodding Pinching Waiting for one thing A reaction 20 21 Griffin Webb Griffin Webb Linoleum Domination Screeching Past Sometimes I sit and stare I sit and stare at the floor Or so it seems But I don’t see linoleum I don’t see cracked, dusty tiles I can see anything Really But sometimes I see things I don’t want to My failures stare me down I can see them smirking at me still They mock me Their hateful eyes burn orange Laughing at my inadequacies But someday I will laugh at them I will tower above those tiles And tell the dust I have won Everyone else will stare Declare me insane But the linoleum Will cower in fear The past is gone they say Left behind and forgotten How so? The past is not gone Its unseen claws grip us all Its glowing eyes stare into the future Glaring into the night Its fluorescent eyes fixed on a single path That of the past When we waver When we try to resist We feel the claws tearing at our shoulders Reaching through the undergrowth Hauling us back Onto the highway Flat and naked Buffeted by the winds of raw emotion We struggle vainly towards the side roads Our knees weaken Our backs buckle beneath the weight The weight of that screeching monkey called The past 22 23 Griffin Webb Eyes Everything has eyes Some people don’t see them The eyes watch everyone Seen or unseen Some people try to hide That’s how the eyes know If you hide You can see them Then they watch you all the closer They stare from inside your very skull Your hand watches you write Nowhere is safe Everywhere You are afraid Afraid of the wide Undying Eyes 24 25 Morgan Snow Zoë Townsend Tell Me a Story Morals Tell me a story of days long past. Of the days with kings and queens doomed not to last. A story of spirits and knights, of magic and fights, and the maiden with the heart of gold. Tommy McCabe had carefully cultivated a set of morals based on eight years of observing his brothers. In fact, Tommy had a much more fully developed set of morals than anyone else his age. He used these morals to guide almost all of his daily decision-making. Tell me a story of goblins and ghouls, of blood flowing into its own little pools. Of the creature that lives under the stairs. Come on! I’m in the mood for a scare. Tell me a story full of wonder and grace, of a room full dancing at an extravagant pace. Of high class and low class falling in love, struggling to find the one that fits like a glove. Tell me a story, any story, please. I want to hear your voice. I don’t want to go to sleep. Not now, please? “All right,” you say, “But just one.” You sit on my bed, wrap your arm around my shoulders, and spin a tale just for me. I let my eyes droop and dream. Unfortunately, these carefully cultivated and well-developed morals were not necessarily good ones. “You’re cheating offa me!” Susannah Malone hissed. “Yeah-huh,” Tommy replied. “How come you put a B at the end of comb?” “Cuz that’s how you spell it!” Susannah huffed in response. “Don’t sound like it,” Tommy muttered. “Shuddup before Ms. Keegan comes over here.” “Number seven: Peach,” Ms. Keegan announced. “Billy ate a peach with his lunch.” “No, ma’am, I didn’t!” Billy Camden replied. “It’s November.” “I got cake in my lunch,” Tommy told Susannah, “cuz my brother Pete turned twelve yesterday.” Susannah did not say anything in response; instead, she wrote p-e-a-c-h on her paper then started to chew on her eraser. “Peach don’t got an A in it!” Tommy whispered. “It’s E-E.” Susannah sighed. “You better change it,” he warned, “else you won’t be the best speller in the class this week.” 26 27 Zoë Townsend Zoë Townsend Susannah drew a flower next to her name at the top of her paper. Susannah wondered briefly if Tommy was actually a nice person, and not the scum of the earth as she’d been led to believe all McCabes were. “Then you won’t get to choose the story for next week.” Susannah added a butterfly next to her flower. “Number eight: Speck,” Ms. Keegan said. “I have a speck of dirt on my dress.” Susannah abruptly stopped all wildlife drawing activity and scribbled s-p-e-c-k on her paper under peach. “I can steal Dan’s outta his lunch box cuz the fifth graders don’t eat ’til noon thirty,” Tommy added, “so we can both have cake.” Never mind, Susannah thought. “Number nine: Waltz,” Ms. Keegan continued. “They danced a waltz.” “I’m tellin’ you, Susannah, there’s no A sound in—” “Lookit,” Susannah hissed, “if you’re gonna be copying my answers, don’t go correcting me. I’m not the one who’s gotta borrow someone else’s smarts for a spelling test!” “Susannah,” Ms. Keegan asked, “is there a problem?” Susannah hesitated, the pencil eraser still in her mouth. “No, ma’am,” she replied. “Don’t chew on your eraser. That’s a nasty habit,” Ms. Keegan hmphhed. Susannah bit her lip and set her pencil on her desk. Th e butterfly stared mournfully back at her from the spelling test. “Not fair of her snapping like that, seeing as you’re the best speller in the school,” Tommy remarked. “She wouldn’t of said nothing if you weren’t talking!” Susannah retorted. “I’ll share my cake with you at lunch,” Tommy said. 28 29 Zoë Townsend Corey N. Stein, Sixth Grader: On Logic, Compassion, and Cats I don’t usually do real dumb stuff, just mostly dumb stuff. So, since this has been a pretty usual Wednesday, all the logic I can logicify points to me being just kind of dumb today. See? Doug says I don’t think things through enough, but I’m pretty certain that I just thought stuff through. Right there. Did you see all that thinking through I did? And so I decided I should save the cat. And, let me tell you, it’s not a nice cat. The ungrateful orange thing scratched me. Me! Its savior! It should have been giving me cat kisses or something. Oh, and worst of all, as soon as I get to the diner, I’m going to have to explain myself, since normal folks don’t bring feral cats into eateries. (Feral means wild, and an eatery is somewhere you eat, in case you couldn’t figure that out.) “Hey, Jake,” I hiss, sliding up to him as he sets down sodas for a couple of high schoolers at a booth, “do you want a cat?” Jake looks down at me and the cat, then jumps backwards, yelping. I hope he quiets down, since I don’t see Doug anywhere, and I don’t really want to hear what he’ll have to say about Mangy Orange Claw Devil. “Dang, Corey!” Jake gasps—except he doesn’t actually say dang—“Where’d you dredge up that thing?” “Um, a couple blocks from my school,” I reply tentatively. Jake snorts. “Hey, Doug!” he calls out, and I would’ve slapped my hand over his mouth if I wasn’t already holding Mangy Orange Claw Devil. “Come look what your brother found!” 