Building Blocks: My Journey toward White Racial Awareness

CHAN
CONSUIINQ
BETTER FUTURE
TRANFFORMATIONFRR
BLOCKS
BUILDING
AWARENESS
MY JOURNEY TOWARD WHITE RACIAL
BY PATTI DEROSA
THE
CHANGEWORKS CONSULTING
2001
HAS
ACTIVISM
HEN THE
STUDENT FROM
EXCITEMENT
HEARD ABOUT
MY ANTIRACISM
TO BE
OF THE
PART
WEEKEND
WHERE
AT
CALLED
IN
9791 THIS
WEEKEND OF
ORGANIZING
DIALOGUE ABOUT RACISM
ON CAMPUS IN THIS SMALL
NEW YORK WHERE TENSIONS HAD BEEN BUILDING
TO RETURN TO THE
BEEN THE
ABOUT
UPSTATE
THE
SINCE
EAGERLY ACCEPTED
AND ANXIOUSLY LOOKED FORWARD TO THE OPPOR
THE INVITATION
TUNITY
OF 19922
INCIDENT
IN
SCHOOL THAT HAD
UNDERGRADUATE
OF SOME
SITE
MY
OF
MOST PROFOUND
LEARNING
WE SEE
THAT
WHO ARE NOW AT
AND
THAT BLACK PEOPLE
THINK
41
THINK
IMMEDIATELY
WONDERED
HOW CONTEMPORARYCOLLEGE STUDENTS WOULD RELATE
ME
TO
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76
COMPARED WITH
LEGE GRADS MAKE ONLY
AND THE TASK
GREAT DEAL HAS CHANGED
OF WHITE
OWN JOURNEY
RACIAL
EVANT AND USEFUL BUILDING
ALTHOUGH RACISM
ITS
IN
CAPACITY TO MUTATE
NEW BOTTLES
TV
LISTEN
TENDS TO RETAIN
IT
THE
REMAINING
FRIENDS FROM DIFFERENT RACIAL
PLE OF COLOR ON
STUDENTS
SAME POISON
TODAY
BACKGROUNDS SEE MORE PEO
FROM VARIETY OF
TO MORE MUSIC
OF COLOR IN POSITIONS
OF POWER AND INFLUENCE
YET MOST OF THAT
SMOKESCREEN THAT HIDES THE CONTINUING
IN
AMERICA
RACISM THE
IN
FACT
MASS POPULAR
RACISM
ONLY
IN
IT
WE
CULTURE
THE REAL
WHEN
ANGELA DAVIS
MASK THE REALITY
THAT
REARS
HAS
IS
OBSERVED
APPAREL
THAT
OF THE CONTINUITY
DOES NOT
TEND
ALTER
THE
REALITY
TO RECOGNIZE
OF
OF
RACISM
HEAD IN OLD FORMS RACISM
WEARS THE OLD GARB BUT HAS LEARNED TO CLOTHE ITSELF
CONTEMPORARY
OF
ACCURATE
THE UNITED
MINIMAL
IS
PEOPLE
OF RACE AT THE
ACCURATE INFORMATION
YET THEY THINK
LITTLE
RACISM
INSTITUTIONAL
HUGE WHITE
ABOUT ISSUES
LITTLE
THAT
OF THEMSELVES
AS
KNOWLEDGE OF THE
STATES NO CONCEPT
WITH
CONTACT
THE
OF
REALITIES
FACED BY MOST PEOPLE OF COLOR AND NO INSIGHT INTO WHITE
ADVANTAGE
IT
DIFFICULT
UNDERSTANDABLY
IS
FOR
MANY
WHITE PEOPLE TO MAKE SENSE OF THE NEED FOR THE CONTINUED
STRUGGLE FOR RACIAL JUSTICE THE RECENT TREND OF MANIPULAT
ING THE LANGUAGE OF THE CIVIL
MANTLE
STRUGGLE
IN ORDER TO DIS
ACTION CREATE EVEN GREATER CONFUSION
AFFIRMATIVE
WHEN
WAS
RIGHTS
AND UNDERMINE RACIAL JUSTICE SUCH AS THE ATTACKS ON
FRAMED IT
THAT MADE
IT
ME
THIS
BEGIN
WAY
IT
GOT
ME THINKING
WHAT
TO SEE THE WORLD DIFFERENTLY
WHAT MADE ME WANT TO WHAT
MOST EVERYTHING ABOUT THE
ILLUSION
REALITIES
WITH
HISTORY OF OPPRESSION IN
MAKES ONLY
MAKES
PROPELLED
RACIAL
ME TO
MYTHOLOGY
QUESTION
HAD BEEN
WHY DID LISTEN WHAT MADE THE DIFFERENCE AND
SHARING MY EXPERIENCES PERHAPS HELP OTHERS WHO IN
TAUGHT
COULD
MANY WAYS WERE VERY MUCH SIMILAR TO
ME
CAN WITNESS THE END OF RACISM
WORLDWE
ITS
HAVE
MAY
DID THEY MAY HAVE MORE
CULTURAL STYLES AND SEE MORE PEOPLE
VAST CHANGES
WELLINFORMED
RACIAL
MORE INTERRACIAL CONTACT THAN
THE
OWN
THE STUDENTS
FOR
HAS AN ALARMING
CORE ELEMENTS BASICALLY
RACISM
MY
MY
AWARENESS THAT COULD BE REL
BLOCKS
NEW FORMS AND NEW CIRCUMSTANCES
BUT PACKAGED
OF
OF RACISM
UNDERSTANDING
TO
SINCE
THEY HAVE VERY
IS
MALE
ABOUT RACISM
ACCURATE INFORMATION
FOR
DENT AND
THAT THERE WERE ELEMENTS
MONEY OF WHITE
FAMILY
URGENT AND IMMEDIATE
COL
WOMEN BLACK
FAMILY
SUPPORTS THOSE FEELINGS
FELT
OF THE
OF BLACK
AND TECHNI
PROFESSIONALS
OF WHITE
AVERAGE WHITE
MONEY THE
SAME TIME
COLLEGE DAYS YET
17
ONLY
59
GRADUATE OF 1979
HOPELESSLY OUTOFDATE
THAT
COLLEGE GRADS AND THE AVERAGE BLACK
OF THE
PEOPLE
EDUCATION
MAKE MORE MONEY THAT
THAT BLACK PEOPLE
PEOPLE THE REALITY IS
WOMEN ARE OFFICIALS MANAGERS
THAT MOST
MOST WHITE
BETTER OFF IN
ARE
OFTEN HAVE VERY STRONG FEELINGS
DECADES HAD PASSED SINCE
WAS STU
WONDERED IF THEY WOULD SEE ME AS ANCIENT AND
OF WHITES THINK
WHITE
CIANS
FOR EXAMPLE
DISADVANTAGE
58
HAVE BETTER JOBS THAN
PEOPLE
THE NEED
IN
SET
NOT ONLY THAT
IT IS WHITE
BELIEVE
PEOPLE
RACIAL
RECENT SURVEY FOUND THAT
56
TODAY SWAYED BY THE
AGAINST RACISM HAS BEEN WON BUT THAT
THE FIGHT
BLACK
CULTURE
AND MULTICULTURAL
ACTION
THE NATION
MANY WHITE
CURRENT HYPE
RACISM
THEREAFTER THE PANIC
IN
OF POPULAR
TO THE RESISTANCE TO ANTIRACISM
AFFIRMATIVE
DIVERSITY
EDUCATION
PEOPLE
YOUNG LATINA
MOSTLY WHITE TOWN
BLACKLIST
ME
ALLIANCES
OF NEWYORK AT ONEONTA
EVENTS WITH THE GOAL OF OPENING
INFAMOUS
HAD
TO INVITE
CROSSCULTURAL
HAD GRADUATED FROM IN
INSTRUMENTAL
MY
ALMA MATER
MY
WORK AND
FORMING
THE STATE UNIVERSITY
WOMAN WAS
FOR ME TO CONTAIN
CAME IT WAS HARD
CALL
MULTICULTURALISM
SUPERFICIAL
DIRECT RELATIONSHIP
IN
STILL
MORE
HE
UP
ZTG
BEST PLACE FOR
RACISM
AFFECTED
ME TO START WAS TO THINK ABOUT HOW
ME PERSONALLY AND ABOUT HOW IVE
IT
IN
AM WHITE ITALIAN
MY LIFE
WOMANIN MY FORTIES WHO WAS RAISED CATHOLIC
COME TO UNDERSTAND
AMERICAN
CHANGEWORKS CONSUFTINY
BLOCKS
BUILDING
AND HETEROSEXUAL
MIDDLECLASS
AND FLORIDA AND LIVE
URB SOUTH OF BOSTON
THAT
FORMATIVE
MY
SOCIAL
SUB
RANDOLPH MASSACHUSETTS
WAS BORN IN 1957 WHICH MEANS
IN
AND 1970S
ENORMOUS PRESSURES FOR
RIGHTS MOVEMENT THE VIETNAM
WAR WOMENS
LIBERATION
TIONS THE RIOTS
SOCIAL CHANGE WAS EVERYWHERE
THE
SOME MAY HAVE REMAINED
CHANGED BY
PROFOUNDLY
WAS STILL
YET
ALL
IN
WHEN THE MASS MARCHES OF THE
MOVEMENT OCCURRED WAS TOO YOUNG TO
SCHOOL
CIVIL
NOT TOO YOUNG TO BE DEEPLY
NENTLY AFFECTED
IM
AWARE THAT MOST OF
AND EARLY LEAMINGS
TIONS
970S
THE
PART OF
PERSON
RACIST
AND NATIVE
MY CONSCIOUSNESS
LIFE
TYPICAL MIDDLE
FAIRLY
EXODUS OF WHITE
THE
ME AS
CLASS
AND
MY
HORN
PARENTS WERE PART OF THE
WE MOVED TO THE SUBURBS IN THE 1950S
AMERICAN DREAM WHEN SHARED AN EARLY
THIS
NIFICANT
MY
OF FAMILY
PIECE
FATHER DID
THEY
FIRST
MOTHER SHE WAS ABLE
MY
WITH
ARTICLE
HISTORY
LOOKED IN
DISCOVERED
THEN THAT THEY DECIDED
AGGRESSIVELY MARKETING
BOOM
HOUSING
ED RESTRICTIVE
MANY
IS
MY
SET
MY
ON
FATHER PRIVATELY
THIS
IT
IS
TRANSITION
ON EITHER
MY
EVENTUALLY
ACT
OF THAT
REMEMBERS
SHE
MOTHER
SIDE
FATHER SHARED THIS
HER
THEN GOT QUIET AND SAID
SHE DOES NOT
RECALL
AND THAT WAS THE END OF THE DIS
HOUSE
PURCHASED
IN
FRANKLIN
THROW OUT
TIME
WITH
RESPOND
DONT WANT
THAT
ALMOST
FORGOT TO INCLUDE
WAS THE BEGINNING
CONSUFTING
OF
THIS
MANY WAYS
MY WHITE EDUCA
FOR IN
MILLION
OF PARTICULAR RELATIVES
MY
IMPLI
THEY CAME
OR FRIENDS OF
WHO WOULD FROM TIME
COMMENT TO PROVOKE ME
FATHER
FLIPPANT
WHICH
RIGHTEOUS OUTRAGE
DID
WITH
WITHOUT
TO DO SO
ING
MEMORY HE
HIS
UP
TOUGHEN
WHEN
DIED
ME
BOOK
KILLERS
MUCH MORE
DREAM WHEN SHE
OF THE
NEEDS
WE
ABILITY
WE WERE GIVEN
SAYS
CANNOT
OF WHITE
CEREMONIALS
HOOD SLIP FROM
GRANDPARENTS
WHAT
WERE
BELIEVE
AND
AND
IMMIGRANTS
MY
PARTICULARLY STRONG FORCE IN
DEVELOPED
WOMAN YET
AS
INTO MUSCLES
OUT
SHE
