À la Claire fontaine
Transcription
À la Claire fontaine
ottawater edited by: rob mclennan | January 2014 design by: tanya sprowl-martelock 10 conTENts coNtents SYLVIA ADAMS FRANCES BOYLE ANITA DOLMAN ANNE LE DRESSAY ROLAND PREVOST WILL VALLIÈRES addiction and recovery................................... 3 All I think of now............................................ 12 Dylan at the gallery........................................ 22 Dispersed........................................................ 33 Time’s Gag....................................................... 45 January, 1992.................................................. 59 attempts at martyrdom................................... 4 Cave................................................................. 12 Ode on the important work of Defragmenting................................................ 33 Bonus Levels................................................... 46 A Civic Poem................................................... 59 for those who live in unrequited times.......... 5 Apple............................................................... 13 Saving.............................................................. 6 Fairfield dreams.............................................. 13 finance ministers.......................................... 22 Glass house..................................................... 34 September, 2000............................................. 59 Brief Commentaries........................................ 34 ADRIENNE HO ROSE Gust................................................................. 14 JM FRANCHETEAU First Meeting................................................... 35 Archaeology Scar............................................ 47 GABRIEL WAINIO-THÉBERGE CAMERON ANSTEE How to make parents crazy............................ 14 Hiding Under Kindling..................................... 23 Moments of Weather...................................... 36 Wolfhill............................................................ 47 FOLLIES OF THE EXPLORER 1: March.............................................................. 7 Statement of Poetics...................................... 14 Daylight Savings............................................. 7 Aigosthena is for Lovers................................. 48 RICHARD FROUDE MICHAEL LITHGOW Scale............................................................... 7 HEATHER BRUNET They Do Not Come Back................................. 24 Rabbit sheds................................................... 37 Perspective...................................................... 7 Sleeping with the Window Open................... 15 Meetings......................................................... 25 Lifting fish ...................................................... 37 Parabola.......................................................... 8 The Answers................................................... 26 Cumulative...................................................... 8 SARA CASSIDY Morning........................................................... 8 The good razor................................................ 16 ELISABETH HARVOR Field................................................................. 8 Surgery on a Spring Morning......................... 16 LITTLE TOUCHES............................................. 27 JOHN BARTON Undercover...................................................... 17 A NEAR ANTIPODES....................................... 9 DROWNING SAILOR....................................... 9 MATTHEW WALSH ARMAND GARNET RUFFO SARAH HATTON Tension............................................................ 28 A Joni Mitchell in Pieces ............................... 62 from The Thunderbird Poems.......................... 50 SNEHA MADHAVAN-REESE Silverfish......................................................... 17 SILVER CASCADE, NEW HAMPSHIRE......... 61 Night of Your Visit to the Oracle..................... 48 DEANNA YOUNG TIM MOOK SANG Rêve peuplé d’animaux ................................. 63 a portrait......................................................... 53 Le grand ménage............................................ 63 KAREN MASSEY hunt club, or a case of suburban sprawl........ 53 Helen .............................................................. 64 12 Erasure Poems Carved from Email the sinking of the BX...................................... 53 Crossing the Field............................................ 64 Berea............................................................... 38 Sent by the Ottawa Public Library............... 39 GEORGE ELLIOTT CLARKE Dislocation....................................................... 64 JESSLYN DELIA SMITH Still.................................................................. 65 Witness of Madame Thérèse de Couagne..... 18 JENNA JARVIS JUSTIN MILLION with hands....................................................... 54 When the Maple Fell ..................................... 65 STEPHANIE BOLSTER À Marie-Josèphe Angélique........................... 19 junk food: for me, after the boy Everybody Into The Pool, With Grace............. 42 cement............................................................ 54 There............................................................... 66 À LA CLAIRE FONTAINE.................................. 10 Jean-Jacques Dessalines Vs. PAINTPOTS...................................................... 10 Jean-Jacques Rousseau............................... 20 SENSITIVE PLANT........................................... 11 i liked in high school.................................... 29 lansdowne park after dark.............................. 29 Exchanges with a Weasel............................... 29 STEWART COLE The End of Fashion......................................... 21 Light, Light...................................................... 42 COLIN MORTON Country Music ................................................ 66 D.S. STYMEIST If a Door Opened............................................. 67 The Sanitarium Garden................................... 55 ottawater 10: Artist statement........................ 67 Ceremony........................................................ 43 N.W. LEA PRISCILA UPPAL Ten Lines......................................................... 31 ANDREW OLIVEIRA Survivor........................................................... 56 Cover Art by PATTI NORMAND Ten More Lines............................................... 31 Luncheon......................................................... 44 Cosmic Idol...................................................... 56 www.pattinormand.com Temptation Island............................................ 