30 Zoë Townsend Doug pokes his head out from the kitchen and raises an eyebrow. “What’re you talking abo—holy crap, Corey!” he exclaims, except, just like Jake didn’t say dang, he didn’t say crap. “The bus was going to run him over,” I say in my defense. “We can’t keep—” Doug starts to say, but I interrupt him. “I know, but Jake likes crazy animals.” Mangy Orange Claw Devil’s got enough crazy to last Jake the next few years. “Sorry, kiddo, but no,” Jake replies. “Well, Corey, go give it to someone,” Doug tells me. “What?” I ask, because you can’t exactly go dropping cats in people’s laps and saying, “Happy early birthday, I saw this on the side of the road and thought of you.” “Get up by the counter and ask people if they want a cat,” Doug says, and heads back into the kitchen. “Excuse me, folks,” I say to the people in the diner. I’m thinking this must be the official Humiliate-Corey-Because-HeTried-To-Save-A-Cat-Day, because it has got to be some sort of cruel and unusual punishment to make me stand up here. Someday I’ll make Doug embarrass himself and he’ll see what it’s like. Nobody turns to look at me, not the three guys on the stool behind me, and not the people at tables either. “Excuse me,” I say again, a bit louder, “uh, I found this cat.” I look down at the rip it made in my blue striped shirt. “It looks kinda mangy, but actually it’s nice. I think it’s a he cat.” Most of the people in the diner are looking at me now, so I hold up Mangy Orange Claw Devil for them to see. One of the guys walks over from his stool and peers at the cat’s underside, and I feel kind of almost bad for it. 31 Zoë Townsend “It is a boy,” the man says, and shuffles back to his stool. I grit my teeth and look around the room. “What I mean is, does anyone want a cat?” There’s about thirty seconds of silence. Everyone just looks at me, and I lift the cat up a bit more. Zoë Townsend boy cats and they were real calm and good with kids.” I don’t mention that my neighbor had seven orange cats who he called the Orange Boy Brigade and that we called him the Crazy Cat Man behind his back. “Mom, look!” a little girl squeals, pointing. “It’s a cat!” “Well, aren’t you the little salesman,” the mom says, smiling. Smiling is good! It means she’s going to keep Mangy Orange Claw Devil. “You said we’d get a kitty,” her sister adds. “Please, Mom?” the younger girl begs. I haul myself and Mangy Orange Claw Devil over to the corner booth real quick, because if these folks are looking for a cat, what’s better than a free one? “Look at him, Mom,” the older one whines, “otherwise he’ll have to go to the shelter, and he’ll be crammed up with a bunch of mean cats with chewed up ears.” “You can pet him,” I tell the girls. “He doesn’t bite,” I say quickly for their mom’s sake, since normal parents worry about that sort of thing. “I don’t think he’s got diseases or anything. He’s just wet.” I don’t mention that at the shelter they euthanize cats after three days, because I don’t want to scare the girls, and I don’t really want that to happen to Mangy Orange Claw Devil. “What’s her name?” one of the girls asks. “Whatever you want it to be,” I tell her, since Mangy Orange Claw Devil isn’t really the sort of name little girls like. “Except this cat’s a he,” I add. Once these girls name the cat, they’ve got to keep him! “Mom,” the older sister leans across the table, “can we keep her?” No! You’re supposed to name the cat first! “Let’s name her Princess Elizabeth Cherry Blossom!” the younger sister exclaims. “It’s the perfectest name!” “I think he said the cat’s a boy, honey,” her mom says, not answering the older girl. “It’s a boy, right?” she asks me. She doesn’t say anything, so I keep talking. “He’s real, real calm, see. I held him for like ten minutes on the bus, then walked with him all the way back here, and he wasn’t that squirmy at all.” I shift my grip on the cat so that he hides the rip in my shirt. “Like holding a pillow.” A scratchy, smelly one. “Pet him,” I encourage her, holding him out. The mom smiles, shakes her head, and rubs Mangy Orange Claw Devil’s head. “Please?” the girls whine, while Mangy Orange Claw Devil starts to purr. “He likes you already,” I say. “All right then,” the lady says, “we’ll take him.” “Yes, ma’am,” I reply, “and boy cats are the nicest, especially orange ones. When I lived in Detroit my neighbor had orange I knew she’d be compassionate once she had a chance to think it through. 32 33 Zoë Townsend Corey N. Stein, Sixth Grader: On Laryngitis Okay, here’s the thing: I’m a much better person than folks give me credit for. Now, you may think that makes me sound conceited, but that’s your fault, on account of you haven’t even bothered to hear me out yet. Doug is always saying I’m immature, but right here I have irrefutable proof that he’s just as bad as I am. In case you were curious, irrefutable means absolutely positively true. See, I got sick this week, and not only did my throat decide to act like breathing’s the same as swallowing angry cats covered in broken glass, but my vocal chords decided they wanted to be jerks and not let me talk. I believe my innards are waging war against me, but I’ve got cough drops and lime popsicles on my side, so I think I’ll win. But like I said, I lost my voice, and Doug is being a real jerk face about it. He keeps telling me funny jokes, and not to cheer me up, like a good brother would. He’s telling me jokes because he knows I can’t laugh since I lost my voice. It feels real weird, let me tell you, to try and make noise and have nothing come out. Th en he says, “What’s that sound you’re making, Corey? Sounds like you’re hacking up a furball.” I can’t even tell him to leave me alone because, in case you forgot, I can’t talk. If I want to tell Doug something, first I have to jump in front of him and wave my arms or dance around until he notices me. And even when he does notices me, most of the time he just looks at me, grins, and goes back to what he’s doing, like he can’t see me trying to get his attention, which he can. He can totally see me. He’s just being a butt head. Sometimes I clap my hands or bang on a table, because that always makes him jump and turn his head, so he can’t pretend he didn’t hear me. 34 Zoë Townsend Then, I write out what I want to say on a piece of paper and hand it to him, but because he thinks he’s so funny, he never reads it. No, instead he looks at it and says, “Oh, paper? Just for me, Corey? Th at’s so sweet; I’ve always wanted a piece of paper.” Or he “accidentally” drops it in the trash and goes, “Whoopsy, I dropped your paper! Guess we’ll never know what you wanted to tell me.” Sometimes, if what I’ve got to say is extra important, I whisper it, even though whispering is supposed to be even worse for your vocal chords than shouting, not that I can shout. Screaming is just about what I feel like doing because Doug is being so frustrating. But when I whisper, Doug just cups a hand around his ear and says something dumb like, “What’s that, Corey? You don’t want your mattress anymore? I guess I’ll let you sleep on the ground. I can make the sacrifice and double up on comfort,” when he knows full well I’m saying, “Doug, can you help me with my math homework?” I think I’m handling this whole not-being-able-to-talk thing very well. I want some credit for behaving much more maturely than Doug. Or just for Doug to stop making fun of me. That works too. If only I could talk. I guess I’ll just have to punch Doug instead. 