ANTI
SHE FACED
SEEMED
NEVER
AND ESPOUSED
SHE WAS
MY
INTO
ABOUT THE DIFFICULTIES
DEFEATED OR BITTER SHE LIVED
AND
TO TEAR
ITALIAN
LATER
THAT WAS OPEN AND LOVING
AND DEFIANT
DOWN DEEP
DIFFICULT
SHE SHARED STORIES
AN ITALIAN
AS
EYE
SUPREMACY PERFORMED FROM BABY
GRANDMOTHER WAS
MATERNAL
RACISM
RAISED
MOVEMENT OF
WITHDRAWING
CONSCIOUS MIND
AND GLANDS AND BECOME
FORMING
AND WE
FORGET THIS
LONG SILENCE THAN FROM LONG SENTENCES THESE
THE BODY
MY
AND
VOCABULARY
PARENTS
WISELY
SHOCKED VOICE
JOKE
BUT WE
MATTERS
LEARNED MORE FROM ACTS THAN WORDS MORE FROM
BROW
AND
HER CLASSIC
IN
PROCESS OF LEARNING WAS DIF
FERENT FOR EACH CHILD AS WERE HIS
EMOTIONAL
THIS
THESE DIFFICULT
IN
WELL THIS
LEARNED OUR LESSONS
TO
TO
HIDDEN
SUBTLE
SMITH HIGHLIGHTS
NO FORMAL INSTRUCTION
ME
HELPED
TO RESPOND TO RACISM
IN
LILLIAN
ON
INTEND
OR EVEN
AND THE
VERBAL AGILITY
MY FEET
LEARNED RACISM
WAYS
EVER REALIZING
THESE INTERCHANGES
DEVELOP
ON
QUICKLY
HIS
THINK
TO
PRE
WAS 18 YEARS OLD HE NEVER TRIED TO IMPOSE THEM ON
THINK HE ADMIRED
MY DETERMINATION TO FIGHT HIM
THESE POINTS
TO
PREJUDICES WERE REAL AND WHILE
HIS
ROMANTICIZE
TO
MY HOME
IN
STATEMENTS
RECEIVED
HEARD THE OVERT VARIETY
DICTABLE CONSISTENCY
VALUE SYSTEM
TIRELESS
WORSHIPPED HER SHE DIED
COURAGEOUS
IN
1988 ONE
MONTH SHORT OF HER ONE HUNDREDTH BIRTHDAY
MOTHER WAS THE
IN
PARTICIPATING
ASSOCIATION
AT
SCHOOL
MY OLDER BROTHERS
TIRELESS
ME
ME
OTHER
REAL
TO GO TO
MY GRANDMOTHER WAS
SHE DID HER BEST TO TEACH
LIVED EXPERIENCE
CERTAIN
WITH
AT
SIMPLE
ON PRIVATE FRONTS
MY
OF
LIKE
MOVIE THEATER THAT MOST
ACT CAUSED QUITE
THE TIME
AND
PEOPLE
KIDS MOTHERS WOULDNT LET THEM
THIS
MOTHERS
TEACHER
PARENT
SCOUT MOTHER FOR
THERE WERE TOO MANY BLACKS THERE
MINOR BUT
THE
AND DEFIANT
SHE FOUGHT SMALL BATTLES
COLOR BUT
BECAUSE
CUB
LIKE
ALWAYS
FROM WHICH TO CHALLENGE PREJUDICE
SHE HAD NO
ALLOWING
SHE
FAMILY
UP THE LOCAL CIVIC
THE
IN
OR BEING
TROOP
COURAGEOUS
THE VALUES
RACISM
OF THE
ACTIVIST
COMMUNITY EVENTS HEADING
ASSOCIATION
OF THE
GREW UP
FROM BROOKLYN TO LONG ISLAND
CHANGEWORI
MY
SEE THAT YOUR WIFE
AS
HOUSE WHEN MY
ON THE ISSUE
SIGNIFICANT
THAT SIMPLE
AND
OR FROM
THE FAMILY
MY
SHOULD KEEP ON LOOKING
SQUARE WHERE
MESSAGES
INVOLVED
MAYBE WE
THEY
SHE
WHEN
DURING OCCASIONAL VISITS
AGENT
SO WHAT MY FATHER
CUSSION
INCLUD
AND JEWS
THE REAL ESTATE
RESPONSE AS
FIGHTING HIM
WHICH WAS
OF
HAVE NO DOUBT THAT
AND WARNED ARE YOU
HER ENTHUSIASM
WITH
CONVERSATION
BLACKS
HOME
CHILDHOOD
ADVISE YOU TO RECONSIDER
REALLY
WAS ONLY
DEVELOPMENTS
THAT EXCLUDED
AWARE THAT THERE ARE BLACKS LIVING
HOUSE
IT
HOUSE IN ANOTHER LONG ISLAND TOWN THAT
SHE LOVED SEEING
WITH
THAT THE
TO EXPLORE LONG ISLAND
OF THE 1950S
FATHER HAD SEEN
SPOKE
OF
SIG
TO YOUNG WHITE COUPLES TO FUEL THE
COVENANTS
PRIOR TO PURCHASING
IN
HOMES THERE
THAN THEY COULD AFFORD
WERE MORE EXPENSIVE
DRAFT
FILL
TO
ME THAT SHE AND
MOVE TO LONG ISLAND
WHITE ITALIAN NEIGH
BENSONHURST
BORHOOD BUT QUICKLY
CHASING
SHE TOLD
WANT TO
NOT INITIALLY
MID
TO THE
DLE CLASS
THE
ON
BROOKLYN
IN
WHO WERE NEW ENTRANTS
FOLKS
CIT
WHITE
FAMILY
BY
IS
HISTORICAL
HEARD OVERTLY RACIST
RARELY
ALTHOUGH
THINK
FIRST
WAS ACTUALLY
TO BE EXACT
BENSONHURST
ANY
FOURTEEN YEARS OF MY
AND
OLDER
BROTHER THATS NOT
MOTHER FATHER
ACCURATEI
TOTALLY
IN
WORKS
RACISM
FOR
AMNESIA CONVENIENTLY
THE
TO
AND
PRIVILEGE
BENEFITS
GETTING
WAYS WE GET ACCESS
AND DENYING WHAT OUR MOTIVATIONS WERE TO BEGIN WITH
KIND
INDUCING
INDIRECT
NEW YORK FOR
MY
WITH
AND
SOCIETY
GREW UP IN
LONG ISLAND
RELATES
IT
1960S
ASIANS
BEGAN TO THINK ABOUT WHAT RACISM MEANS TO
IN
MY
RECOLLEC
WAS THE BACKGROUND FROM WHICH
THIS
WAY
IN
AND PERMA
THE
IN
OF LATINOS
AMERICANS WERE NOT YET
SUBSTANTIAL
WHITES
AND
EXPERIENCES
RIGHTS
BASED ON RACISM AS
ARE
AMERICANS
TO AFRICAN
ELEMENTARY
PARTICIPATE
MANY WAYS BUT
ALSO
AND WHILE
MY WORLDVIEW WAS
UNTOUCHED
IT
DEMONSTRA
THE
SITINS
OF THE WAYS THAT WHITE
ONE
TION
WITH
FILLED
THE CIVIL
CHANGE
1960S
YEARS WERE THE
THESE WERE TIMES
NEW YORK
IN
GREW UP
IT
RUCKUS
MOTHER HELPED
ATTEND
SOUNDS
AMONG
ME
TO BE
MY JOURNEY TOWARD WHITE
SHOWED ME HOW
AND HER MODELING
MY VALUES
ABOUT
CLEAR
AWARENESS
RACIAL
TO BEHAVE CONSISTENTLY WITH THOSE BELIEFS
IT
SEEMED TO ME THAT THE ADULTS AROUND
ME
GAVE
NOW
ALTHOUGH
COULD
THEY
RECEIVED
ATE
UNDERSTAND
SOCIAL
AND TENSION
ME
WERENT
AND
TO
MADE
IT
OF CAUTION
SAME AND ALL PEO
SAW HAPPENING
THAT
FEEL
THEN
GROWN FOLKS
BE
MUST
IT
ALL
VERY
TO FIND OUT WHAT
WERE
BUT
WAS MULTICULTURAL
OF WHITE
VARIETY
EUROPEAN
THIS
WAS REGIONALLY LIMITED
EXPERIENCE
WHITE ANGLO SAXON PROTESTANTS
OF THEM
THOUGHT
DIDNT THINK
TAINLY
ING
WERE KIND
OF
ACCRUED TO THIS
AS EARLY
FRIENDS AND
BORING
ELEMENTARY
AS
MY
SCHOOL
HOW THE
WHOOPI
SKITS
WHITE
SLIP
MY
ON
HAVE THE
SAME
AND
DARK HAIRED
GOLDBERG
HEAD PRETENDING
PRESSURES
ANY
SHE WAS
PUTTING
LONG
TO HAVE LONG SILKY
FOR
ASSIMILATION
WERE CLEARLY
ME AND YOUNG AFRICAN AMERICAN
THERE
TIME
FOR
GIRLS
ME THE
WONDERLAND
NOSED
COULD
SO
OF NORDIC
SIX
MY NAME
TO CHANGE
WANTING
SUPREMACIST
AMERICAN
EARLIEST
MUCH
BEAUTY
TO
ALICE
LIKE
BLONDE
AND
REMEMBER
LIKE
THAT
ALICE
SMALL
TO INTERNALIZE STANDARDS OF
THAT HAD
LITTLE
ROOM
FOR
EVEN
SELF
RECOLLECTION
IS
FROM AGE
VERY YOUNG
OR
OF GOING
IN
SAME AGE
MY DOLLS
ON
NOT SURE
ANN
AS
MYSELF
RECOILED AND
WAS AFRAID BECAUSE
IF
SHE WAS SOME STRANGE KID GRABBING
DOLL OR BOTH
WHAT
CALMLY
DO REMEMBER
MY
IS
MOTHERS
DONT
GENTLY AND IMMEDIATELY
WORRY PATTI THE LITTLE GIRL JUST WANTS TO PLAY WITH YOU
THAT WAS ALL THE ENCOURAGEMENT NEEDED AND THE LITTLE
GIRL
MY
WENT OFF TO PLAY HIDING
AND
HAD TO
OUR MOTHERS
UNTIL
UNDER THE CLOTHES RACKS
US AWAY FROM EACH
PULL
MOTHERS RESPONSE WAS ECHOED YEARS
DATED
MAN
BLACK
LEAGUE OF
MR
HAS BEEN AN INSPIRATION
TO
FATHERS WAS INVITED
FOX WAS FROM THE SOUTH AND
COL
BUSINESS
HOME
TO OUR
FOR
ME
WAS AROUND ELEVEN YEARS OLD
MY
REALLY
HER MODELING OF
AND HOLDING HERSELF ACCOUNTABLE
FEELINGS
OWN RACISM
YOU
FIRST
NOT SURE HOW
GOING TO FIND OUT IF
TO TEACH
TRIED
EVERYTHING
OWNING HER
HER
IM
GUESS
OTHER
WHEN
LATER
WAS IM
ALL SHE SAID
ABOUT THIS BUT
FEEL
FOR DINNER
FATHER WARNED US
MY
IM
SAY SOME THINGS THAT WERE UPSETTING
BUT LIKE
SURE HE NEVER MENTIONED THE WORD RACIST
HE
RACIAL
CODE
AND
WAS TALKING IN
GOOD WHITE FOLKS
KNEW HOW TO DECIPHER IT
DINNER WHEN MR FOX SAID
THERES
NOTHING
PROBLEM
IS
ILL
WE
NEVER FORGET THAT NIGHT
WITH
CUTER THAN
THAT THEY
ALL
BIG SMILE
LITTLE
ON
AT
FACE
THE ONLY
PICKANINNY
GROW UP TO BE
HIS
NIGRAS THEN HE
MY FACE FLUSHED AND OPENED MY
MY MOTHER FIRMLY SQUEEZED MY HAND
TABLE
AND
UNDER THE
PAINED BUT INSTRUCTIONAL
GAVE ME
THAT
LOOK TO KEEP QUIET
HATED
MAN AT THAT MOMENT AND
IN MY PARENTS WHY DID THEY LET HIM