57 Live At the Anchor Bar.................................... 57 The Amazing Race........................................... 58 coNtents Sylvia Adams addiction and recovery Iif III below, in the valley, is anything new? if she, how she, why. I would never put a foot in my mouth again even if poor growth saw it coming. you burst every train of hot blood and you goaled it immensely. remarkable, every time. name your poison the guide says sake mimicking cough syrup throats opening, thirsty umbrellas or, the other way around, a pencil without an eraser just embarrassment. evil defines me she said heroically distanced from everything white in the freezing rain. II bundles of strife sugar sniping mainly salted me. before I angled, the world was intensely abounding as it was. abounding. holy mother of brotherly love those years spent underground so many of us, too many huddling, euthanizing travel-caked the river pretending aimlessness when all the time it knows exactly where it’s going. m / economy you parked the car the bluff holding its own and we so breathless shrink-sealed so many selves – which one is drowning this time? take my hand, Rilke knew angels better than anyone ottawater: 10 - 3 coNtents attempts at martyrdom “all the cameras have gone/ on to other wars.” Wislawa Szymborska the upscale jibber-jabber of synchronicity when no one is listening the listing of tall masts when the ocean is calm the wild goat frenzy when morning is an illusion the soft war of bedsheets when you haven’t yet learned to sleep the night alley legs your stockings escape the dead dog putrescence you jam your head against the platinum morning you fall on your knees for the Saturdays of buttered corn and rolled cuffs and a backlog of children the scrapped poem no one could get inside the ill-timed hyperbole the deep-trenched hallelujahs the empty crib the smiling cat an old wrinkled t-shirt letters too faded to read Tomorrow Man Watercolour/Sculpture - 2013 Mat Dubé ottawater: 10 - 4 coNtents for those who live in unrequited times “I’ve lived among the ruins. Armies have marched over me.” Rita Hayworth in Fire Down Below [i] The ship’s gears wailing. The air testosterone-smogged. Tension thick as blood, slick underfoot. How could you resist? You are the heroine. They will build a shrine to you, capture you on celluloid, make you immortal. What comes full circle: what are we missing? Let the words in. Set fire to the music. The strings are mightier than the pen, you don’t need a note or a quote, only a pillow to lay your head on at night. Your eyes are closing. You cannot stay vigilant, cannot unfold your immortality. At first it was all gold and shining, like an empire of apples. God is in the waiting. Water has eyes too. ottawater: 10 - [ii] This is how I would describe it to you. A man is walking along a lampless street late at night. He knows eyes are everywhere. It has been raining and the eyes have come out like freshly rinsed stars. But they are not just overhead: they are in the hedges, the cracks in the pavement, in tail-swishes disappearing under porches and through yawning windows. He longs for a pillow and his double-thick mattress but he knows when he reaches home it will still be too wet to drag them outside. He wants to be outside. All the eyes are watching him, they hover and follow, drift and circle like fireflies. He walks for miles, until he hears flying foxes raising the shutters of dawn. He walks until he finds a bench. Although it is wet, he sits down. He wants to be a hero but he is not ready. He sits and waits. Let me make it plainer. Backpedal to early evening. He is watching a movie. Rita Hayworth is sashaying across the screen. Jack Lemmon walks down a dark street, following her like a puppy. He must keep his shirt on. The director will not allow him to be masculine. He takes his shirt off. This movie will not make him a star. But he keeps following Rita Hayworth. He wants to rescue her. But she does not want to be rescued. [iii] Or let me put it this way: you sum up your life but nowhere can you find grace in denial, rainwashed intentions, a picture of you smiling, crumbs of oblation, an apple without a bruise. 5 coNtents Saving My mother bought ahead. The depression did that to people. Bath towels and pillow cases, embroidered table linens. After she died we found drawers of the stuff and cabinets crammed with china that nobody wants – bless the microwave, dishwasher, children who wallow in broccoli fights, drop tidbits for the dog – silver that tarnishes, plastic flowers that leer at the monogrammed tableware and the beleek vase erect as a millionaire’s butler; one-size-fits-all Christmas gifts: oven gloves sporting snowmen bed socks that echo summer place mats, coffee mugs, scented soaps. Wrapping paper next drawer down. Every eventuality seen to: keys pinned inside her bra, large dated labels on jars. And how many people knew about the emergency dollars tucked in a tiny silk bag under the four-legged bathtub? Only my brother and me and perhaps Hattie the eldercare worker who came twice a week and didn’t miss a thing, wore an apron with bottomless pockets. I dropped in unannounced one day while Hattie was plucking bills and counting them out from my mother’s purse while silent, solemn, my mother watched. Your Mum’s out of nighties, she said, I’ll go buy her some. I bought some last week, I said, easing the purse from her hands, knowing, without even looking, the silk bag under the tub was gone. Ariane Beauchamp www.arianebeauchamp.com ottawater: 10 - 6 coNtents Cameron Anstee March Scale between winter and spring and winter the smallest seasons I forget my age on occasion confront the mathematics of my body premature growth is smothered hearts break across the city the days matter, or they don’t they are ours in our places our cold facts change states translation approaches split the smallest part between possibilities we install, expand collect each other Daylight Savings it appears abrupt but is not the widening discrepancies between the numerous clocks in our home a dissonant stagger Perspective we frame a single childhood photo consider each possibly the distance bends ottawater: 10 - 7 coNtents Parabola Morning now on the wrong side the absence of night is absent the body is coming apart each day a work of salvage Cumulative Field the darkness above the bed smells of steam from the shower we move one room into another room and the second into the first our voices empty into the night our bodies remember adjust the relations of our familiar objects we are our context ottawater: 10 - 8 coNtents John Barton DROWNING Sailor after a painting by Jack Nichols Canadian war artist, 1946 A NEAR ANTIPODES Half a world away, your voice no longer fits the quiet of my rooms, solitude not dislodged despite