35 36 37 Zoë Townsend The Great McCabe Loogie “Go on, go and beat each other up somewhere else!” Mr. McCabe declared, dropping his youngest son into his boots and shuffling the boys to the door. “And maybe dig out a path to the road while you’re at it.” After three days of snow, he was ready to forget that he’d ever had children. “I can’t even see the road, Dad,” Marty replied. Marty, the oldest child, had a blind trust in authority that would some day wreck his life in horrible, horrible ways. “You’ll find it,” Mr. McCabe assured him. With the boys gone, the house would be quiet and he could nap away the afternoon. Zoë Townsend “Ay, Harry!” Pete called, whipping a snow chunk in the general direction of his older brother. “Catch!” “Ay, Petey!” Harry called back. “I couldn’t catch that if I had extendable arms! You throw worse than a girl!” “Least I can throw!” Pete retorted. *** While his younger brothers squabbled, Marty rummaged in the shed for a shovel. Trowels, rakes, a saw…he’d just used the shovel a week ago. Where had it gone? “Peeeeeeeete!” Luke cried. *** They’re all right, Marty thought. Luke just likes to whine and Pete just likes to antagonize him. “This here is my snow!” Pete declared, raising a fist over his wintery domain. Marty stumbled out of the shed, and saw the shovel, half buried in snow. He pulled it out of the snow and began to dig. “We can all read, Pete,” Harry muttered. “And that’s disgusting.” *** “Yeah well, it won’t be if I cross your name out,” Dan replied, tearing off his mittens and fumbling with his fly. “You’re gonna freeze your doinker off. Don’t say I didn’t warn you,” Harry grumbled. “Okay, I’ll climb the tree, and when you sled under me, I’ll jump in. Got it?” Pete yelled. “Got it!” Dan replied. *** Dan replied by smashing a snow chunk onto his brother’s head. Pete stumbled through the snow to the oak tree while Dan trudged up the hill to where Marty was currently shoveling the stone path. Marty knew that his father would be angry if the stones were tossed out with the snow, so he left a few inches of snow on the ground to protect them. “I’m goin’ to the Malone’s!” Tommy called out, and received a resounding lack of response from his brothers. Maybe, he mused, he could ask Hazel O’Neill to the dance. You can’t say no to a guy who spells out your name in the snow. 38 39 “You aren’t tall enough to piss in the snow!” Pete pointed out gleefully, shoving Dan. Zoë Townsend Zoë Townsend Dan waved for Pete to come down. “I can’t sled in this snow!” *** “Hey, hey Dan!” Pete called out. “Don’t go yet, I’m having trouble climbing!” “You should build a luge run,” Harry remarked from the snow cave he’d spent the past hour quietly building. Looking at Marty’s path, he added, “Marty’s almost done shoveling.” “Whaddya say?” Dan called back. “You up there yet? Cuz I’m going now!” “What’s a luge?” Dan asked. Dan took a running jump and threw himself down the hill. Unfortunately for him, the three plus feet of snow covering their yard was not particularly conducive to sledding. “Don’t ya mean a loogie?” Pete said, spitting in the snow. “I can make those. I got a lotta phlegm.” “Okay, I’m up now! Dan? I’m ready! Go!” “Mmmrrphmph,” Dan replied, stuck in the snow. “Where are you? I’m waiting!” Pete whined. *** Marty decided that after he finished shoveling, he would jump Dan and Pete from behind. He could shove snow down Dan’s coat and throw Pete into a snow drift. Give ‘em a good shock. *** Dan pushed himself up and shook his head like a dog. “This snow isn’t good for sledding!” “Maybe you just aren’t good at sledding!” Marty remarked, joking. “Yeah, well, I didn’t get anywhere. All I got was snow down my shirt,” Dan grumped. “What did you say?” Pete yelled from the tree. 40 “A luge run,” Harry corrected. “The luge is the sled.” “Yeah,” Dan said, looking at Harry. “How’s that gonna help us sled?” “A luge,” Harry answered with an exasperated tone, “is like a sled.” “Nuh-uh,” Pete retorted, hawking a loogie into the snow. “That’s a loogie.” *** Marty reached the top of the hill and sighed. Marty cursed at himself. He looked past the gate and shook his head. What had been the point of shoveling? The road hadn’t been plowed. Heck, the road probably wouldn’t be plowed for days. He threw down the shovel in frustration. He had just dug a path to nowhere. “Hey, Marty,” Dan yelled, “we’re gonna use your path for loogies.” “Sure,” Marty replied, “it doesn’t go anywhere. Might as well use it for something.” Dejectedly, he started to walk back to the shed. 41 Zoë Townsend Zoë Townsend “Okay, go!” Pete flung himself and the sled onto the path, but only skidded a little ways before he sunk into the inches of snow Marty hadn’t shoveled. Luke grabbed the sled eagerly. He couldn’t believe his brothers were just going to let him go first like this. Today had to be the best day ever. “We should pour some water over it so it freezes and we don’t sink in,” said Dan. “No,” Pete said, “the sled’s gonna be too heavy. You might break the loogie.” Pete ran to get the hose. “Yeah,” Dan added, “you have to ride the trash can lid.” *** Marty dragged his feet through the unshoveled snow. He couldn’t believe he’d wasted the whole morning digging a path that could only be used for…loogies? He could have been writing his essay, or planning his grand romantic gesture for Hazel, or throwing Luke into snow banks. *** “Let’s send Luke down,” Pete suggested. “He can test it for us.” “Hey, Luke!” Dan called. “Wanna be the first one to ride the loogie?” “Run. It would be a loogie run,” Harry said, tired of explaining the difference between a loogie and a luge. “It’s a real honor,” Pete added. “You’re like, baptizing it.” “Baptizing?” Dan asked. “Ribbon