WAS DISAPPOINTED
HAVE TO
COME HERE WHY DIDNT THEY STOP HIM WHY DID
BE QUIET WAS
BUSINESS DEAL THAT IMPORTANT
AM
OUT LOUD
LAUGHED
MOUTH TO SPEAK BUT
REMINDED OF ANOTHER PASSAGE FROM
WHICH SMITH
HER PARENTS
DESCRIBES
COLLUSION WITH
MY
KILLERS
HER REACTION
OF THE
CHILD
DREAM IN
WITNESSING
WHOM
PASSIONATELY
WHICH THEY HELD DEAR
AND
THEY COULD NOT HELP DOING IT
THEIR
FAILURE
AND FRIGHTENED
AS
RACISM
FATHER AND MOTHER
HAD BETRAYED SOMETHING
ADMIRED
FOR
AND
FELT
WAS ASHAMED BY
THEY WERE NO LONGER
HAD THOUGHT THERE WAS SOMETHING OUT
AS POWERFUL AS
THERE THAT WAS STRONGER THAN THEY AND COULD NOT BEAR TO
IT
BELIEVE
BEHAVIOR
MY
IN
IDEALIZED
BLUEEYED
REMEMBER BEING AWARE OF RACE FROM
MY
SIMILARI
HOLD
YEARS OLD
BE MORE
BEAUTY
WAS ALREADY BEGINNING
MY ITALIAN
FOR
BETWEEN AFRICAN AMERICAN
WOMENAT
NOT
BECAUSE
RESPONSE SHE SAID
MY
KNEW
YET AT
SIMILARITIES
ENOUGH
ARE
EXPLORATION
AMERICAN
ITALIAN
WHITE
GIRL
ONE OF HER FAMOUS
IN
MAKEBELIEVE BY
AND DIFFERENCES OF THESE TWO EXPERIENCES
POTENTIAL
AGE
PRIVILEGES
BOYS SEEMED TO THINK
GOLDBERGS PORTRAYAL TO RESONATE WITH
IMAGE
SHE WAS BLACK
HAIR RATHER THAN THE COARSE CURLY DARK HAIR THAT
THE SAME FOR
TIES
AN
GROUP
TOO USED TO PLAY
THE
SOCIETY
WE THOUGHT THE ANGLO
ALSO RECALL HOW WE WERE
WITH BLONDE HAIR WAS PRETTY JUST BECAUSE
BLONDE
HOLD
SAID
AWARE OF THE BENEFITS
DISCUSSED
BLONDE LIKE
DID
US
IN
POSITIONS
WHICH WE
ALREADY BECOMING
GIRL
MOST CER
GROUP
POWERFUL MAJORITY
LEADERSHIP
IN
GIRLFRIEND
HID BEHIND
THE
ABOUT
GIRL
ME AND PULLED
MY MOTHER IM
THAT HE MIGHT
AND
MY ENVIRONMENT
CONSCIOUSLY REMEMBER CONVERSATIONS WITH
ALTHOUGH
KIDS
IN
OF THEM AS
MOST OF THE
ITALIAN
AND NOT REFLECTIVE
SMALL MINORITY
AS
BLACK
LITTLE
APPROACHED
WHEN
OF THE REST OF THE COUNTRY THERE WERE FEW
OF THE REALITY
WHEN
BUT NO PEOPLE OF COLOR ITALIANS
AND JEWS WERE THE TWO LARGEST GROUPS AND THOUGHT THAT
WAS TRUE FOR MOST OTHER PLACES AS WELL
NOW REALIZE THAT
DEPARTMENT STORE
LARGE BLACK
HEMPSTEAD THE COUNTY SEAT AND TOWN WITH
WAS CARRYING MY FAVORITE THUMBALINA DOLL
POPULATION
BELIEVE
LATER
ISLAND NEIGHBORHOOD
THERE
THE
IF
MY BUSINESS
BIT
MY COMMUNITY
ETHNICS IN
THE
IS
THAT
CONFLICTS
BUT THAT COMES
MY LONG
WAY MANY
FULL
KINDS OF ANSWERS DID NOT EXPLAIN THE
ME SOMETHING
NOT MULTIRACIAL
TO THE
SIMILAR
EVERYONE
INDEED
WAS
HAD
TOO
THEY
THE ANSWERS WERE SIMPLISTIC
STARTED
TELLING
IMPORTANT
IT
LIKE
AND
CHANGES
NEVER
THE BEST THAT
ASK ABOUT SEX
OTHER TIMES
EQUAL THESE
AROUND
THAT THEY DID
MISINFORMATION
WHEN CHILDREN
THEY SAID THINGS
ME
RACE AND RACISM
ABOUT
ABOUT THESE TOPICS SEEMED TO GENER
QUESTIONS
AND ANXIETY
ARE
THE
GIVEN
NERVOUSNESS
ADULTS ACT
PIE
INFORMATION
ACCURATE
MOTHER TO
MY
WITH
SHOPPING
SPILLED
TLE
FACING THE CONTRADICTIONS BETWEEN VALUES AND
WAS TO BECOME
INTERNAL
OVER ONTO
BOY
INSISTED
STRUGGLES
DRIVING
FORCE FOR
WITH
PREJUDICE
MY ELEMENTARY
ON
TELLING
ME
INTUITIVELY
AND
RACISM
SCHOOL PLAYGROUND
THAT HIS
ABOUT ALL THOSE BLACK PEOPLE IN THE CITY
THEY WERE
ME
FATHER TOLD
LIT
HIM
AND HOW TERRIBLE
FOUGHT BACK SAYING THAT WAS UNFAIR
WHAT
AND WRONG HE THEN CHALLENGED ME BY SAYING
MAKES YOU THINK YOURE RIGHT HOW DO YOU KNOW DO
YOU KNOW ANY BLACK PEOPLE HAD TO ADMIT THAT DID NOT
CHANYEWORKS
CONSUFTING
MY JOURNEY TOWARD WHITE
INDEED
HAVE TO WONDER ABOUT THEIR
HAVE SOME CONCEMS
SILENCE
AND
EXCITED
THE SITUATION
BEING
ABOUT MEETING
MANY NEW AND
SO
MATURE
MADE
FOR
AGE BOTH
MY
NEW YORKERS MANY
OTHER
PREDICTABLY
PHYSICALLY
CITY
AND BROOKLYN THEY HAD HAD
TACT
AND
MUCH
OF
WERE
FRIENDS
HAD NOT BEEN POSITIVE
IT
LIMITED
ASKED
CON
STRATE
THEY WERE
IMAGE
SOMEWHAT JADED CYNICAL AND FEARFUL AND THEY WARNED ME
DOWN THE
NOT TO WALK
IN
NAIVETE
HAVE WORKED TO
MAY
MY NEW ENVIRONMENT
AS RACIAL
OF COLOR AND
TACT WITH PEOPLE
OUS ABOUT
PEOPLE
WAS LESS
UNKNOWN
OUT BOLDLY INTO THE
WAS BREAKING SOME UNWRITTEN
TO
BE
ME
OF WHAT THEY NEVER
WITH
BEING TOO FRIENDLY
FOR
ME TO
INTRODUCED
NEW TO ME
THAT
FOUND
WHEN
STRAIGHT
SAYING THEY
ALL
DISTANCE
AND
DIRECTLY
THEM
BLACK
WAS
WAS SO
EVERYONE
CONFUSED
WHO IN
LOOK ALIKE
ALIKE
UNKNOWN
OF THE
FEAR
FLORIDA WAS NO RACIAL UTOPIA BY ANY MEANS FRIENDSHIP
WERE BY AND
GROUPS
LARGE
SEGREGATED
RIGIDLY
AND THE JOB MARKET
NEIGHBORHOODS
WHITE SCHOOL ADMINISTRATORS
LIVED
ACTIVELY
INTERRACIAL
FRIENDSHIP
AND ONE OF THE DEANS
THE
SHIPS RARELY CROSSED THE LINE
RONMENT
DIXIE
NAME
FOR
FIRST
WERE
CAME DOWNHARDER ON
CLEARLY
BLACK STUDENTS FOR MINOR INFRACTIONS
UP TO HER
AS
OBSERVED THAT THE
EXPERIENCED
YET THOSE FRIEND
TIME
OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL IN THIS
PLE
BUILT
RELATIONSHIPS WITH BUT
BLATANT RACISM
SUCH AS THE WHITE
LY TOLD
MY
MAN
MOTHER AND
THAT HE TRAINED HIS
BLACK PEOPLE AS ALWAYS
STRAIGHT
BEFORE EITHER
SHE TOLD HIM
WHO PROUD
MY NEIGHBORHOOD
IN
PEO
WAS ALSO PRIVY TO MORE
HAD EVER WITNESSED
THAN
COULD COUNT ON
HE WAS DISGUSTING
DOGS TO ATTACK
MOMTO SET
HIM
AND PROMPTLY
UALS
WAS IN
THIS
OF RACIAL
YOUNG BLACK
YELLOW
OPPRESSION
GIRL
ZONKERS
COULD RESPOND
ENVIRONMENT
OFFERED
FIRST
ME
POPCORNLIKE
THAT
BEGAN TO SEE THE NT
HAND
IN
BIOLOGY
CLASS
SOME OF HER SCREAMING
SNACK FOOD BUT BEFORE
SHE LOWERED HER EYES AND SAID
SOFTLY
OHI
IM SORRYYOU MIGHT NOT WANT TO EAT FROM MY BOX
MY
FAVORITE
TEACHER WAS AN AFRICAN AMERICAN MAN WHO WAS
ME
BLOCK
WAS EXTREMELY
MY HOME TO DEMON
AT
MY
TO REAFFIRM
WHO WAS
ME ON MY VERY
OWN
SELF
HOWEVER SEVERELY
MY OWN RACISM FROM
FIRST
PERSON WHO
BOY
THE
DAY
FIRST
MY NEW SCHOOL
IN
REFERRING TO HIM
IN
CONVER
IN
THE RACIST USAGE BUT DESCRIPTIVELY
NOT IN
AS
WE
YEARS OLD HE CUT ME OFF MID
WERE AFTER ALL ONLY
TONE OF VOICE THAT DEMANDED ATTENTION
SENTENCE AND IN
FIFTEEN
AND RESPECT SAID
IM
SILENCE
AND
FOLLOWED
NOT
BOY
POWER OF
THIS
INCIDENT
HOW WORDS CAN WOUND
AWKWARD
LESSON ABOUT
ME THE
WE BEAR THE
TAUGHT
AND THAT
OF THEIR HISTORY AND LEGACY REGARDLESS OF OUR INTENT
WEIGHT
MY
MAN AN
IM
LEARNED AN IMPORTANT
THE ASSERTION OF RACIAL DIGNITY
RELATIONSHIP WITH
MY OWN RACISM
YOUNG MAN WAS THE
THIS
ALTHOUGH WE WERE CRAZY
OTHER AND SECRETLY ADMITTED
HE WHO DID NOT
ACKNOWLEDGE THEM
ABOUT
PRIVATE
OF
EACH
WAS
IT
THE COURAGE TO PUBLICLY
ANOTHER EXAMPLE OF HOW THE RECURRING
AND SHAME AT COLLUSION WITH
IS
THEME
IN
OUR FEELINGS
YET HAVE
NOT
THIS
TIME
FIRST
TO SERIOUSLY CONFRONT THE HYPOCRISY
REMEMBER HAVING
OF ANGER PAIN
MY OWN AS WELL AS OTHER WHITE PEOPLES
PUSHED ME FORWARD IN MY OWN GROWTH MY PROFESSED
VALUES AND MY ACTUAL BEHAVIORS WERE OUT OF SYNC AND
SEEING MYSELF BETRAY MY OWN IDEALS AND BETRAY MY FRIEND
RACISM
WAS UNBEARABLE
BORDER
ANYWHERE SOUTH OF DIE CANADIAN
UE TO
MY PARENTS
TIONAL
MANY WAYS
IN
MY STAY IN
SEPARATION
HALF YEARS BUT
BRIEF TWO AND
IN
IT
FLORIDA WAS