your call. Tropic words damp my ear though it feels cool and early where you are. Down the road, footprints silt in, seldom cross. Half an hour away, and already there’s no trace. I rub unambiguous salt stains from my boots the river I walked along collapsing into floes of ice. The quiet of my rooms: solitude not dislodged with dusk tugging on grey threadbare gloves. Though it feels cool and early where you are half a city away, a nearer friend drives closer Half an hour away, and already there’s no trace the wind a dial tone snagged among leafless oaks the river I walked along collapsing into floes of ice ahead of me, shattering the mirror winter held up. with dusk tugging on grey threadbare gloves. Nightly she takes in your mail, turns on a light. Half a city away, a nearer friend drives closer without anxiety, the black ice scarved in snow. The wind a dial tone snagged among leafless oaks. Half the time we talk, and the language tumbles ahead of me, shattering the mirror winter held up while you shave an invisible angle of your jaw. Nightly she takes in your mail, turns on a light. Half a block away, your son stays at a cousin’s without anxiety, the black ice scarved in snow while we talk. You slip into white linen shorts. Half the time we talk, and the language tumbles despite your call. Tropic words damp my ear while you shave an invisible angle of your jaw. Half a world away, your voice no longer fits. Half a block away, your son stays at a cousin’s. Down the road, footprints silt in, seldom cross. While we talk you slip into white linen shorts. I rub unambiguous salt stains from my boots. ottawater: 10 - Man in the water, head twisting through waves anxious to Hold him under, lungs Raw, eyes crazed Shot out by midnight’s assault of rain. Juggernauting about For air stirs the vortex Drags him down, arms wrench Bands of undercurrent the gangrenous ocean welds about him Legs wind up, tire, a cross Country cyclist ascending one more Steep and endless hill. No longer the apex of glory he’d cap Sized for, torpedoed far Off coast, a decoy tossed About while, unquiet, the Weyburn settles deep—tool belt Undone, drifting, boots heavy Weightless as horseshoes thrown Stalks of his father’s cresting wheat ripe for lying back in moonlit As, above, clouds break Open to floods of Scattering, icy Stars 9 coNtents Stephanie Bolster À LA CLAIRE FONTAINE PAINTPOTS Some days are long. This is a medium one. The slope of a hill on which something about iron. Where we went when it was cold. Where they (the they who were here for millennia before the we we call us and are still here though not right here) went for dyes. The girl eats her tortellini from a thermos. There is not enough. She eats the oats and honey bar, the other oats and honey bar. She eats the diced peaches in their plastic tub. They’re better than the fuzzy ones from August before school was real. * Later, it’s darker. What she’s lived today, she’ll never say. Il y a longtemps que je t’aime Jamais je ne t’oublierai. She sings astride the stroller’s bumper while the baby whines from school to home. A memory of summer water rises, a picnic that promised to be the first of many. The earth the colour of rust. The holes each a different colour, some the paste blue of blind eyes, some vivid, some just sky. We stood with cameras and words in our heads. The earth took our feet briefly. Deep prints, guck on our boots. The slope red, tilted from the build-up. It was a sacred place. Is. Some of the holes already gone dead. Where we went when I was apart from those I loved. I was happy. It was a grey day and we talked of other places, all of us there without the ones we loved. Reaching back, the mind falters. There are not many pictures. The mind keeps reaching. ottawater: 10 - 10 coNtents SENSITIVE PLANT Stroked, each feather of leaflets shuts, slumps, a frown between brows. Cry baby. Shy princess. August will bring flowers of powder. Touched, they will hold up. Humble plant. Shameful plant. By August, brittled to dust. Too little water, too many glassed-in afternoons. Sleeping grass. False death. During the heatwave families went beachward and hundreds of elders expired (Touch-me-not) in their walk-up apartments. ARPi ottawater: 10 - 11 coNtents Frances Boyle All I think of now The road a tunnel of snow in streetlight shadow. Like clockwork toys, boys lift shovels and throw City slows to a hush smothered by snowfall pillow. Cold dusting like ash, under foot a squeak. It’s all I think of now Cold steals my breath and time Months ahead of extra struggle, Winter. Cave The cave reflected, cold and dark and home (Matthea Harvey, “The Invention of Love”) Mirrored in green-gold cat’s eye gives back cave lights dim luminescence gritty ice gleams with green-grey drips plink plash echo stalactites drip stalagmites grow phosphorous on slick rock fun house distortion – her masked brother the boogeyman running after her friends til they scream fall against each other breathless in fright fascinating in flight motionsensitive cats eye watcher ottawater: 10 - 12 coNtents Apple Fairfield dreams My mother and I amble through an underground shopping maze. My new city, old patterns loosened – new place of ease. Set into the side of a grassy hummock, door creaks open to splintery wooden stairs, middles worn to troughs, walls dark concrete. Or earth, a dugout, ceilings low. Must. And dust furs every surface; centipedes and sticky spider webs. One dim lightbulb on a dangling cord, chain of rusted silver bubble beads, sets shadows to swinging. I let go of my tight hot caution and respond true to her remark: how she’d love it if I, like the young woman passing, ate an apple as I walked. Did she see daring in that simple act? insouciance, an Eve? Too easily, I laugh, unguarded say that’s so funny. She turns away, rebricks the walls, will not speak. Waits for the dutiful daughter to return and coax the mother from her cell. Every Fairfield is a newtown full of cellar doors blocked by boxes, never opened. Memories of aspirated aspirations, resettlers bearing dreams and freight. Growth to greatness not part of this particular dream – they’ll build a humble yet fiercely American / British / Australian place; place of new zeal. Ours is on a Pacific bay; it’s bella, it’s cool. Place of winking fish scales, shining in cellar darkness as they dry, rack after rack of silver sides glint in the swinging light of the bulb. Door opens to ocean, green valleys, the promise of bounty. Cellar door opens to fields of fairness, rivers of justice, yes, a long drink of justice. ottawater: 10 - 13 coNtents Gust ottawater: 10 - Statement of Poetics Perfumes fly before the gust. (Gwendolyn Brooks) Dry this wind, parched in spirit parched in appetite, blowing in rusty gusts across the