cutting, then,” Pete replied. “You, Luke, are gonna be the first person ever to ride the great McCabe loogie.” “Run,” Harry added, and was, once again, ignored. *** 42 Luke’s face fell. He always had to ride the trash can lid. His brothers never let him ride the real sled. “But I’ll give you a push,” Pete added upon seeing Luke’s disappointed face. “Okay!” Luke replied, scrambling onto the trash can lid. “Make it a big one!” *** Pete and Dan threw their shoulders against Luke’s back and shoved him down the hillside. Luke shrieked gleefully as he hurtled down the path. Luke’s going to run straight into the porch, Marty thought as he watched his brother speed down the path he had dug from their door to the gate. He knew that Dan and Pete had not bothered to look where the path went. Luke, however, did not crash into the porch. The path curved sharply right before leading up to the porch, and instead of following the curve, the hose water had melted and frozen over a path which led straight down the hill and off the McCabe’s property. Luke continued to hurtle down the hill. *** 43 Zoë Townsend With a start, Marty realized where his youngest brother was headed. Just past the edge of the McCabe’s property, the hill dropped off about fifteen feet onto a minor but well-used county highway where cars made their own paths through the snow. Zoë Townsend *** Mrs. McCabe took a sip of tea. It really was nice to have the boys out of the house. “Stop!” he yelled. “Luke, stop!” “I can’t!” Luke called back, barely audible. Pete and Dan looked at each other guiltily. “One of you,” Marty commanded, “go get Mom or Dad. I’m gonna try and catch Luke.” Marty tore off down the hill, and both Pete and Dan scrambled towards their house. *** “Mom! Mom!” Dan shouted. Pete flung open the screen door and grasped the handle of the wooden door, yanking on it. “Ya gotta turn the handle, stupid,” Dan snapped, shoving Pete and tugging on the handle himself. “I was! Mom must have locked us out by accident,” Pete said. *** Meanwhile, Marty tried not to trip as he dashed down the hill. “Luke! Luke!” he called as he ran. “I’m here!” he heard. Luke was sitting, dazed, at the base of an oak tree. Beside him was the trash can lid, now bent beyond use. “I don’t think I like loogies very much anymore,” Luke said. *** Mr. McCabe snored through his nap. Mrs. McCabe savored another sip of tea. Boys were so loud, Mrs. McCabe thought to herself. Why hadn’t she had any girls? *** Mrs. McCabe was greatly enjoying her book, and saw no reason to interrupt her peaceful reading to sort out some petty squabble between her sons. *** Dan slumped against the door. “Maybe if we yell louder she’ll realize we got shut out,” Pete suggested. 44 45 Sarah Tolmie Sarah Tolmie Untitled Untitled Shh. Let her speak to the spotted blue butterflies she blows from her hands. She whispers first of a woman and man. She paints in the flowers that smile at her sun and cries out strong waterfalls that infinitely run. She colors the sky with black for the night but when morning arises she brings in her light. She smiles at her world so perfect and fair as trees start sprouting from roots of her hair. And then come the children daughters and sons. As love grows around them she knows her work is done. I have ten fingers I have ten toes I have two legs and a body that grows. I am still human I am still strong Forget all our differences and stop doing wrong. We are unique but we are the same. We both share a heart a body a brain. I may be gay and you may be straight but that doesn’t give us the right to hate. Fifteen percent of what I can do is fifteen percent of what you can do too. We should be equal not separate or wrong. We should be able to all get along. We have ten fingers we have ten toes we have two legs and a body that grows. 46 47 Sarah Tolmie Kimberly Chubaty Our Hands from Owls Fly Away Our hands Chase desperately after numbers We can never reach Running in circles Never stopping Always one Running faster than us Passing over us like a shadow It’s funny how everyone Depends on such a little thing We make a face At everyone who watches us As they’re just waiting For us to go faster Or to slow down But we never please them Our hearts keep a steady beat Barely audible in the night But we’re the ones who wake them In the morning Following them throughout the day Making them squirm At our so-steady pace We are the time keepers Numbers written on our faces 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 Repeat We are the clocks Why has he come to me? Is he giving up? If anything He wants me to surrender 48 He is staring me down But I am staring too I cannot pull away From those hypnotic eyes But my eyes My endless eyes Fill with false hope They give it all away And today More than ever I wish I could fly away 49 Laela Ezra What the Red Rose Queen Finds That blasted duke! He does not have the proper respect for a queen! First, keeping the queen waiting so long, then lacking the manners to inform the queen of what caused him to be so late! With these angry thoughts, the queen plots his demise, her eye transfixed on something in the distance. Her cheeks turn a rosy pink as bright images of the duke’s red blood oozing from his corpse flood her mind. He will pay very dearly indeed. *** The queen has quite a fondness for red. She models her clothes, her policies, and her public persona after the Queen of Hearts. She wishes to attain so much red, so much raw, red power that it will be the only color her kingdom may see. Satin, red satin, arranged in a bow, is seated on her head instead of a crown. In fact, she had called upon the duke to make her a crown of red. She labored day and night, sweating profusely and working diligently to illustrate her dream of the perfect red headpiece. After a fortnight, a marvelous painting of a red crown emerged from her hands. Laela Ezra among the common people, some saying she wore it for decoration, some saying it hid a deformity in her right eye, or that she had been cursed to wear the rose until she died. *** Upon his arrival at the court, the duke takes up a handkerchief and smooths it absentmindedly. “Why does the queen wear such a foolish piece of eyewear? As a member of the royalty, she clearly has no need to, as it only proves a nuisance.” Th e queen’s narrowed eye, full of murder and indignation, snaps onto the duke. Chilling silence sweeps through the court. Th e queen fumes with rage; the duke is cool and unfazed. With a huff, the queen takes a bite of a red velvet cupcake, crosses her legs, and pointedly intensifies her glare. “I do