WAS TRANSFORMA
MY MOTHER AND
NEW YORK THAT WE
RETURNED
1973
TO THE SAME COMMUNITY
IN
HAD
RETURNED TO THE SAME SCHOOL AND THE SAME FRIENDS
HAD
WAS NOT THE SAME PERSON
AND EVERYTHING SEEMED DIFFERENT
IN
1971
MY
MY
FORMER
WHEN
WRITING
INTERESTED
REMEMBER
RACISM
FOOTBALL
WHEN
ME
IN
THINKING
IF
THE
BUT
LEFT
NEW YORK
AND
WERE CHEERLEADING
WAS FOCUSED ON PLAY
RETURNED
SONGS
LEFT
NEW SET OF EYES AND EARS
AND WORKING FOR SOCIAL
JUSTICE
APPROACHED ME
DIDNT
WAS ON DRUGS BECAUSE
STUDIES TEACHER
SOCIAL
ONE DAY AND ASKED
SEEM
INTERESTS
PRIMARY
FOOTBALL GAMES
ING GUITAR
CHANGED THE SUBJECT
IT
SATION
MORE CHALLENGES TO RACISM THANL
EXPERIENCED
OFF
OTHER EXPERIENCES
ONCE USED THE TERM
ENVI
EVER HAD BEFORE THROUGH THE BLACK ADULTS AND YOUNG
OFF
THE POPCORN AND
ATE
THESE INTERACTIONS
MALE FRIEND
BEFRIENDED
ABOUT
STATEMENT
WAS ACTUALLY
AND
AT
THAT THE OLD RACIST
REALIZING
UNFAMILIARITY
NAMES AND
THE
LOOKED NOTHING
REALITY
REMEMBER CONSCIOUSLY
SOCIAL
KIDS
ME
TOLD
HARD TO KEEP NAMES AND FACES
IT
CONTINUALLY
FACES OF WHITE KIDS
ALL
FOLKS
INNER CIRCLE BY SAYING
THEIR
FROM THE OTHER WHITE
DIFFERENT
OUT THAT
DID NOT UNDER
THAT
SAID
CAREFUL
SCOLDED
FOLKS
QUICKLY FOUND
RULES
VENTURED
JUST
FROM BOTH BLACKS AND WHITES WHITE
STAND
THAN CURI
FEARFUL
FROM MYSELF
DIFFERENT
CON
HAD VERY LIMITED
STRANGE WAYS FOR BETTER OR WORSE
ME
THE TIME
AT
LEARNED ABOUT BLACK PRIDE AND
BLACK
CAN WORK IN
ISOLATION
CAR
TO DRIVE
KNEW THAT THERE WAS SOMETHING
NONRACIST
AS
WAS ALRIGHT
IT
PREFERRED THAT HE DROP
INTUITIVELY
YET
IF
MY TEACHER TO DROP ME
MY ALLIANCE AS WELL AS
STU
MY ADVANTAGE
TO ASK
CONSCIOUSNESS
RACIAL
ME
HIS
TESTED THAT IMAGE OF MYSELF
THOUGHT THEY WERE PARANOID
DENTS CONGREGATED
MY RACIAL
SCHOOL HALLWAYS WHERE BLACK
MY HOUSE
VERY WRONG IN
NEW YORK
OF INTERRACIAL
LOT
MY
AWAY
AND
GAVE
SCHOOL ONE DAY ONLY TO STOP
MY DOOR OR IF
VERBAL
SOCIALLY
FROM
HOME FROM
BLOCK FROM
TO
MY LIFE HE
BLACK ADULT ROLE MODEL IN
FIRST
RIDE
DIFFERENT
EXTREMELY
AND
MANY OF MY NEW WHITE
FRIENDS EASILY
THE
IT
AN ADVENTURE AND
AS
WAS AN OUTGOING ADOLESCENT
KIDS
ABOUT
COMMUNICATE
TO
OUR INABILITY
REMEMBER APPROACHING
AWARENESS
RACIAL
SAME
HES
EVEN
OLD
THINGS
GOT TO BE
ANYMORE
THERES
KIDDINGL
AND POVERTY AND WAR AND HES WORRIED
ABOUT
THE
TEAM
HERE
WAS BACK
IN
LIBERAL
NEW YORK
WHERE
HEARD
CHANGEWORKS CONSUFTING
MY JOURNEY TOWARD WHITE
WHO MAY BE
OF HATEFUL IDEAS ABOUT PEOPLE
INCLUDE THE CONCEPT OF WHITE PRIVILEGE
TIONAL
POWER
OPPRESSION
BUT
AN INSTITUTIONALIZED
ALSO
MY
NATURE OF INSTITUTIONAL
SYSTEMIC
OF GUILT
MY FEELINGS
PAST
INNUMERABLE
IN
LIFE
AND STRUGGLED AGAINST
MY
TO FIGHTING
LIFE
ESTABLISHED
STILL
SYSTEM
BENEFIT
OF WHITE
THE COUNTRY
IN
ME MOVE
HELPED
SAW THAT THE
HIM WHAT
NO AND THEN PROCEEDED TO TELL
HAD WITNESSED WHAT EXPLAINED THE DIFFERENT
TREATMENT
AM WHITE
COMMIT
PRIVILEGE
WHEN THOSE
HAD
ENTERED
AND NONINTRUSIVE
WHO
OF US
ARE
ATTENDED
ONE OF THE ASSOCIATION MEETINGS
AND WEREBOTH PHYSICALLY EVICTED
THE RACISM
LIC
MY MOTHER AND
ABOUT WHAT WAS OCCURRING BY WRITING
CHALLENGE
THAT WAS
LETTER
NEWSDAY THE PRIMARY NEWSPAPER ON LONG
AND IMMEDIATELY
WE BEGAN TO HE HARASSED AND
ISLAND
THREATENED BY OUR WHITE
HOME
WAS DRIVING
NEIGHBORS
FOLLOWED BY ANOTHER CAR
WAS BEING
TO TRY TO LOSE
THIS
DURING
WHEN
ALONE LATE ONE NIGHT
HOME THEY
ME AN
DOOR
MY
ESCORT TO
TO FOLLOW
THOUGH
WAS BEING
ACTIVITIES
IT
WAS
OBLIGED
EASILY
MY WHITE
PRIVILEGE
OF
SIMILAR
OF COLOR IN
THAT AS
VIABLE
ANOTHER
ARNOLD AND
SITUATION
MY
ANTIRACISM
THAT ALLOWED
THE
MIGHT BE
TRIP
OCCURRED
LESS
ME TO
PERSON
LIKELY
TO SEE
FIRST
WHEN MY HUSBAND
TO LONDON SEVERAL YEARS AGO
DECLARATION
LINE
CARD ON THE
WHILE
PLANE
SO
HAD
WENT
ARNOLD STAYED BEHIND TO
AGENT WAS FRIENDLY
COMPLETE HIS FORM THE IMMIGRATION
AND COURTEOUS AND ASKED ME IF WAS THERE FOR BUSINESS OR
PLEASURE
MY ANSWER BOTH AND HOW LONG
ENGLAND
TWO WEEKS HE
FOR
WOULD BE
THANK YOU AND
STOOD ON THE OTHER SIDE
MY WAY
WAITED
SAID
OF THE
IN
WAS ON
COUNTER
AND
ARNOLD TO COME THROUGH THE LINE THE AGENT
AND COURTEOUS BUT
FRIENDLY
STRANGE THING
WAS EQUALLY
HAPPENED
IN
ADDITION
TO THE QUESTIONS HE HAD ASKED
ME
HE ASKED ARNOLD HOW LONG HE WAS STAYING MORE THAN ONCE
AND ASKED HIM TO PRODUCE HIS RETURN TICKET ARNOLD COM
PLIED
IT
THE AGENT SAID
CHEERY
THANK
ASKED ARNOLD IF HE HAD NOTICED
DEFINE
YOU
AND THAT WAS
ANYTHING
UNUSUAL
IN
RACISM
OR WITHOUT
IA THEN WAS
VY GROUP THAT
THIS
EVEN OUR
OUR COOPERATION
TO
AND
EXISTENCE
ITS
RACISM
STUDENT
AT
WAS PART OF
ONEONTA
WAS CALLED THE
CONCERT COMMITTEE
EVENTS AND SELECTED THE
WAS
MULTIRACIAL
FE
MEANS THERE WERE
THAT
ARTISTS
REMEMBER IT
THE COLLEGE AS BEST AS
AT
CONCERT COMMITTEE
PEOPLE
JUST BY VIRTUE
DAILY BASIS
OR HETEROSEXUALNESS
BEARS WITNESS
MUSICAL
WHICH PROBABLY
MANY
AND ADVANTAGE
LIVES
LIBERAL
LESSON
SO WE NEGLECT
DOING
PRIVILEGE
ON
MALENESS
TO RACISM
POWER IN OUR
GROUP
THOUGH NOT
THE GROUP AT ONE MEETING AN
SELECTION OF PERFORMERS
OF COLOR IN
INTENSE CONFLICT AROSE ABOUT THE
WERE VERY FEW
BLACK ACTS BOOKED ON CAMPUS THAT THE FEW THAT WERE
BOOKED WERE CROSSOVER ARTISTS DEFINED BY WHITE MUSICAL
THE
STUDENTS
BLACK
TASTES
STATED
AND THAT THEY THE
THAT
BLACK
THERE
WERE ALWAYS
STUDENTS
OUTVOTED ANYWAY
AN
EXAMPLE
OR
IN
WAYS
OUR EXPERIENCES
RESISTANCE
OPTION
TOOK
MY
OUT
THROUGH
ME
AND GAVE
ENOUGH TO ASK THE POLICE FOR PROTECTION
FEEL SAFE
NOT RACIST
OF THE
OF OUR WHITENESS
THE
HAVE SINCE REALIZED THAT EVEN
HARASSED BECAUSE
INFLUENCE
IM
SO
EXTENT
WOULD PERFORM
NOTICED
ZIGZAGGED ERRATICALLY
HIM BUT THE DRIVER CONTINUED
THEM TO FOLLOW ME
TO SEE THE
WE PLANNED
PERIOD
DROVE TO THE LOCAL POLICE STATION AND ASKED
FRIGHTENED
WHEN WE
ARE RACIST
WENT PUB
IN
PUBLISHED
FILLED
TO
WE
THOSE
WHEN
BECOME DEFENSIVE
CAN EASILY
IT
HAPPENS WITH
TO BLOCK THE SALE BY
AGENCY
OUT
SIGHT OF THE CONCEPT OF PRIVILEGE
WHITE
TOLD THAT
FORMED
REAL ESTATE
ABLE TO FIGURE
EVEN
SYSTEMS WERE
ARE
HATEFUL THINGS
LOCAL
WAS ONLY IN CONTRASTING
IT
WHAT HAD HAPPENED
IN 1979
BLACK FAMILY TRIED TO PUR
HOME IN MY NEWYORK NEIGHBORHOOD MY NEIGH
BORS WHO PRIOR TO THIS HAD HAD THEIR SHARE OF ETHNIC CON
BONDED TOGETHER AS WHITE FOLKS THEY
FLICTS IMMEDIATELY
COLLUDING WITH
ALL
AND
PRIVILEGE
BECOMES EASY TO DISTANCE OUR
ONLY IN INDIVIDUAL
TERMS
DONT BELIEVE THOSE
SELVES FROM RACISM BY SAYING WELL
FOR EXAMPLE
THAT TRIED
FACE
WE WERE
THAT
OUR EXPERIENCES
ENTERING
SURE THAT
FRONT OF US WITH
RACISM HAD OPERATED RIGHT IN
INSTITUTIONAL
POLITE
WHITE
TO LEAVE
TICKETS
PEOPLE
TO MAKE
CHECKING
WE
CHASE
ASSOCIATION
AFROCARIBBEAN
ALL
BLACK
IS
GOVERNMENT WAS
BRITISH
MY ANCESTORS
UP
CIVIC
THE
THE COUNTRY AND CAREFULLY
WHO
AND ARNOLD
AND AMERICAN
CITIZEN
WHEN WE LOSE
THAT WAS
SAID