sand. Reckoning, rolling new scents, a recollection. Echoes of the sweeter land – soil water – heavy air flower-laden. Pause to sink and savour an oily richness: ambergris below the surface. I have been writing most of my life, and am still fumbling towards a greater knowledge and awareness of what poetry means, at large and for me. I don’t imagine that I am unique in that I am always working towards a sense of my poetics. I feel that my writing tends to be intuitive (which I don’t think is necessarily a bad thing) but that it may miss an ability to consciously make the most of poetic technique. I write in a variety of styles, themes and subject matter, both lyric and narrative work that hopefully demonstrates my range and reach. I’ve rarely started out with a concept or collection in mind, however I try to bring poems together so that they seem to rise out of one another, with intriguing knots and weaves, engaging in conversations throughout. My content is largely emotional, with a lacing of spirit. Some poems or sequences of poem wind themselves itself into dark corners, while others feel around for a light switch on the wall or to glimpse a glow somewhere far ahead. Metaphor demonstrate hopes, fears and losses, and I try to use vulnerability to add tension to the metaphors. While I don’t aim to write “about” loss and absence, the themes that re-occur are this vulnerability and the ways in which lacks might be filled by divining their natures. I look to the the powers inherent in finding true names for that which is unnamed, while acknowledging the implacable tenacity of the unnamable. I’m also interested in exploring two inter-related notions. One is “green space” in the sense of nature, particularly urban ecology, the interplay between humans and the wild spaces that remain in and around our cities. The other is the idea and artificiality of bluescreen movie technology. The concept is to explore interior and exterior reality and unreality, the mechanisms that underlie our understandings of the world, and how human actions and observations both affect and are reflected in nature. How to make parents crazy Deny entry to your room, and let dirty dishes pile up. Refuse to notice the noxious fumes they claim emanate from behind the door. Complain that your job at the ice cream parlour sucks, that you couldn’t sink lower if you tried. Make no effort to find another. Declaim that anyone who doesn’t share your current passion – say, the taste of kumquat, or the novels of Chuck Palahniuk – is an imbecile, a freak of nature. Do not let them drag you into the quagmire of reason. Spin the dial through every gradation of your mood from effervescent to vile. Repeat as needed. Improvise freely. Not surprisingly, given my parallel track as a fiction writer, I am inclined to the narrative, generally with some personal content. I also love lyric and am intrigued by ecstatic/mystical poetry. I recently joked that, when I experiment, I do so with safety goggles and fire-retardant overalls – I tend to use traditional or invented constraints to keep my experiments from blowing up in my face. Subject matter is often informed by my roles as mother, daughter, partner; by a sense of seeking; and by place. The prairies where I grew up, and the west coast where I lived more than a decade both loom large. I most often write in free verse, but enjoy working with form for its challenges and for the surprising liberation from convention it can bring. I like rhythm and am learning to be less wary of rhyme. Precision of language, finding the most evocative words to bring an image to life is very important to me. I am an inveterate reader, and often springboard off other writers’ ideas to land in surprising (to me) places Precision of language, finding the most evocative words to bring an image to life is very important to me. What I hope to do is to continue to develop my knowledge and discipline as a writer. My goal is to get a clearer sense of whether what I’m exploring is viable and cohesive, which poems speak to each other and to the concepts I’m exploring. Whatever the next level turns out to be for me, I’m working towards a greater sense of my voice and my craft. What I aspire to, and what I find in the work of the diverse group of poets whose work I have returned to over the years (including Gerard Manley Hopkins, Sylvia Plath, Gwendolyn MacEwen, Rumi, Mary Oliver, Don McKay, Michael Ondaatje, Steven Heighton, Roo Borson, Stephanie Bolster, Fanny Howe, Kay Ryan …) is how they create transcendence and universality of a moment, a feeling or an image, evoking a sensation that is simultaneously totally comprehensible and familiar, but shown in an entirely new light that makes it, perhaps for the first time, clear. They all attain in different ways that precision I strive for of “the right words in the right order”. 14 coNtents Heather Brunet Sleeping with the Window Open white sheet over a pasture of back over a slow roll of breath a fan pivots books are silent on their shelves the window is slid open on its track and the cat is on the neighbours fence the tails of the willow tree sway and bait its paws Patti Normand www.pattinormand.com ottawater: 10 - 15 coNtents Sara Cassidy The good razor Surgery on a Spring Morning This I share with the men and women of the street: I have shaved with cheap blades. Raked my hand afterward across the spurred landscape, my nerve endings bristling. Yes, women shave. Poets shave, too. A scrap of soap measured my days then, and I was grateful for its endurance: it grew smaller than a slice, a sliver, graze, but it still lathered. As poets might. So poor I could not afford to panic when the Ivory paring slipped down the drain -bravely, I wiggled my fingers in that dark domain. The murk begged not to be forgotten. Now I am back in the land of the good razor. No more numb coins. Crisp bills! I buy the men’s since they are sharpest. Because women don’t really need to shave, the way they do not need to be paid for the work they do. Exquisite civility of the slim sliver band. Skin so smooth you feel nothing. I was once good. Can people tell? Not the goodness, the loss. I clawed and gripped but like a shadow it slipped away. (There had been a man who needed always to be bigger.) I’ve rebuilt bits of my old goodness, clumps of ink on Thank You notes, a grey wave to a dull neighbour who sometimes allows his mouth to tremble, a sickening liberality with endearments: Yes, Honey, we’ll see you later, Sweetheart. Today, though, I remove my skin. I count my bloody ribs, then crawl into their cage, displace the imposter. It is a beautiful day, blue and yellow, windows of air everywhere. My head births through my old throat like a tulip, root ball in my chest. Surgery on a spring morning, I’m