not think it a nuisance, oh blasted duke. May your impudence be paid back to thee ten thousand-fold. Now show me what you have brought or be beheaded!” She spits the words as a dragon spits fire, hot and flaming and red. Proudly, she presented it to her kingdom, proclaiming: “To you who make my crown, I bid enormous wealth and countless favor from my kingdom. I wish you luck; to build such a headpiece is no easy task!” She ended the proclamation with her signature kisses and adieus. Her people cheered with love. As she turned, one could see that where her right eye should have been, a crimson rose sprouted instead. The duke smiles, bemused at the sauciness of this particular queen. Bright blue eyes twinkle, revealed as he uses a whitegloved hand to brush away his silky, ebony hair. He bends slowly to his left, to a black crate heavily laden with intricate locks and latches to which only he knows the combination. Click-click-click-click-clack-thud, click-click-click-click-clack. The locks fall away one by one. Why does she wear the eye patch? An ignorant child in her court had asked such a thing, long ago, when she was still a princess. Th at child was never heard of again. Rumors flitted The queen tilts to her right, parallel to the duke. She strains her neck to peek over the table at the crate while he opens it. He grins widely. “Finally, my queen, the crown. For you.” 50 51 Laela Ezra Laela Ezra Slowly, the duke lifts up the crown from the crate. As soon as the tip of the crown reaches above the table, separating the queen and the duke, a brilliant flash of light stuns the eye of the queen. By reflex, she quickly shuts her eye and covers her face with both forearms. “It is just as I had painted it,” the queen softly whispers. She brings forth her other hand and gently slips the crown under both, cradling it. They both sit in silent awe. Oblivious to the queen’s reaction, the duke continues to lift the crown and sets it gently upon a maroon pillow. Cautiously, the queen uncovers her face and peeks at the crown. Her eye blurry from tears, she takes a moment to focus and— It is simply stunning. It takes into itself the forest, the trees, the rocks, the river, the grass, the birds, the rabbits, the insects. It takes in the court, the chairs, the table, the teacups, the pink flower centerpiece, the cake platters, even the palace. And of course, it embodies the two humans so entranced by its beauty. The queen, mouth agape, eye wide, moves not a muscle. Her eye roams over the large, beautiful, wonderfully-red jewels embedded within intricate loops and paisleys made of pure gold. Red felt cushions the inside for the comfort of its wearer. Tentatively, the queen inches a shaky hand close to the crown. The duke, now free from the spell of the crown’s intense beauty, glances at the queen’s hand. Ever so slowly, her fingers connect with the gold. A sharp tingle flutters through her, abrupt enough for her to shut her mouth, yet mild enough to allow her to keep her fingers on the crown. “So, my queen, thou art pleased, art thou not?” the duke smirks. 52 Leaning over the slightest bit, the duke says, “My queen, had I but foreseen your reaction, I would have brought my finest painter to capture your expression.” Nearly dropping the beautiful crown, the queen whips herself back into her chair. She picks up her teacup, pauses to glance at the crown, then the duke’s ruffled shirt, and finally rests her eye on a porcelain statue a hundred yards away. “I…I…I truly find it a treasure,” she quips embarrassedly. “I forgive your insolence—just this once, mind you—because you have brought such a beauty.” Sipping her Earl Grey tea, the queen plasters a mask on her face, devoid of emotion. Her thoughts run round frantically, all of them centered on the rude duke and his beautiful gift. She had just forgiven him, the one who had so recently driven her to rage. This man is not worth killing. Her cheeks burn hot when that thought runs through her consciousness, grinding all other thinking to a halt. Is not worth killing. She has never felt that way before, not about her family, her pets, about anything. Noting her odd behavior, the duke leans back in his chair, crosses his legs, and begins to hum a tune. His mind, quite unlike the queen’s, maintains an orderly chaos of thought. She is completely at my feet, he thinks to himself. And she should be, for that crown took countless deaths to obtain. Bloody work, I do not like it. It is a reminder of the color I abhor: red. 53 Laela Ezra Blue, on the other hand, is the duke’s absolute favorite color. He has loved the kingdom’s sea since he was but a lad, running around in the liquid blue that would later become his to rule over. After his coronation as Duke of the Sapphire Sea, he tailored all of his suits to have some element of blue on them. The coronation itself had required him to spill the scarlet blood of his brethren, as was canon in the Red Kingdom. Oh yes, he hates red, but he hates the queen, the one able to make such rules, more than anything. He intends to enjoy turning her ruddy cheeks into the pale blue ones of a corpse. 54 55 Kristin Foglestad The Night the Mule Came to Visit It was a dreary evening on the Leopold Farm. There were snails moving slowly through the foggy crop field. Nana Fudge was feeling slightly paranoid. She had heard a legend about a mule that went insane and turned carnivorous after a farmer overworked it. It was rumored that the mule would haunt farms where work continued too long. At the Leopold Farm, work was supposed to stop at five for dinner. Nana Fudge looked through her window out into the fog, trying to spot her granddaughter Emerald who was still working in the fields. She saw something in the corner of her eye, and she turned with her heart pounding. She relaxed when she realized it was a snail crawling across the window sill, occasionally bumping into the glass with a soft “ping.” She felt sorry for it, so she let it inside. She was shutting the window when she heard a train whistle. Kristin Foglestad dropped the match. She hiked up her thick skirts and ran into the grain field, her hat falling into the dust. “Emerald! Where are you?!” Her foot caught on something and she fell into the grain, nearly disappearing in the stalks. Her face hit something warm and wet. She stood up and lit another match. The light hit the body of her dear Emerald. Her abdomen had been ripped open, her entrails spilling over the ground and her blood staining the dust. Nearby lay her head; one of her eyes had been gouged out, and her remaining eye was still open; her