MONITORING
CLOSELY
EVERY DAY AS
WHITE PEOPLE EVEN THOUGH
FOR
WERE NOT EVEN
SET
WAYS EXAMINING
THE
OTHER WORDS EVEN AS
RACISM
WHITE PERSON FROM
ADVAN
AND
RACISM
HE
THE INTERACTION
AND AN ANTIGUAN
PERSONALLY REJECTED THAT SYSTEM
IN
IT
HOW
ME
AROUND
ALL
AND SHAME BECAUSE
OPERATED EVEN AS
SYSTEM
SEE
OF PRIVILEGE
SYSTEM
TAGE AND POWER THAT WAS OPERATING
STRUCTURED
TO
AND BEHAVIORS
PERSONAL ATTITUDES
NOT SOLELY
IS
AND INSTITU
BEGAN
SHIFT
FROM
DIFFERENT
ME TO
WHEN MADE THIS
AWARENESS
RACIAL
ON ABOUT
ARGUMENT ENSUED WITH THE WHITE STUDENTS GOING
HOW THE CONCERT COMMITTEE WAS FOR THE WHOLE
CAMPUS AND HOWWE HAD TO DO WHAT WAS IN THE BEST INTER
ONE PARTICULARLY VOCAL WHITE MALE
ESTS OF THE MAJORITY
STUDENT WAS
SENIOR
IN
OFTEN RAN MEETINGS
AND ARGUED WITH
AND
CHAIR
OF THE
WAY HE
VERY CONTROLLING
SEVERAL BLACK
AND
COMMITTEE
STUDENTS FINALLY
ARGUED
DECIDED
TO SPEAK UP AND INTERVENE
REMEMBER TALKING ABOUT HOW
WE HAD TO
LISTEN
TO
BUT
AFTER
BLACK
ING
REMAIN
CALM AND
STUDENTS HAD
TO BOOK STEVIE
MEANING
WHITE
CONFUNKSION
VENIENTLY
POINT
STUDENTS
OR TAVARES
ROLLING
THE HEAD BY THE
SIDES AND THAT THE
WERENT WE TRY
ALL
WONDER WOULD ENOUGH
OF
COURSE
BECAUSE
STUDENTS
SHOW UP
WHAT HAPPENED
FORGOTTEN PROBABLY
SOME POLITE
ALL
NEXT
IT
TO
HAVE
LIKELY
SEE
CON
ENTAILED
OF THE EYES AND FRUSTRATED SHAKING
BLACK
STUDENTS
AS
RECALL THE
OF
BLACK
ONEONTA
GROUPS THAT WERE REQUESTED NEVER DID COME TO
CFIANWORKS
CONSUFTING
BLOCKS
BUILDING
THE
LESSON HERE
THINGS WORSE
HAD NO INSIGHT
WHEN IN
RACIST
BLIND
WHATSOEVER
INTO
FACT
IN
LIBERAL
PLAYED
THE CLASSIC
RACISM
RAGE ENDING
KILLING
ATHILE
OF THE COLOR
ROLE
VY
ANTHROPOLOGY MAJOR AND
IT
THE VERY SMALL BUT HIGHLY VISIBLE
IS
MOVEMENT AWAY FROM
OVERTLY RACIST
NONE OF WHICH
HOW
ALLPERVASIVE
WHITES
LIBERAL
ANDOR
AND
SUPREMACY
AND AS BEHAVIOR
IS
BOTH AS IDEOLOGY
SOCIETY
WHICH OFTEN MASKS
PEOPLE
WHITE
DO EMBODY WHITE
BELIEFS
RACISM
THIS
SUPREMACIST
CAN
AS PREJUDICE
OR DOMINATION
VALUES
THE WAYS THEIR
CANNOT RECOGNIZE
GAMELAN
MUSIC
WEST INDIAN
EXCITED AND THRILLED
ESPECIALLY
BER FEELING
THE CLASS
SON IN
ACTIONS SUPPORT
RULE
LIBERAL
ITY
WHEN YOU
TORY DEMOCRACY
EVEN THOUGH MINE
STUDENTS
AND CHOICES
DESIRES
ARE THE MAJOR
THE ILLUSION
WERE
OF PARTICIPA
GUARANTEED
SUCCESS AT EVERY TURN LIBERAL RACISM ENTAILS BEING ABLE TO
MOUTH THE RHETORIC OF DEMOCRACY AND EQUALITY WITHOUT
TO GIVE
HAVING
OR MAKE
UP ANYTHING
ESSENTIAL
ELEMENT OF LIBERATION
BUT
SHARING
ALSO
THE OTHER WHITE
WITH
AN
NOT ONLY SHARING POWER
IS
DISCOMFORT
CHANGES
ANY
THAT MEETING
IN
STUDENTS THERE
ALONG
WAS UNWILLING
OR
RACISM
IS
LANT FOR EXAMPLE
WITH
POLITICS
AT
AFRICAN
WE NEED
THE REASONS
JOUR
TIMES
STILL
MUST REMAIN MOST VIGI
FIND MYSELF ARGUING ELECTORAL
AMERICAN
CHAMPIONING
FRIENDS
DU
USUALLY UNEVEN AND
PRESSIVE RECORD ON RACIAL ISSUES
HAVE
UNIM
TO WONDER WHY AM
LIBERALISM
SO WILLING TO DEFEND TRADITIONAL
IN
THIS
CONTEXT
ESPECIALLY WHEN AM USUALLY THE ONE CRITIQUING IT WHEN
MIDDLEOFTHEROAD
AM AMONG MY MORE POLITICALLY
BOTH WHITE AND OF COLOR ALTHOUGH
FRIENDS
AND
AGREE THAT THE THREAT FROM THE RIGHT WING
SERIOUS
MY
LESSER OF TWO EVILS
HOLLOW LIBERAL
TO
PROTECTION
THE REALITIES
TRANSFORM
FACT
THE
ENTRENCH
THINK
REFORMS
MAY
MANY BUT
MY FRIENDS
IS
REAL
AND
ARGUMENT SEEMS TO RING
GIVE SOME COMFORT AND LEGAL
THEY
DO NOT NECESSARILY ADDRESS
OF PEOPLE OF COLOR NOR DO THEY FUNDAMENTALLY
THE
RACIAL
SUPERFICIALITY
THE
EXISTING
MY MIDDLECLASS
DANCING
LANDSCAPE
OF THE
OF THESE
UNITED
CHANGES
POWER IMBALANCES
WHITENESS
CHANGEWORKSCONSU TING
MAKES
IT
STATES
MAY
IN
SERVE TO
EVEN DEEPER
EASIER
TO DEFEND
HOW
THE
IN
FOR
WHILE
ENCE
IT
IS
CLASS
WHICH PROVIDED
AWARE
AND
THERE IN RETROSPECT
ME CAU
STUDENTS EYED
DANCE
DRESS AND
TRADITIONAL
MORE
DIFFICULT
PRETTY GOOD DANCER AND
GREAT DEAL FROM THIS EXPERI
NEVER
ON BLACK STUDENTS OF
IMPACT
ALSO
AMERICAN
HAVE BEEN
GAINED
THAT
TELLING
AND THAT
MINORITY
THE AFRICAN
AFRICAN
MIGHT
HAD NOT BEEN
IF
QUICK STUDY
HAD
STUDENTS ACTIVELY BEFRIENDED
FULL
IT
PER
RARELY
MUST HAVE BEEN AT OUR FINAL
SIGHT
STORM
REMEM
CLASS
WHITE IM
MY BEING
AFRICAN
DRESSED IN
UP
EXPERIENCE
PAUSED
TO
MY PRESENCE
CONSIDER
IN
THIS
SPACE ON
AFRICANCENTERED
RARE
THE
CLASS
CAMPUS OF ONEONTA THOUGH MY NAIVET
TO BE OPEN TO NEW CULTURAL LEARNING AND TO
THE VERY WHITE
EXPLORE
ME
NEW WAYS OF KNOWING AND
HAD
THE EXPERIENCES
THAT CLASS
IN
TREMENDOUSLY
AM NOT
VALUE
SURE OF THE
COST OF THAT TO OTHERS
IN
ALL
THE CURRENT LIBERAL
TO SUPPORT
THE CANDIDATES
DESPITE
MOST FREQUENTLY
THE TRAP THAT
AND ABOUT WHICH
GET CAUGHT IN
WHAT
PRESENTATION
THIS
WAS
ABOUT BEING
BUT THAT THE AFRICAN AMERICAN
ALLOWED
UNABLE TO SHARE EITHER
LIBERAL
THAT SEVERAL
RECALL
ME
TO THINK
STUDENTS FELT ABOUT
TIOUSLY
AND OTHER WHITE
VIRTUALLY
CLASS
PROBABLY BECAUSE
IS
CONSIDERED
NEVER
AFRICAN
WAS THE TYRANNY OF THE MAJORITY
COLLUDED IN
RACIST
MADE ME HAVE
OF FAIRNESS BUT WHAT
VERY CONVENIENT
IS
RAGA
ABOUT BEING THE ONLY WHITE
AND THIS
SEE ERADICATED
MAJORITY
INDIAN
AND AFRICAN
NOT
BY THE MUSIC AND THE
SELFCONSCIOUS
THAT
BY THE MYTH
THE
AT
YOU BASICALLY JOINED THE DRUMMING AND
MAN FROM GHANA WAS
TROUPE THAT WAS LEAD BY
OTHER OCCASIONS WHERE
WAS SEDUCED
WAS
JAVANESE
TOOK COURSES IN
MUSIC
AND AFFIRM THE VERY STRUCTURE OF RACIST DOMINA
TION AND OPPRESSION THAT THEY PROFESS TO WISH TO
WAS REALLY PERPETUATING
AS
AND LATINO
TIME
DANCE
THAT INVOLVES COERCIVE CONTROL THEY
DOMINATION
MUSIC
CALLED
OBSERVERS
THOUGH THEY MAY NOT EMBRACE
EVEN
MUSIC INTO
STUDY OF WESTERN CLASSICAL
IT
READ
MINOR WHICH
MUSIC
ALSO
AND
FREIRE
WHEN
UNDERSTOOD
DRUMMING AND DANCE
AFRICAN DRUMMING AND DANCE WAS
WHEN
HOW THEY
TO UNDERSTAND
FAIL
IN
WAS
MINOR OF NONWESTERN
AND
EXPLOITATION
TIME
FIRST
TRANSFORMED FROM
OF
PERPETUATION
DISCRIMINATION
OF BLACK
OPPRESSION
THE
THEM THE
LIBERAL
WAS THROUGH THESE CLASS
IT
WAS EXPOSED TO THE WRITINGS OF PAOLO
FRANZ FANON
STATES
ONEONTA WAS AN
STUDENT AT
AN UNDERGRADUATE
ES THAT
HOOKS
BELL
RACISM AS TOURIST
LESSON
THAT
WAS BEING ANTI
THOUGHT
CHANGES
MADE
IT
UNDERSTOOD AN EXPERIENCE
THOUGHT
BACK ON TOKEN LIBETA
AND HARDER TO TURN
THOUGHT
MY HELP NOT ONLY DIDNT HELP
BUT
WAS HELPING
THAT OF LBERAL WACISRN
IS
THE 1980S
CANDID
DISCUSSION
IMPLICATIONS
WEST INDIAN
OF
CARIBBEAN
JOINED
WITH
DRUM BAND
STEEL
HAD LEARNED ENOUGH TO HAVE
BOSTON BY THAT TIME
IN
THE BANDLEADER
ABOUT
THE
RACIAL
NON
MY BEING THE ONLY WHITE PERSON AND
IN THE BAND
PLAYED
WITH THE BAND FOR FIVE
ME
WOMAN IN SOME PEOPLES EYES AND TO
MY OWNAS THE YEARS WENT ON NO LONGER
YEARS AND WAS AWKWARDLYAWARE OF THE STATUS THAT GAVE
COOL WHITE
AS
CERTAIN DEGREE
HAD THE TIME OR ENERGY TO COMMIT TO THE BAND AND
MAY
HAVE STAYED ON LONGER THAN