old enough to be reborn, dispose of the brittle and torn. Sweep up the spider carcasses, exercise the muscle of belief for the first time. ottawater: 10 - 16 coNtents Undercover 1 Silverfish This evening, I don’t smush the silverfish, sardine of the insect world, shimmering on the bathroom floor, as I usually do. Because this evening, she – she? – is followed by a silverfish a quarter her size. Yes, she is showing her offspring the lay of the land: the arctic-white, rubbery strip along the base of the tub, the expanse of the worn gray floor, the sheer cliff of the fingerprinted wall. There is no clear direction to their journey, other than to follow, and be followed - leader, expert, worthy. I am taking my time on the toilet. For years this wasn’t possible, there would be pounding at the door, voices calling what do we do now? As much as I don’t want the little one to be bereft and never find her way back to the slimy den between the gray floorboards (so much depends on that!), I don’t want the older silverfish to lose its moment in the sun, this chance to demonstrate how one dithers. I’m a parent, too: those moments become fewer. I was thirteen when I learned that some families, in place of books, fill their bookshelves with photo albums, their children inside. I was struck by this craving of the past so immediately. Was this bindered embrace better in fact than my parents’ absolute discharge – take your sister’s bike - into the neighbourhood, into, I’ll say it, life, which ultimately closes too, right? 2 Tonight, at supper, my stepson announced he wants a tattoo. And I know, I know, it is the stamp of his tribe, those beautiful, beautiful youth - how do they possibly choose one over another? I don’t mean to diatribe but I suppose I do. I have seen lovely tattoos, and will get one on my deathbed (that back cover). I have also seen the simpering posters I once taped to my apartment walls, and the kitsch – pompom lampshade, plastic crucifix - that I once collected, my deep cultural critique. Your body is your only canvas. But I’m old and, in fact, prematurely lined. From wandering too long in the sun and into the arms of a mean man, who would not let go. On top of all this, surely this is the decisive stroke - you will be forever traceable by law; what if one day you need to go undercover? The wine hit then, my cheeks pricked with heat as, underground, my losses loosened: when I was your age we moved lightly, city to city, forming temporary, but often true, friendships. No Facebook or Twitter or Instagram, no GPS we easily shed our skins. Owen nods while I yaw, indulgently, or, I don’t know what he is thinking, his quiet is indecipherable. Perhaps he is thinking something wiser than I can. Perhaps he is thinking that we are never understood no matter how marked. Or the opposite – that we are understood by how we are marked. No, he has no position. He has no interest beyond the spot burning on the inside of his wrist, another at the front of his ankle. 3 Over dessert, Owen says a line of poetry would be nice. ottawater: 10 - 17 coNtents George Elliott Clarke Witness of Madame Thérèse de Couagne I. III. V. I smell François Poulin de Francheville slinking toward she, the septic salope, her sepia stink…. Is my husband a sculptor, happy to work either marble or coal? I cry too much: I feel marinated in marble. How do I chide an old bull? I’m drunk with mucus: My eye-sockets piss. My mate’s rapacious, yes, but it’s sagacious policy that Angélique be brought to bed and bred. Should I show snippets of naked skin? But why must he spelunk her dusty guts, her predatory trap, what grips and grinds a white man down to nil? My bed’s a bog grave. Why can’t I have the honeyed sex of a bride? Sleep is a corpse occasion. Instead, I scent the stale shame of a steadily thawing turd— dingying my sheets. IV. II. Monsieur’s pal, Jacques César, can be excused as an unwitting brute: He’ll be stabbed dead in a cathouse. Sure. Angélique squeals, screeches, my man pounds her lewdly! I’m luxuriantly shamed. But why can’t César alone do all the fucking, rub his charcoal upon Angelique’s filthy breasts, pour his midnight oil into her graveyard colour? But she sprawls, almost insolent, in her supine sluttery, her scorpion-sting nipples hard, so my husband bends to her, his gallows erection, in dawn’s left-over shadows, instead of ripping from my pale warmth, a wifely, gewgaw gown, to let it crumple, dark, on the floor. My husband was a satin machine— if I remember. VI. I pray that Egypt’s shuddering chimp, bought off a Boston dock, then brought here and sold to us, will realize a reeking infamy, to sit in her own urine, shivering in our clean snow, and smelling like the slut she is. VII. Her you-know-what gleans hair from his beard. I can’t cope with Misery— this fiery disgrace. Nouvelle-France is a grand sewer. Angélique’s whole body is a dump. I could demolish all this wooden virtue— all my pining— with a penny’s worth of fire. [Digby (Nova Scotia) & Pointe-de-l’Église (Nouvelle-Écosse) 26 février mmxiii] ottawater: 10 - 18 coNtents À Marie-Josèphe Angélique A livid, smoky biography, mirror-mysterious— plus the perfume of a smouldering “Confession”: All we know. We can’t even trace your sex— others like you— female, but masculine in violence— “The Statue of Liberty” or Juno-as-arsonist: A martyr nevermore a woman. In your sacred name, sailors mutiny against ships’ overlords and vassals guillotine all lordships. And there’s nothing wrong with fire! A little light pushes back the darkness. Spurting flame brings unhampered delight— smoky conquest, waves of shadows receding: Genesis beginning in Gehenna. Allegedly, you brought to Montreal frigidity suddenly torrid, much white distress, screams melting snow. White potentates, bounty hunters white, white nobles, slave-traders white— Stars came down with a fever; they fell as cold, white particles. all these traitors to human beings, this crowd of tyrants— Clearly, Montreal did attract a slanderous benediction of fire, marking it a plush tomb, under aureoles of smoke. all needed to be toppled from their thrones, or dragged from horseback, or drowned in the reek of the sea, To these monsters, you’re a rancorous, cancerous beauty— a valentine of thorns. But you defined them, all humid-mouthed, as anuses dripping shit. You voyaged across prodigious saltwater to be condemned to serial impregnation, and drudgery. They accused you of burning down Montréal. Oui: There’s a wash of ash in your eyes. Finally, fatigued—like all martyrs, worn down by insults and blows, you accepted to exist in the sovereignty of flame, to render Montréal an inferno, and then be immolated in turn, to turn into a bonny bonfire, a flock of sparks. I say that you represent an overhanging fire— or