face was frozen in an expression of extreme agony. Emerald’s eye suddenly fixed on Nana Fudge and her mouth started to move. “Don’t worry, Nana; the mule has a surprise for you too.” There was a high-pitched animal-like scream, a flash of pain, and the mule ripped out Nana Fudge’s heart. That’s odd, she thought. The train near the farm usually didn’t run at this hour. Th en, chaos took over. Th e lights inside the house and around the barn went out, enveloping the farm in shadows. Th at was when she saw the mule, the thing of her nightmares. Its eyes were a bloodshot yellow, and its jet black sides were heaving. It opened its mouth, exposing dagger-like teeth, and let out a bloodcurdling scream, almost like it was screaming for revenge. Th en, it melted into the fog. Nana Fudge panicked. She ran down the stairs and out the door. “Emerald! Emerald! Come in! Please! Th e mule is real! It’s going to get you!” she screamed. She squinted into the fog, then pulled out a match and lit it. The little fire was a small comfort against the darkness blanketing the elderly woman. Th ere was an agonizing scream in the distance. Nana Fudge jumped and 56 57 Grace Olson Grace Olson Untitled My mother always told me To avoid staring directly into the sun But I always did Because the violet orbs that appeared in my vision Were irresistible Fading away like regrets come winter. When is it That such beautiful mistakes Begin to precede you Permanently dwelling on the surface? How many times must you strike a match Before it begins to burn? We are all born innocent But somewhere along the way The shadows of our pasts begin to evolve To take shape and slither Through our rooms while we fall asleep Watching from the corners of our dreams at night. In the old pictures she is smiling But I can see it in her eyes Never quite facing the lens. It reached her before she was ready. It brought her to the depths of hell and back again And I watched as she became its indentured servant. 58 At sunrise we breathe steadily But yesterdays prevail And when it comes to meet you Halfway between yourself and the light at the end of the tunnel You will realize it’s always been there Gentle and welcoming And though you may fall slowly The ground holds no pity. In the back of her closet fragments of youth remain Mountains painted in cascading brushstrokes And words of hopeful ignorance. One day she will find them After Christmas perhaps Searching for something important But instead finding herself Crippled with fear Standing up slowly Reliving the day she emerged through a mangled lens Brought one step closer with the projector’s every click To a beautiful place where darkness goes to die But remains In and out of focus with each trembling breath To the beginning of the end. 59 Grace Olson Grace Olson The Awakening Untitled I took the width of my consciousness and divided it into eight fragments, glistening in my mind’s eye, perfectly sliced edges of chaos. With each breath my focus was repeatedly tainted and reassembled, a fleeting meditation, unexpectedly fading into lethargic bliss as the sea beckoned and the voyage began. With one eye on each horizon the distance bloomed into a perfect gradient, faded on the edges and richly saturated in the center. The cold and rusty gears of the complex machine began to turn rigorously, for I had found the perfect balance. Th e digits fit flawlessly within the curves and crevices of the ship, yet I was distant, staring deeply into the sun with infallible power. Cowering inside Her quiet, softly lit apartment She waits. For what, She does not know. The wall is darkened by her crippled shadow; Battered and decrepit, They reflect each other. Blissful nights are far behind, Howling as they pace and melt and tear themselves apart, And then it is there. And it is not light but the mere absence of darkness, Crawling in through the vents And through the edges of the drapes, Void of color, void of pain. Writhing and dancing like ink moves in water, She burns brighter with each silent hour Inside her quiet, softly lit apartment Waiting to emerge. 60 61 Grace Olson Grace Olson The Void I. Fire III. Water The void beckons. The void is not a substance or something tangible, but an absence of all things concrete. It is colorless, yet magnificently painted, dancing through the room like blood in all its morbid decadence, and to the void, language and measurement of time do not matter. Th ey are attempts to harness what is untouchable and free. It is alive in everything; in the corner of every memory and every experience you have ever encountered. It is a grotesque creature, an animal that lives in the depths of the sea where light has never touched. It is the lump in your throat that you let linger, an intangible tumor growing inside of you. We await an explosion, a sudden flash, a thousand people joined together praying and crying and bleeding, full of passion as the sun hits the earth with its blinding light. We pass away with hands held, in unison. We hope to go with the taste of our loved ones still on our lips, and our eyes closed with a single tear running down and soaking into the damp, fertile, silent earth. We wait to decay, to nourish the soil and grow new life. But this is a fantasy, the silver lining of a romanticized apocalypse. The void will come upon us like a spreading affliction, a disease, and maybe at first it will even be perceived as such. And even when its vessel falls, the void will prevail. It will consume its surroundings, and, drunk with power, it will run rampant. II. Air IV. Earth It will start with one. One man or woman or child. You will wake up one morning with artificial light coming through the curtains, and you will step out of bed and realize that it is not that you particularly want to wake up or go “outside.” You may not even be able to gather whatever muddled idea you had the night before about what you want in life. Or even why it is that you care so much about this so-called “life.” And as you begin to wonder these things, you will realize a strange sensation in your head or your throat or wherever it may dwell. A presence, but certainly not a human presence. Although you may not realize it, you will have encountered the void. Our bones will not decompose; they will remain, coated in plastic tissue as they will have become throughout the years. One last battle with the substance from which we emerged: we will weigh down the planet. 62 63 Anderson ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " 64 # Index of Artists Volumes I – XXXI *Indicates Cover Art Carl Anderson ........................... 