TO PROTECT THAT IMAGE
IN
SOME
MAKE THE DECISION TO LEAVE
NO LONGER
REGARDS WHEN
THINK
ORDER
FINALLY
DID
WAS CONSCIOUS OF THE FACT THAT
THE NEED TO BE
BAND MEMBER TO LEGIT
ME THIS
IMIZE
OF
FELT
SHOULD HAVE IN
MY
WAS AN IMPORTANT STEP IN THE DEVELOPMENT
OWN HEALTHY WHITE ANTIRACIST IDENTITY
THE LESSON HERE HAS TO DO WITH RACISM
STOPPING ALONG THE ROAD OF
LIFE
TO LEARN BITS
AS
TOURIST
AND PIECES OF
MY JOURNEY TOWARD WHITE
OTHER CULTURES BUT NOT UNDERSTANDING
THE OTHER
MANIFESTS
ITSELF
EXOTIC
AS
AS
TAKING CREDIT FOR OR INAPPROPRIATELY
PEOPLE
THE
AND
OFTEN
TOURIST
WHITE
THEFT WITH
CULTURAL
OF TRYING
IMPLI
INTRUSION
RACISM
THE FORM OF
IN
THE POLITICAL
CULTURAL
CATIONS OF MISAPPROPRIATION
SEEING
AWARENESS
RACIAL
OR
IDENTIFYING
AND CULTURES OF PEOPLE OF COLOR TO SUIT
THIS IS DONE FOR FINANCIAL
USING TRADITIONS
OWN PURPOSES SOMETIMES
THEIR
BY WHITE
GAIN AS IN THE CASE OF THE THEFT OF BLACK MUSIC
AT
MUSICIANS
AT
ATTEMPT
OTHER TIMES
INTO
REACTION
WAYS
AS
START
THE CASE OF WHITE
IN
AMERICAN
NATIVE
THE
AGAINST
THAT
SYSTEM
IT
YET
REPRESENTS
DEEP
OF
EMPTINESS
AND
VALUE
STERILE
ETHICAL
QUESTIONS
ABOUT THE LINE BETWEEN THE CELEBRATION OF OTHER CULTURES
AND THE EXPLOITATION
LESSON
STORY
ABOUT
CALLED
URBAN WHITE
THIS
DANCE CLUB THAT WAS ONCE IN
THE
OF THE 1960S
TOUGH
ESPECIALLY
ALTHOUGH
FOR
NOT DANCE
THOSE
FOR
AGAIN UNTIL
THE
THE EARLY
SEV
LOVED THE
WOMEN
HETEROSEXUAL
DANCE
OCCASIONALLY
IT
GAP FROM THE
FLASHY DISCO ERA OF THE MID
WITH
OTHER
WHITE GUYS DID
COUR
FEVER SO HERE
1960S
TWISTING
TO LATE
WAS
BECAUSE
THE HEIGHT OF THE DISCO SCENE
TESY OF JOHN TRAVOLTA IN SATURDAY NIGHT
WAS BRIDGING
SUB
WHO
OF US
DID NOT DANCE PERIOD
JUST
CLASS
AND GREWUP LOVING TO DANCE
WOMEN WOULD
WOMEN GUYS
MUCH IN
DID NOT DANCE
FOLKS
EXCEPTION
BEING
THE BLACK
CLIENTELE
OAK
WHITE
THE
THAT WAS
OF INTERNATIONAL
FAIR
OTHER
IN
OVER
THAT
WE
HAD HAD ENOUGH OF THIS CULTURALLY IMPOSED MORATORIUM
WE STARTED
ON DANCING AND WITHOUT MUCH DISCUSSION
GOING TO THE
FLEETWOOD
AWAY IMMEDIATELY
ON OCCASION TO DANCE
OUR FRIENDS
THE NIGHT
CAUTIOUSLY WHISPERED
WHY
YOU GOING THERE ARENT THERE
BLACK PEOPLE THERE DOES ANYONE WHO GOES THERE
ENGLISH TO THE ULTIMATE ARE YOU TRYING TO PICK UP
TIONS
MENTHE
ARE
RACISM IN THIS
IS
SELFEVIDENT
THE LESSON
QUES
LOT
OF
LIVED
IN
WANNABE
IT
PRICE TO PAY
HIGH
IS
LESSON
THIS
DORMITORY
WAS PRETTY UNUSUAL
THIS
FRESHMAN
ON CAMPUS
EVEN REMEMBER IT
THAT
FACT
AGAIN
IS
THOSE
IN
SIGNIFICANT
HAVE LITTLE RECOLLECTIONS ABOUT THE WHITE RAS IN
DORM
THE ONLY RACIAL COMMENTS RECALL BEING MADE
MY
ABOUT OUR DORM DIRECTOR ARE VAGUE AND INVOLVE SOMEONE
BECAUSE
SAYING THEY FELT HE THOUGHT
HE HAD TO BE TOUGHER
THAN THE OTHER DORM DIRECTORS
WERE
AWARE OF THE
ALSO
INVOLVEMENT
ROMANTIC
WHAT
MIGHT HAVE
IT
THIS
LESSON
ABOUT
IS
TO
KNOW STUDENTS
JUST
BEING
MINE
LIKE
WHITE
STUDENT
MADE
THAT THEIR
NEVER
EFFORTS
TO GET
UNCON
PEOPLE
WERE
EXPERIENCES
COLORBLIND FASHION
PARADOX
HYPERVISIBILITYHYPERINVISIBILITY
DRAMATICALLY PLAY OUT
AS
AWARE OF THE
KEENLY
OF COLOR AS INDIVIDUAL
IN
SEE THIS
UNDER THE
LIVING
NOR
SUPERFICIAL
MADE ASSUMPTIONS
SCIOUSLY
PEO
PARTICULAR
MOVE NOTICED COUPLED WITH
DESPITE
SAW BEYOND THE
THEIR
ABOUT
THE PARADOX OF THE
OF PEOPLE OF COLOR AS
PRESENCE
DORM IN
VISIBILITY
YOUR EVERY
HYPERINVISIBILITY
REALLY
OUR
OF PEOPLE OF COLOR
MICROSCOPE
ABOUT
NO CONVERSATIONS
TO BE ONE OF SO FEW BLACK
FELT LIKE
WE
BETWEEN THE BLACK
AND SPECULATED
RECALL
GENERAL AND IN
IN
ON US
HE WAS BLACK
BECAUSE
RELATIONSHIP
RA
MALE AND BLACK FEMALE
DIVERSITY
IN
MANY
WHERE
OF THE ORGANIZATIONS
CONSULTANT TODAY
WHEN THE
PEOPLE
OF COLOR IN THESE ORGANIZATIONS SUCCEED THEY ARE PERCEIVED
AS
INDIVIDUAL
EXCEPTIONS AND TREATED TO COMMENTS LIKE
DONT EVEN THINK OF YOU AS BLACK WHICH NOT ONLY INSULT
BUT WHICH
YET
IF
EXHIBIT
THEIR
PROBLEMS
THE
DERACE THEM AND RENDER THEM INVISIBLE
ALSO
THEY
FAMILIAR
PRETENSIONS
MY
SOPHOMORE YEARS MY DORM DIRECTOR DURING THAT
FOR BEING
TIME WAS
BLACK MAN WHO HAD
REPUTATION
HAD
BLACK
RATHER STRICT AND WE ALSO
TWO
RAS RESIDENT
COMMENTS
DRAW
HYPERINVISIBILITY
ON CAMPUS DURING
LAND
BLACK
HAS TO DO WITH THE WAY RACISM HAS DISTORTED
THIS
WHITE PEOPLE TO THE POINT THAT MANY CANNOT EVEN ENJOY
THE
DANCING MUSIC AND MOVEMENT WITHOUT RACIALIZING
EXPERIENCE
AND
HYPERVISIBILITY
SPEAK
FROM
EITHER BY ENGAGING IN
WAYS
AND
ASPECTS OF
CALL
WHITE PRIVILEGE
WORK
DECIDED
OF TRUE
LOSS
LESSON
WOMEN
RATHER SPONTANEOUSLY
BEING
AND THE WAY THAT WHITE
RACIST
THE LOSS OF THE JOY OF LIVING
TENDED TO ATTRACT
STUDENTS BOTH MALE AND FEMALE AND
NUMBER OF WHITE
FRIEND AND
STILL
IN
ONEONTA BAR SCENE WAS QUITE
SEGREGATED THE CROWD AT THE FLEETWOOD
LOT
THE
WHICH TENDED TO PULL
THE ARTS AND THEATER CROWD BUT EVEN
WHELMINGLY
WITH
THE
ON
HE WAS
TO PROJECT FEARED
PEOPLE
ONTO OTHERS IN
HYPERVISIBILITY
TOWN AND THE
IN
ONE PLACE YOU COULD DANCE TO SOMETHING
GRATEFUL DEAD THE FLEETWOOD WAS ALSO THE ONLY CLUB
MULTIRACIAL
THEMSELVES
TO THE
OTHER THAN THE
TOWN THAT HAD
CAUSES WHITE
RACISM
TAUGHT
THAT
SPEAKS VOLUMES ABOUT
THIS
PLE ON CAMPUS
1970S
THE FLEETWOOD WAS THE ONLY DISCO
FANTASIZED
AND DISTORTED WHITE IDENTITY
SELF
DAYS THE
DOWNTOWN
FLEETWOOD YOUNG MIDDLE
WAS TOUGH
MAN
BLACK
UNLESS HE
OR
YEARS AGO
COURSE
GRADUATE
ME THAT HE HAD GREAT DIFFICULTY
TO
OR DANCING
ADVISORS
ME OF
REMINDED
THEME OF LESSON
ONEONTA
MUSIC
THEM REMAIN
THE LOSS OF THE JOY OF LIVING
HE MUSICAL
ENTIES
OF
RACISM DISCLOSED
IN
SEVERAL
MANY
IN
IS
BY SEXUALIZING ANY
WHITE MALE STUDENT
FOR
SPIRITUALITY
AND
UGLINESS
SUPREMACY AND THE OPPRESSIVE
WHITE
AN HONEST
AS
KIND OF SEARCHING FOR THE OTHER
THIS
IRONICALLY
EVOLUTION
SPIRITUAL
EXPLORATIONS
MAY
IT
CONTACT
INTERRACIAL
SEXUAL
MEANS
LOOK OR ACT BLACK WHATEVER THAT
TO
GROUP
IN
IS
VISIBILITY
ON THE
RACIAL
REAL
ANY
OFFICE
GRAPEVINE
OTHER WORDS
YOURE PERCEIVED
BY THE
IF
PERFORMANCE
GROUP WITH
AS
TO
YOURE
ALL
MEDIA
IS
HOW
UNTIL
RACISM
MAJOR
SUCH AS THE RODNEY KING BEATING
THE
MEMBERS OF
PERSON
BUT
TO SUCCEED AS AN INDIVIDUAL
KEPT
IS
INCIDENT
OJ
MORE
THE
REFLECTING
STEREOTYPES GENERALIZED
GROUP ANOTHER EXAMPLE
INVISIBLE
OR PERCEIVED
HEIGHTENED
OF COLOR
FAIL
OCCURS
SIMPSON
CHAN
AS
LARGELY
TRIAL
CONSUFTING
BLOCKS
BUILDING
OR THE TEXACO TAPES
ALBEIT
REPEATEDLY
WHICH POINT THE
AT
DISTORTED
IN
ISSUE
DISCUSSED
IS
WAYS THAT REINFORCE
THE
HAVE SINCE COME TO REALIZE
WAS
THE IMPACT OF
EDUCATION
COLLEGE DAYS HAVE TO DO WITH
TOOK SEVERAL
ITS
HOW
FUNNY
FEW WEEKS
ES FOR
HAD SEVEN PEOPLE
WHAT
THE START OF
AT
VIEW THE
TO TAKE THESE COURS
MY FRESHMAN
YEAR
SUITE BECAUSE
OUR SIXPERSON
IN
THE
IN
MY JUNIOR AND
ALTERED THE WAY
EVEN DECIDED
LIVING
LEARNED
COURSES DURING
SENIOR YEARS THAT FUNDAMENTALLY
WORLD