set aflame: Torched! Yet, Beauty doth humble the universe! Liberty should not require dying. the sun! [Puumala (Finland) 7 août mmxii] ottawater: 10 - 19 coNtents Jean-Jacques Dessalines Vs. Jean-Jacques Rousseau Haiti, 1802 Our black world is still too white in parts: Thus, Generalissimo L’Ouverture hesitates to tear open pale puppy throats. But their blood is only blood— red— yes, but not worth as much as Merlot, Malbec, or Shiraz— the infinite intoxication of definite reds…. Aye, relentless “Savagery” is politic. What use be “overprepared regrets”? The French did not regret in casting chains for us to make their sugar and rum. They still don’t regret. My dead mama used to croon their songs. I mean, she used to sing—like Sycorax—in her chains. But our owners, who liked to chat about Rousseau (with verbose obesity the vice of bourgeois reactionaries) had aptly zero appanage1 for her— no sense of deontology2: No, to them, she was one more “succulent virgin,” “Ginger that smells like lavender,” and, lastly, an “evil-eye bitch.” Je suis enfant du viol— I’m the offspring of Rape— of the libidinous prodigality of illicit “gods.” Now, I’m their predator, never dithering, and kill the Europeans like a cleaner tossing out garbage. 1 French: Profitable inheritance. 2 Ethics-based rights. Pain is good for a laugh. In 1776, when the Yanks yanked free of Britannia’s yoke, Massa thought my mama his mistress. He come, take hold of her mouth and chin— like a jockey inspectin a horse— and just spat a cud of tobacco into her maw, that straightaway ser her vomiting. The dude carved sculptures of whipping— his enlightened teaching— then bent us down to grub out crops— crack boulders into pebbles, or chop down palms to put up sugar cane. We split paltry, dirty grain; we divided patchy garments. We crimped from spasm’d Pain; we cooked rat-like varmints. Boss staged non-stop orgies— boozed-up damnation— every Sat’day night down to Sunday nausea. I’m glad now to revive the style of that cardinal Catholic, Torquemada, Saint of Torture, and tease les grands blancs with brimstone, not treacle, a serenade of knives, and revived, antique horrors. In my work, this independence war, heads burst open, eyes look like cunts, people turn into maggots; each overrun mansion blazes, eating up portraits, playing cards, tobacco pipes, volumes of Rousseau, and my insurrections leave decapitated statues, cathedrals yelping, pink meat gone smoky, and the gangrene detritus of the sea— and old fish and maggots. Should I be a sunny, singing “Ethiope,” or as misanthropic as insects? History curses all. Even the sun’s a bastard of History. One must, at times, replace butter with pepper. That is my duty— unto the serenity of eternity. I ink my “X” in Creole: —Janjak Desalin [Paris (France) 12 juillet mmxii] ottawater: 10 - 20 coNtents Stewart Cole The End of Fashion In search of unchanging vogue. After all fur was faux. Between emplotment and spontaneity, the sweet spot. Silken robes dredged in mud-honey. Wilsonic endless summer. That breathable bodysuit becomes her and him and her—but not them. UV-resistant muumuus for the plebs. Sleeve la revolution, the social event of our season. Next year in velour again. Abolished belts cannot be loosened. Commonsense dictatorships uniformly decree: I style myself into we. By: ARPi ottawater: 10 - 21 coNtents Anita Dolman Dylan at the gallery Colour wicks the cotton, dark as a heart, the redness of mud and mercy captured in pools, shivering streaks of gold abounding. Vivid, I say. When a colour is this bright we call it Vivid. And you, not yet four, repeat and gaze with me. This is beauty, I don’t say. This is a moment I hope you remember more than others: The winter sun extending the open white walls, each stop a new opinion, a moment’s curtain call through another’s eyes. Shiny metal, crashing waves, Salome and Icarus in 2012. This is what I would give you if I could give you only one point from which to set out. Past the anecdote of you touching the first painting with your mitten, scaring us all before I pulled you back by the collar, no physical evidence of contact visible on either of you, but that you wanted then so fiercely to see the rest, tugged us along each hall until you were satisfied that you had seen each work of art in the building. Vivid is the day I would give you to remember, if one day you wanted to remember how searching began. Ode on the important work of finance ministers Any vessel once paid tribute will eventually be made to pay. With not a drop of pleasure unevaluated nor a spot of conscientious work remaining to be done, the holiest of mammals, all honest pay docked, go plodding on for the gods of measure: euro, euro, drachma, dollar, penny, penny, ounce of flesh. So the means to an end becomes the means to a means with no end in sight, mass decapitalization, the inestimable devaluation of human currency swiped away at by the open palm of the OECD marking its dirty streaks along the factory windows to block out the frustrating and lingering fantasy still holding up the ticking of the shift clock. Finance ministers beware or be damned, the true origin of economy can yet be discovered in rebellious flashes— proffering glimpses of light from the edges of trade as it dangles high above the cubicle walls, tied to the long chain of the past: bound, warns the IMF—certain, as ever, in its certainty— to become entangled and to obstruct the important, computerized machinery designed to turn humans into pennies and pennies into nothing at all. ottawater: 10 - 22 coNtents JM Francheteau Hiding Under Kindling After Lewis Black Lesson 1: “fire fuck ball” Lesson 2: “fire Begin Test. Say 42 years before I was born, that godblast reversed into a fungal hiccup, time-release capsule drawing back into the B-29 womb like a homesick yolk. While comedians discuss our imminent demise, bubble dark beer. Say no one asked my opinion; my balls dropped when they dropped. On the anniversary of Hiroshima, buy lottery tickets. Say Bikini Atoll without tittering; Say I stayed in hock, paid taxes, pumped gas. Say I had sex, and if the world had ended then, well. Join the new old faith church, state: Battered against a blackboard, bones would make a sound: a) like your third grade teacher snapping her fingers in your ear fuck – Lesson 3: “fire – Regard the zombie’s TV shuffle as a chance to renege on Uncle Sam. b) like a bowling ball striking pins c) like anything else d) discard like, anything else Write dying like my parents did under “Goals” in your agenda. Say the sky changed, but my shoes didn’t. Say THE END with caps-lock on but mind that gap between knowing and / the thought hovering on the expletive shock: “fireoh, fuuuuck...” never arriving at that final sphere of understanding. that