2007, 2008, 2009 Jennifer Annen .............................................. 2007 Vukadin Backonja ......................................... 2001 Corbin Bartell ............................................... 2006 Kane Beaber ........................................ 2007, 2008 Luke Beaber .................................................. 2008 Ed Blake .......................................................*1997 Laura Block ........................................1999, *2000 Ethan Boehm ................................................ 2006 Chesli Bookstaff ............................................ 2012 Dilya Bouriakov ............................................ 2009 Josie Bratt ...................................................... 2013 Eric Brooks ......................................... 2000, 2001 Kristin Brooks ............................................... 1999 Elaine Brow ................................................... 2006 Sam Brown...................................................*2007 Pamela Bruskewitz......................................... 2004 Audrey Bui ...............................*1999, 2000, 2001 Samantha Burke ............................................ 2007 Emily Butler .................................................. 2012 Adam Carter ................................................. 2000 Siena Casanova .............................................*2012 Jessica Casper ................................................ 2011 Alice Chang......................................... 2003, 2004 Kate Conrad.................................................. 2007 Emily Cox ................................. 1998, 1999, 2000 Rebekah Dadds ............................................. 2010 Celia Donnelly .............................................. 2004 Maya Dorje ................................................... 2009 65 Duan ! 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" # Fangfei Duan ...............................................*2008 Catherine Ensch ............................................ 2009 Jeremy Evans ................................................*1987 Virgina Evens ...............................................*1997 Ming Feng..................................................... 2004 Janis Finkelman ............................................*2001 Trevor Fisher ......................................*2009, 2010 Kristin Foglestad ........................................... 2013 Arwen Fonzen ............................................... 2006 Carlye Frank........................................ 1997, 1998 Will Fry......................................................... 2001 Mai Fujiwara ................................................*2003 Bob Gander................................................... 1997 Meghan Geary............................................... 1999 Kelly Giles ....................................................*1996 McKenna Goetz ............................................ 2012 Taylor Gurl ................................................... 2008 Mike Hanson ...............................................*1992 Marisa Hellen ................................................ 2011 Derrik Henrickson .......................................*1990 Emily Houston.............................................. 2009 Anna Hutchcroft ........................................... 2008 Randy Jones .................................................*1984 Kelly Joque ...................................................*1986 Dana Joseph .................................................. 2010 Ariana Karp ................................................... 2005 Daniel Kazell ................................................. 2007 Justin Knoll ..................................................*1995 Julia Kroll ...................................................... 2010 Jon Kurtycz ................................................... 2003 Brook Lade.................................................... 2009 J Li ...................................................*2000, *2001 Pao Moua Lor ..............................................*1997 66 Luong ! 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" # Rongjie Lu .................................................... 2008 Yvonne Luong ............................................... 2005 Somaly Maly ................................................. 1997 Silvie Marlette ............................................... 2002 Nicole Martinez ............................................ 2007 Michael Mawhinney...................................... 2006 Joan McCarthy .............................................. 2013 Hadassah McCloskey .................................... 2011 Holley McLlellan........................................... 2006 Taryn Meixner..............................................*2011 Sean Muckian................................................ 1997 Dan Myers ...................................................*1985 Cathleen Nairn.......................... 2009, 2011, 2012 Bill Nichols ......................................*1983, *1984 Anna Orcutt-Jahns ........................................ 2009 Tiffany Orr.................................................... 2009 Sarrut Ouk ...................................................*2000 Drew Peterson ............................................... 2002 John Phan ..................................................... 1996 Derek Puccio ................................................*2002 Pan Jun Rader ............................................... 2012 Andy Rifken .................................................*2004 Andy Rodgers .....................................*2010, 2011 Annemarie Rodriguez .........................2005, *2006 Robert Rodriguez .......................................... 2008 Kira Romashko ............................................*1993 Amelia Rossa ................................................. 2012 Erica Rubio ..................................................*1994 Andrea Rummel ............................................ 2008 Jeff Samuels ................................................... 1996 Rose Schneck ...................................... 2004, 2005 Laura Schott .................................................. 2004 Beth Schultz .................................................. 1999 67 Smith ! 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" # Andy Schutz .................................................*1991 Tony Sergenian.............................................. 