GAINED FROM MY
WE
OF
ONE WOMAN NAMED KAREN WHO WAS
WOMEN LIVED WITH
MOVED OUT SHE WAS FREE SPIRIT INTO NATURE
EVENTUALLY
AND
NEW AGE
THINGS
WERENT CLOSE BUT
ERAL
EACH OTHER ON CAMPUS AND
MY
THE
TWO CLASSES
INCREDIBLE
FROM OUR
RACISM
COURSES THAT
OF
LIFE
MY
TALKS
ME
TUDES THAT
SHE HAD
FEW OTHERS TRANSFORMED THE PATH
ALL
HUMAN
YET AND
REALLY
TOLD
WAS
ME
STILL
REFER
LIKE
TIONING
IN
OF ATTI
US HISTORY
ALL
COMPUTERS WERENT ON THE SCENE
BRAINWASHED
MY ANGER
ONE OF THESE
COULD GET
PROPELLED
ABOUT SEXISM
THOUGHT
WOMENS
STRONG
BELIEVED
IT
ANY
10
HAD NEVER TAKEN
YET
BECAME INCREASINGLY
THOUGHT
IN
CLEAR
THOUGHT
TO ME THAT
CHANGEWORKSCONSUFTING
GOT IT
LOT
WAS
YET
WAS
WOMAN WHO
HAD
AND HOMOPHOBIA
WAS ENLIGHTENED
BOOKS
MY MIND
AND SELFCONFIDENT
EQUAL RIGHTS AND SO
IN
AS FOR HETEROSEXISM
CLUELESS
FEMINIST
WOMENS MEETINGS
INDEPENDENT
MALCOLM
JUST
IN
BUT
TO LEARN
WORD
COULD NOT
PROFES
HIM ON
APPROACHED
THERE
DIRECTION
THE
READ
FIRST
THINK
OF THIS
IS
STORY
WOMAN WHO
YOUNG WHITE
OF
TELLS
THAT
COLLEGE CAMPUS AND ASKED HIM
WHAT
SHE COULD DO TO HELP THE BLACK STRUGGLE MALCOLM TURNED
TO HER AND ABRUPTLY
LEAVING THE
COULD
IN
HIS
THAT WHITE
TELL
WHITE
BEWILDERED
HAPPENED LATER
DO SHE
SHE COULD
OTHER WHITE
NOTHING AND WALKED AWAY
WOMAN TO PONDER WHAT
SAID
MALCOLM SAID HE WISHED
LIFE
WOMAN
COULD TAKE
AND THEN WORK
LENGE RACISM
XS
STORY
WHEN
MALCOLMS
OPPORTUNITY
IN
LATER
DO IVE
ALWAYS
FELT
ON THE
REFLECTIONS
WOMAN
THERE WAS
THAT THE OMISSION
MATTER
WERE
OF
LOST
WHITE
WAKEUP
ANY EVENT MALCOLMS WORDS WERE
IT GUIDED
ME IN THE DIRECTION OF MY LIFES
ME AND
ALSO
VISION
HELPED
ME
DO
FOR
COLOR
OF
PEOPLE
WHAT
PRIVILEGE
RACISM
CALL THIS
TO REFRAME
WHAT CAN
QUESTIONS FROM THE PATERNALISTIC
PEOPLE
TO THOSE
CAN WHITES
HELPING
TO
THE LESSON
THAT EXPOSE
DO TO DISMANTLE
ME TO TAKE
OF TRANSFORMATIVE
OF LEAMING
MY OWN GROWTH
AND HELPED
IMPORTANCE
MY
WHITE
RESPON
WHITE PROBLEM
AS
RECEIVE THE GIFTS
THE LIMITS
OPEN
OF
PART OF THIS
FIRST
AND EDUCATE MORE ANTIRACIST
TO INSPIRE
WORK MALCOLMS
RACIAL
HE USED ONLY THE
LIFE
TO CHAL
PEOPLE
LEES MOVIE VER
SPIKE
MALCOLM TOLD THE WHITE
SHE COULD
NOTHING
WITH
ALLIANCE
IN
COLOR TO END WHITE SUPREMACY IN
SION OF MALCOLM
BY WORKING
RESPONSIBILITY
WHITE COMMUNITIES
IN
PEOPLE
HE
THAT THERE WAS SOMETHING
EDUCATION
OF BEING IN THE RIGHT
MY OWN LEARNING FOR
PLACE
ME PUSHING
OFFERED TO
ME
AT
ME BE
RECOGNIZE
THE RIGHT
THE LIMITS
IT
ME TO PUSH
WAS TRANSFORMATIVE EDUCATION THAT ENCOURAGED
STUDIES COURSE HAD NEVER READ FEMINIST
NOR ATTENDED
THAT
MY LIFE
PARTICULAR GAVE
FOR
WOMENS ISSUES AND HOMOPHOBIA AT
OF MYSELF AS
IN
SIBILITY
COULDNT QUITE GRASP WHY THEY WERE SO UPSET
THE TIME
BOOK
SUPREMACY THEREBY
PRO
TO
TO GROW
HALEY 1986 WHICH
FOR EVERYONE
ONE PART
WHITE
REMEMBER SEVERAL WHITE
CLASSES
OF MALCOLM
WHITE
ACTIVISM
ME
THAT THIS
TRUST
ONE OF THESE CLASSES
IN
SHOULD BE REQUIRED READING
AND CONFUSED BY RACIST CONDI
ME INTO
WAS
IT
AUTOBIOGRAPHY
BEGAN
HAD BEEN MISEDUCATED
CLASSES
THAT LED
HAVE CONTINUED
YEARS
MY HANDS
TO THOSE NOTEBOOKS TO THIS DAY
HIS
OF
SOR HAS DONE THE SAME
CALL FOR
TOOK NOTES LIKE
FROM
RECEIVED
OF ANALYSIS
JUST AS
FORMS OF OPPRESSION
AND LEARN IN THE INTERVENING
ACTIVISTS
THOSE CLASSES
THE
FOR
THE FOUNDATION
FOR
AND TO SEE THE CONNECTIONS BETWEEN
QUESTION OTHER ISMS
THAT
WOMEN WHO OFTEN ARGUED WITH THE AFRICAN AMERICAN
FESSOR
IN
THAT
NEW MODE
TO
AND THAT CAME
FOREVER GRATEFUL
ME
THAT
OPPRESSION
ME
EXPOSED
BEGAN TO
OPPRESSION
SPONGE IN
BECAME ENRAGED ABOUT HOW
TO MISLED
SET
ABOUT BEFORE
THE PROFESSORS HAD TO OFFER
TYPEWRITER
AND
AND BEGAN
HAS TOWARD ANOTHER
TO READ EVERYTHING ABOUT RACISM THAT
LIED
CAME TO
RACISM
LEARNED ABOUT PARTS OF
TO EVOLVE
SOAKING UP
ON
THAT
AM STILL
MAN
THIS
HE HAD YET TO
RACISM
OWN SEXISM AND HOMOPHOBIA
UNDERSTANDING
WITH
FRAMEWORK FOR UNDERSTANDING
CONTINUES
THESE
OF POWER TO IMPOSE THOSE BELIEFS
ROLE
WAYS
NO ONE HAD EVER
DEVELOP
TAKEN
HAD TO TAKE
ONE GROUP OF PEOPLE
FARREACHING
THE
NATIONAL AND
ABOUT
THAT RACISM WAS MORE THAN JUST
LEAMED ABOUT THE
HEARD
SHE WAS AWARE OF
THE CONCEPT OF INSTITUTIONAL
TO UNDERSTAND
RAN INTO
AND
OF RACISM
WAS THROUGH THESE CLASSES
IT
UNDERSTAND
TOLD
JUST
THESE COURSES AND
WEPERIODICALLY
PART
WAS THROUGH HER THAT
EXPERIENCE
AND SHE
GLOBAL POLITICS
IT
DYNAMICS
OF THE BLACK
INTEREST IN
KAREN AND
CONVERSATIONS
ED WAYS WHEN SHE MOVED OUT BUT
PSYCHOLOGY
WE
WAS INTRIGUED BY HER AND WE HAD SEV
LONG AND INTERESTING
ABOUT
AND CHANTED
AND SHE MEDITATED
MY
WITH
BATTLING
THAT ALTHOUGH
TO
KNOWLEDGE ABOUT RACISM HE GAVE
OVERCROWDING
NOTABLY DIFFERENT FROM THE REST OF THE
CAME
IT
THE CLASSROOM
ACROSS IN
OF THE MOST PROFOUND LEARNINGS
CLASSROOM
WHEN
BRILLIANT
EXPLORE HIS
TRANSFORMATIVE
OME
WOMEN WETE
THESE
BELOVED TEACHER
DOMINANT MYTHOLOGIES
LESSON
WHY
UNDERSTAND
TIME
INVOLVED
THE
FOR
TAK
ING THE COURSES READING THE BOOKS GOING TO THE LECTURES
MEETING
THAT
THE PEOPLE VISITING
PERCEIVE
THE PLACES DOING
TO BE ABOUT
ME
OUR LIVES ARE INTERDEPENDENT
CAME
AND
TO
FIND OUT
HOW WHAT
SOMEONE ELSES HISTORY WAS REALLY PART OF
AM REMINDED
CURRICULUM
AND THE
ALL
THE THINGS
WOULD OR COULD DO AND THAT
NEVER THOUGHT
OF
HOW IMPORTANT
DIDNT
HOW MUCH
THOUGHT WAS
MY OWN
THE CONTENT OF THE
NATURE OF THE STUDENTTEACHER
RELA
MY JOURNEY TOWARD WHITE
TION
CAME
WHEN
CAN BE TO ONES DEV4OPNXENT
THE BOSTON PUBLIC
WORKED IN
AMERICAN STUDENT
SCHOOLS AN AFRICAN
MY OFFICE
TO
AWARENESS
RACIAL
WITH HIS HISTORY CLASS WHICH
FRUSTRATED
HE FOUND EXTREMELY BORING AND WAS
GAVE HIM
FAILING
GREGORYS NO MORE LIES THE MYTHS AND
OF AMERICAN HISTORY TO READ TWO DAYS LATER HE
WAS BACK
ING
MY OFFICE
IN
THIS
CANT BE HISTORY
THEY TEACH US THIS
THE
NEW CONCEPTS AND
ME
EVEN WHILE
LEARNING BECAUSE
WOULD HAVE
ME
TO
CONTRADICTIONS
WE SEE
AS
OF OPPRESSION
OPEN TO
IT
IS
RIGHTEOUSNESS
TRULY
AND SELF
MY DEFENSIVENESS
AN ONGOING CHALLENGE
FOR
TIME
OF THOSE THINGS
THAT BEING
REALIZE
MY OWN LEARNING
THE RIGHT
WAS
CRITICAL
AND THE
CLEARLY
HEAD
HAD TAKEN THEM
IF
WORKING
RESISTED
ED TO LEARN
YEARS LATER
WHEN
THE LESSONS ON RACISM THAT
BELIEVE
IDEALLY
THAT THIS
INCLUDING
ANGELA
YEARS LATER
MASTERS DEGREES
GAINING
PARTY
WE
WHO WENT
WE
TALKED
HE
TOGETHER
THEN
WE WERE
THAT
PROCEEDED
TO SAY
CLASS
RACISM
IN
AT
DID AS
WASNT
THAT
THE
TO
WILLING
TO
ME
ME
WHILE
BUT
AS
MY
NOT
EXPECT
IDENTITY
THATS
AM
ALL
BETRAYING
NOT ALL
ALL
TO
TRY
AND WEAR
OR
RESTRICT
AM
AM
EITHER
AM
ITALIAN
CAN EXPAND
MY ROOTS OUR
THAN ESSENTIALLY
IDENTITIES
ITS
ARE
OUR IDENTITIES
TO HEAL AND GROW STRONG
WORK TO THRIVE AND SUCCEED MY
TO WORK APART AT TIMES
COALITION
TO FIND WAYS TO WORK TOGETHER TO CHAL
IS
RECLAIM
ALL
ASPECTS OF OUR
TRIP
HAD COME
CIRCLE