when the teacher’s bones finally clatter in the glowering ash, there will / we will / still be children, huddled safe under desks. ottawater: 10 - 23 coNtents Richard Froude They Do Not Come Back for James Because the day wore heavy on the sky so close I paced upon the cracking sidewalk among the buildings and first leaves of autumn where the roots push through pavement and they do not come back. In the elevator the building manager and it is awkward as we would often chat but recently have had so little to say and then last week he lost his temper so we just stand there in silence and besides they do not come back. And home at the Oval Australia reach three-hundred for the loss of so few and the young off-spinner has had a day he would rather forget but there is only ever one first day and if anything can be said for progress then at least it finds a kind of comfort in rhythm though there is something startling in the way Australians pronounce debut so it matches the French salut and no they do not come back. On the radio she describes the dead taken to a warehouse, arranged in straight lines their faces frozen in expressions of surprise and I suffer this symmetry and this wailing and the secretary of state condemns those responsible with a voice that is broad and is deep and my fellow Americans, they do not come back. So today when I drive I drive too fast and I run lights on amber when I should have slowed down and I am lost for what to say as he will not come back because they do not come back and he is gone and he is buried deep in the dry earth deep enough that no light will find him no light of any color only darkness in the middle of the day which is how we know what we think we know so well: they do not come back. ottawater: 10 - 24 coNtents Meetings I go to meetings. I have been to three today. In the first, I learned that although I can accept things beyond my control, it is natural that I still want to fix them. After all I am a man and us men, I learned, we like to fix things. Each morning I sweep the cat litter from the laminate floor into a neat pile. I use the dustpan and empty it into the trash. I do not each much for breakfast. I drink coffee so I can fill meetings with talking. I get anxious that I am talking too much. I make jokes. I say ‘you know how I love the sound of my own voice.’ Then I keep talking. It is the kind of self-deprecation appropriate to meetings. I am learning to nod, to express myself more clearly with eyebrows. This silence builds a flimsy kind of tension. A joke can lighten the mood. We sit across tables or on couches. These are our usual locations but sometimes there are meetings on the internet. I log on. I type hello. The person I am meeting is typing. They type hello. Now we are meeting. Today between my second and third meetings, I learned that someone I knew had been dead for three years. She would affect a bad British accent when she spoke to me. She killed herself by drowning. Lots of people had written to her on the internet and each of them missed her. Some found creative and interesting ways to express this. Others left only drawn hearts or things that made them seem vulnerable in ways I never let myself appear in meetings. I cover these things with language. I cultivate the sound of my own voice. There were concentrations of messages around her birthday, around Christmas, on the anniversary of the day she died, as if these places were small cities, and the other outlying messages were houses at the side of rural highways, places where you would not expect to find people. But the people were there, at the side of the road, throwing words at their friend’s death the same way I throw words in meetings at my own discomfort. They all missed the woman who had drowned, much more than I miss her because we weren’t really friends and I had not thought about her for many years until today when I found out she was dead. I have many meetings planned for next week. I will close out this week with several more. Please don’t be alarmed: I am in a meeting right now. I am pretending to take the minutes but instead I am writing about meetings. Every few seconds I look up and make eye contact with somebody. It doesn’t matter who. The act of eye contact is important in meetings. Vulnerability is important too, just a little, not too much. I try not to wear my discomfort. I drink coffee. We sit across tables or on couches. I pour words into the rifts between us. I type hello. I sweep the floors. I drown with the words. I go to meetings. Soft Focus Watercolour/Sculpture - 2013 Mat Dubé ottawater: 10 - 25 coNtents ottawater: 10 - The Answers The notebook was red and full of the worst poems. The telephone was blue, bluer than the jeans. The saxophone was gold, its case lined with blue fur. The jacket was black and leather. I want to tell you that the top button of his dress shirt was fastened but I don’t know. I can’t remember. And I don’t know how the movie ended because they called us into the smallest room so we could be present while they administered a shot through the IV in her leg and after the shot she made no noise and did not open her eyes. The dinner plate was beige and would spin in place like a record. We told each other it was magic. The scarf was only grey. The zip sweater was green and had pockets. I gave it to you because it was too cold for what you were wearing. I don’t remember why you were leaving or whether it was morning or evening but I know there were small holes by the right pocket where the dog had jumped the year previous. And now the dog is gone and the sweater is gone and in the department store I saw my friend who had adopted the dog when he was just a month old. She was selling shoes to a woman with wide feet. She told me again that the dog was gone and I did not think of you or the sweater. The country was also green, in many shades, as seen from the windows of the plane. The handle of the blade was brown, much paler in the places where you held it. The first two years were a kind of orange, at least that is how I remember them. The cat was black and splayed on a sterile table, her legs flat in front, a position I had seen no animal adopt. She was two years old. On her right leg was a tiny bandage where the veterinarian had attached an IV. The smallest room was white. I asked the veterinarian if it was possible that the cat had eaten lilies, had been poisoned in some way that was a result of my own negligence because I could not understand why a body would just stop working. The vase on the counter was green with a floral design. The unopened mail was mostly white. The lilies were purple and pink. I wanted my negligence to be responsible because then something would be responsible. And the veterinarian said no, it did not look like poison. And I asked her why. The questions were pale and weightless. Why did the cat’s organs stop working? Why did this happen? And I realized as I was speaking that I was asking the veterinarian why it is that things die, why it is that we lose things and I knew she could have no answer, and she did not. The questions have no color of their own, the way pure light is a concert of everything we can see. The sky was impossibly white. I felt its weight. The answers are impossible because they refuse this light. The bandage was also white. Her eyes were mostly closed. They suggested we wait in a larger room near the entrance. There were many magazines. A movie was playing. There were seats upholstered with hydrophobic plastic and in the movie Nicholas Cage was wearing a white dress shirt, blue jeans, and a jacket. The answers are solid and dark. 26 coNtents Elisabeth Harvor LITTLE TOUCHES 1. Question What is no safer than faith But much more exquisite? 