2002 Alex Smith .......................................... 2000, 2001 Morgan Spatola ............................................*2013 Keith Steurer ......................................*1990, 1991 Dan Stevens .................................................. 2000 Tanya Tang ...................................................*1999 Neng Thao .......................................... 2009, 2010 Tony Thao ..................................................... 1997 Erik Tran ....................................................... 2011 Katie Tredinnick ............................................ 2010 Khiem Truong ..................................*1988, *1989 Tricia Ulrich .................................................. 2007 Ivan Valcheb .................................................. 1997 Jenny Vang .................................................... 2013 Ye Vang ......................................................... 1997 Jake Wagner .................................................. 2006 Daniel Wallace .............................................. 2011 Keely Walsh................................................... 2002 Comfort Wasikhongo ...................................*1995 Elizabeth Wendt ............................................ 2007 Jackie Whisenant ....................*2003, 2004, *2005 Lee Houa Yang .............................................*1995 Ryan Younger ................................................ 2002 Mariam Yukhananov ........................*1998, *1999 Joe Zhang.....................................................*2004 68 Zhang ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " Block ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " # Huffman Index of Chapbook Authors 1985 – 2012 Laura Block Mania ........................................................ 2000 Stephanie Boehm A Mild Exclamation .................................... 1994 Rebecca A. Borlaug Not a Nice Girl ........................................... 2000 Eric Brooks A Suitcase Full of Human Hair .................... 2003 Kashana Cauley Enigmata .................................................... 1998 Holly Chen Running Forward to Chase the Past .............. 2000 Rebekah Dadds Misunderstood Miracle ................................ 2011 Hal Edmonson For Orion, In Winter ................................... 2005 Robin Giles ...Of Many Names....................................... 2002 Elspeth Gordon Mirror to the Soul ....................................... 1986 Martha Gurtz Pastrami on Rye (hold the mayo) .................. 1995 Seb Harris A Selection of Writings from a Discontented Citizen ....................................................... 2010 Marisa Hellen Reflections in the Mire ................................. 2011 Emme Huffman Cosas .......................................................... 2012 69 ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! 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" # Rideout Daniel Kazell I Refuse to Make Sense in Ways You Understand ................................................. 2007 Elizabeth Lemke-Oliver Like Magic.................................................. 2001 Tenzin Youdon Lendey Offering of the Five Senses ............................ 2011 J Li The Apostates............................................... 2001 Debby Loftsgordon Never Give Up ............................................ 1990 Michael Lumelsky Face Changing ............................................ 1994 Nona Mei Shades of Resonance ..................................... 1998 Abigail Mitchell Wanderlust.................................................. 2010 Cathleen Nairn So Sings the Solemn Harper ......................... 2012 Linda Nutter Innocence .................................................... 1986 DeAnna Patterson If You Could See Me Smile ........................... 2004 Anna Pena A Walk in Rumania..................................... 1985 Jane Pertzborn Existing ...................................................... 1985 John D. Phan I Wonder if Caterpillars Think Butterflies Are Crazy.......................................................... 1998 Sarah Prescott Parallax ...................................................... 2010 Molly Rideout more like geoffrey ......................................... 2006 70 ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " Riley ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " # Hannah Riley Underwater Amphitheater and Sadistic Russian Novelists ..................................................... 2007 Stephanie Rohr Dusty Windows and Foggy Mirrors ............... 2008 Emily Schmitt Internal Stars of Space and Time .................. 2001 Jennifer Seese A Love for Beauty ........................................ 1985 Jennifer Seese Can’t Stop ................................................... 1986 Kavin Senapathy Sound of a Crescendo ................................... 2000 Hannah Silber Systole ......................................................... 2009 Elden Louis Steele III The Declaration........................................... 1992 Kate Stroede From the Eyes of Jupiter ............................... 2001 Christina Taylor Of Light...................................................... 2004 Nina Trotto Speakeasy .................................................... 2007 Elizabeth Updike Umbrellas in the Sun ................................... 1995 Bryn Upton Horizon ...................................................... 1987 Laura Warncke Submersion ................................................. 2002 Katie Wylie Playing the Game ........................................ 2000 Coming in 2013: chapbooks by Monika Hetzler and Zoë Townsend 71 Wylie ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " ! " P ressions is James Madison Memorial High School’s forum for creative writers. In addition to hosting fall and spring creative writing workshops for Memorial students, Pressions publishes senior chapbooks and an annual literary magazine. Pressions workshops began in the fall of 1981. During the following year, the club made a commitment to produce a literary magazine. The first issue was published in the spring of 1983. Over the years, Pressions has fostered creative writing at Memorial High School in a variety of ways: hosting guest speakers (poets and fiction writers from the Madison community), holding poetry readings in the Planetarium, and, for twentyfive years, promoting and sponsoring the Greater Dane County Youth Poetry Festival, a poetry contest for high school writers in Dane and adjacent counties. 72