NEVER ENDS THE IMAGERY
WHEN
OF OPPRESSION
HOMECOMING OF SORTS
TO ONEONTA FELT LIKE
LIKE
HELPS
FULL CIRCLE
THOUGH
ME CONCEPTUALIZE
THINK
OWN FRAGMENTED
AND BEGIN TO HEAL OURSELVES AND
THE PLANET FROM THE NIGHTMARE
JUST
LEAST
ANY OF THEM
NOT LETTING
AND DESTROYED HUMANITY
VALLEYS
AND LOVE
FIND MYSELF BECOMING
MULTIFACETED
WE ARE MORE
LENGE INJUSTICE
MY
WHAT
JOURNEY
EMBRACE THAT CULTURE
WITHOUT
ESSENTIAL BUT
TO
WILLING
ME TO LESSEN MY DEFENSIVENESS
AND ALLOWS ME TO
WOMANBUT
AM
CONTINUE
MY OWN RACISM
WITH
BUT THATS
BOUNDARIES
THIS
FACES AND PLACES WHERE
IN
AMERICAN
IN
MORE OPEN
HELPS
ASPECTS OF
ALL
MY UNDERSTAND
IVE CLIMBED
OF
REALIZE
SERIES
NOW THAT
OF MOUNTAINS
THE JOURNEY THAT
HAVE CHOSEN TO GATHER
AND
AM ON
TO THE TOP AND GOT
LOOK OVER THE PEAK TO SEE ANOTHER RANGE OF MOUNTAINS
COULDNT HAVE ENVISIONED
THE
IT
THAT
FROM MY EARLIER VANTAGE POINTS
MY ENERGIES
AND KEEP ON MOVING
HOW COULD
FROM
ME
HE HAVE HAD SUCH
THIS
CLASS
HAD TRANS
FORCED ME TO LOOK DEEP WITHIN
MYSELF MY
MY IDENTITY AS WHITE PERSONIT WAS THE
OF MY LIF
TRY TO REMEMBER THIS NOW WHEN
ME
HISTORY
AND
BEST CLASS
AM TEACHING
SAFE
OPPOSITE
REALIZED
EXPERIENCE
FORMED
ROOM
MAN
WHITE
TO ONEONTA AT THE SAME TIME
WAS STUNNED
DIFFERENT
MET
AFRICAN
WILLING
YOU EVER TOOK THAT PROFESSOR WAS SO ANTI
WORST CLASS
WHIT
BOSTON
WORK AND
SOCIAL
WHILE THERE
STUDIES
AMERICAN
GRADUATE SCHOOL IN
IN
CLAIM
PERSONAL DESIRE
CAN AND
SCHOLARS AND
OF
BE ACCOUNTABLE WHAT
WHOMWILL
AM THE
WHEN CONFRONTED
BUT WE NEED
LOURDE HAVE SHOWN US THE WAY
ATTENDED
WHO
WE NEED
NEED
TIRED
THESE CHALLENGES TO
POSE
LEARN TO ACKNOWLEDGE VALUE
TO OTHER PEOPLE THIS
HOOKS AND AUDRE
BELL
DAVIS
THE MORE
FIND ALLIES
SO
DO WITH THE INSIGHTS
ANCHOR AND SUPPORT
MY
LEARNING
SHOULD BE DONE TOGETHER AND BLACK FEMINIST
ACTIVISTS
ALSO
AND
HOWMUCH AM
TAKE
ACTIONS WILL
WAS
AND HOMOPHOBIA
OF SEXISM
ISSUES
THROUGH
MIGHT HAVE
FIVE
MAY BE
ME
JOIN
ARE
LESS
ARE
DO TO FURTHER DEVELOP
HOWAND TO
TO GAIN
WHITE
MIGHT HAVE GONE OVER
INFORMATION
WHO
RESISTANCE
COLLECTIVE
WHAT WILL
ING OF RACISM
DEFINE
NOT HAVE BEEN READY TO HEAR SO
MIGHT
YEARS EARLIER
ME TO
FOR LESSONS TO BE TRULY MEANINGFUL THE LEARNING MUST
ELEMENT
WHY
LEARNING WAS SO POWEFFUL FOR ME AT THAT
OF
MOMENT
MY DEVELOPMENT IF HAD TAKEN THOSE COURSES
FIVE
LAUNCH ORGANIZED
PLACE AT
THAT
OF
THAT
GENERATION
WILL
PEOPLE
SUPREMACY WHO
DENIAL
IN
THEM PROUDLY
IN
WITH
WILL BE AT ITS
JUSTICE
OF KIDS
GENERATION
AND WHITE
ENGAGE
SOCIAL
THAT OTHER WHITE
MY HOPE
AND THAT THERE IS
RACISM
AND
ANTIRACISM
IS
PARTS OF
HAD MINIMAL UNDER
ME NOWTHAT
TO LET GO OF
COME TO
KNOW THAT
CORE
WILL
OF WHAT BOTH
DEPTH
LEARNING
THE RIGHT
TO
TO CHALLENGE
FAIL
WHAT FORM MY WORK WILL TAKE BUT
ME OR
LEAD
WILL
MY LIFE
HOW
AND AN ANTI
THAT NEVER
UNDERSTAND OPPRESSION
DEEPER MORE COMPLEX AND EVER
LEVELS
AM
NOT SURE WHERE THE NEXT PART OF
MORE PERSONAL
MYSELF WHAT WILL
AND DENIAL
ME
TO PROVIDE
AT
BE PUT INTO ACTION
LEARNING
FEMINIST
HAS CONTINUED
LIFE
NEVER
WE MUST BE VIGILANT TO RAISE THE
THEM AND NOT PRIVILEGE ONE FORM
AS
MY
DEGREE AT ONEONTA
MY UNDERGRADUATE
COMPLETING
1979
ABOUT
MY OWN
IN
IN
MY
TO
DID
LEARNING
MY OWN GROWTHMEANT
MY OWN DEFENSIVENESS
CLEAR
IS
STAND OF THE
IVE
DOWN
HAVE COLLUDED
OF MYSELF AT THE TIME
RACIST BUT
SHUT
OVER ANOTHER
TO PUSH THROUGH
THOUGHT
ASPECTS OF THAT LEARNING
AND HOMOPHOBIA
TO DO SO MIGHT
STILL
ACCEPTED
THAT WERE OFFERED TO
HAD
OF THE SEXISM
DENIAL ABOUT RACISM
MEANT
INFORMATION
DONE THE INTENSIVE
FACT
BEING
WAS ONE OF THOSE PRE
IT
REJECTED CERTAIN
WAS PROBLEMATIC
IN
TOO INTERESTINGL
CLASS
STUFF IN
WHY DONT
THE GIFTS OF LEARNING MEANT THAT
RECEIVING
RACISM
ITS
MOMENTS
CIOUS TEACHABLE
THAT
EXCLAIM
BURSTING WITH EXCITEMENT
CINCE
WEALTH OF EXPERIENCES
COPY OF DICK
REALIRIES
LOOKING FORWARD
AND KEEP
OR EXCITING
AFFECT
MIND THAT WHAT MAKES
IN
FOR
ONE STUDENT
MAY
CLASS
HAVE JUST
THE
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ON CAMPUS ON MARCH 22 1996
INCIDENT AS IT BECAME KNOWN REFERS TO AN INCIDENT
SEPTEMBER 1992 IN WHICH AN ELDERLY WHITE WOMAN WAS
BLACK MALE
ATTACKED IN ONEONTA BY AN ASSAILANT
SHE DESCRIBED AS
OF
IN RESPONSE TO
REQUEST FROM THE POLICE THE STATE UNIVERSITY
NEWYORK AT ONEONTA GAVE THE POLICE LIST OF THE 125 BLACK AND
BLACKLIST
IN
MALE STUDENTS REGISTERED AT THE COLLEGE THE OTHER COLLEGE
IN TOWN HARTWICK COLLEGE AND THE LOCAL JOB CORPS REFUSED TO
COMPLY WITH THE REQUEST THE STATE LOCAL AND CAMPUS POLICE USED
LATINO
THE
LIST
INNOCENT
DOWN HARASS AND QUESTION
THE YOUNG MEN IN THEIR
AND JOBS VIOLATING THEIR RIGHT TO BE PRESUMED
PROVEN GUILTY AND VIOLATING THE FAMILY EDUCATIONAL
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AND YOU WILL SAY WITH ME THAT FOR REVOLTING BARBARITY AND SHAME
LESS HYPOCRISY
AMERICAN REIGNS WITHOUT RIVAL
THIS
REFERS
AND PRIVACY ACT OF 1974 THE BUCKLEY AMENDMENT AND
THEIR CIVIL RIGHTS THE RESPONSE FROM STUDENTS AND ALUMNI WAS SWIFT
AND INTENSE IN CONDEMNING THE ACTIONS OF THE COLLEGE YET THE
WHOAUTHORIZED
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WAS SUSPEND
ED FOR ONLY ONE MONTH WITHOUT PAY AND WAS DEMOTED HE WAS
REINSTATED TO HIS PRIOR POSITION IN DECEMBER 1995
AND STUDENTS
TO
LIST
OF HIS REINSTATEMENT JUST PRIOR TO MY VISIT TO THE CAMPUS
MARCH 1996
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VS WHITES THROUGH THE LOOKING GLASS DERRICK JACKSON IN THE
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1995
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IN
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CIVIL
RIGHTS
ON NOVEMBER
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INITIATIVE
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IS
GOOD
PAPER
AND GENDER
ABOUT RACISM
BUT ANYWHERE
LINE
BASED ON
THE
IN
KEYNOTE TALK
ACADEMY
AND STATE UNIVERSITY
INSTITUTE
SEPTEMBER 27 1996 IN
IM NOT RACIST
AS
AT
ROANOKE
VA
THE FOUR STAGES
PAPER SHE IDENTITIES
DONT WANT TO BE WHITE
INFORMED CONSCIOUSNESS
STEADY POSITION AND
GRAPPLING TOR
FOR FURTHER DISCUSSION OF WHITE IDENTITY DEVELOPMENT MODELS
HELMS ED BLACK AND WHITE RACIAL IDENTITY THEORY
SEE JANET
THIS
AND PRACTICE GREENWOOD WESTPORT CT 1990 RITA
WHITE IDENTITY
DEVELOPMENT PROCESS MODEL FOR
DESCRIBING THE RACIAL CONSCIOUSNESS OFWHITE AMERICANS
RESEARCH
HARDIMAN
ABSTRACTS INTERNATIONAL
DISSERTATION
NO 8210330
MICROFILMS
432 104A
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1982
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WHITE PRIVILEGE SEE PEGGY MCINTOSH
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STUDIES WORKING PAPER NO 189 WELLESLEY COLLEGE CENTER FOR
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