2. Answer The cup of the hand Cradling air Just below the hand Of the other Its constant pleading to God, reduced to cool Tips of fingers Taking, in tenderness, The pulse of a thumb. Ariane Beauchamp www.arianebeauchamp.com ottawater: 10 - 27 coNtents SARAH HATTON TENSION dock chain clinking you watch the veil dance of light on the surface fever water restless, you stir your desire liquid inhibition stretched taut you undress, heart in throat, feeling nature's every eye on your skin burning you plunge snap the tension gasp pulse cools you wear the river its gown swirls around you the current hushes your mouth weeds brushing ankle toes find silt fish stare light bends to your shape breaking the surface again you emerge wearing the moonlight Amphibious 3. Oil on panel, 2013. Sarah Hatton Surface 6. Oil on panel, 2013. Sarah Hatton ottawater: 10 - 28 coNtents Jenna Jarvis junk food: for me, after the boy i liked in high school lansdowne park after dark soft grunge is an oxymoron. the sky was grey as ice-cream-scoop-water but there was nothing soft about when you’d haul a walkman onto the bus loop tracks around his house for half an hour of yr life snug&smug condos sprout like boys’ poetry without stanza breaks or indents. because you really loved that bmx boy. yr friends laughed when he sold out and you wanted to buy his dickies shirts. you were so far gone that you squeezed gouache onto a sugar bowl smashed it and called the pieces “stuckism on him”. but a million years in youngtwentysomething time will try and teach you better than hey, let’s get married in a doughnut shop/in Portland you’ll listen in at karaoke nights: the only boy who could ever reach me was the son of a richer man. ottawa prole-creeps upward/unlike vowels; our occupants build isoglosses between the AAVEs and AAVE-nots. some people will tell you that the redevelopment was built on (the backs of) an indian burial ground. other folks know that the park is the killing floor for working-class self-determination & for a new brunswicker whose last words as he hit the concrete were oh chiac or something along those lines. we write and unsettle and make signs for the scaffolds reading DIY and GFY. despite their coffeehouse backdrops (this ain’t eighteenth-century france) our meetings are called workshops for a reason. we know that this is a dé-nous-ment. ottawater: 10 - 29 coNtents Exchanges with a Weasel *** you need to quit waiting for a hawk who’ll seize you by the heartstrings I’m at home. mum wants me to live in my childhood bedroom forever like leda and the swan he tells me. you need to grab the rabbit by the nape he says while his mouth is full of military-grade filthy Anglo-shoelace and French leather. He is a saboteur until I’m good and married. I can’t claim any space of my own here I tell him. But there were Communists and no potatoes I insist. I was squatting on the toilet on my period *** having a red scare he asks so I said his goatee made him look like a douchebag anarchist which was kind of rad as far as greetings go. YOU’RE A BOY WEASEL THERE ARE THINGS YOU JUST DON’T GET GET OUT *** still I imagine that furry freak in National Geographic *** when he prised the door open which was kind of harsh as far as insults go You can’t just talk about blood and his sort of deal in the Nineties.) sometimes there is more than a and b that’s true he replies and i am a loanword an interloper. He crept from my sleeve in an east-side bar. This dirty weasel called my friends a bunch of Brian Mulroneys (There were words here sounding from like 1722 but I’ve repressed them. posing, with his tiny fist punching the cold air. how did the magazine freeze that movement? perhaps they couldn’t perhaps my eyes need checking becuz they don’t belong. YOU NEED TO GET OUT RIGHT NOW your blood type is b he reminds me I remember the editorial photo taken from the Crisis MY BLOOD IS GETTING EVERYWHERE GET OUT of whitey versus the Mohawk with his balaclava and fuck-off stare b-blood is not from Turtle Island it is most frequently found among Eurasian nomadic peoples and Roma and i think i love that weasel more than canada. THIS IS NOT A DIALOGUE THIS IS GODDAMN EMBARRASSING ottawater: 10 - 30 coNtents N.W. Lea Ten Lines Ten More Lines My stomach churns. My eyes close and I see the prose. I needed to take the edge off and so now the edge is off. All my cells are whispers. Things become nicely irrelevant. Now I’m tired and less enthusiastic. I finally understand nothing. Winter is coming... a dreaded neighbour in the night. In the night, vague branches gesticulate. Wind rattles different metals. Din, croon us one, I think to myself and smile privately. God, I’m clever; hopefully that’s close to grace. Evading pain like a master of disguise, my eyes wade through the crystal mist. A wolf licks the window. ottawater: 10 - 31 coNtents 50 days Marisa Gallemit e: askmarmar@gmail.com www.marisagallemit.blogspot.com ottawater: 10 - 32 coNtents Anne Le Dressay Defragmenting Dispersed I watch time pass. I bought the mug at his first show. I liked the shape—tall, with a solid base and with a thumb rest on the handle. I bought it for the thumb rest and because he’d made it. I remember he said he liked the color (a yellowish-green, like autumn leaves in transition), and I, in my unfortunate bluntness, said I didn’t, but I liked the thumb rest. I still don’t care for the color, but the mug has been a favorite for over 30 years. I bought it to use, and it has a few chips to show it hasn’t sat in a display case. I think of him every time I use it, and I remember how, when the news of his death fell out of an envelope, I thought instantly of the mug and of how he is dispersed now among all the things he made, and part of him is with me—his thumbprint on that mug for as long as it survives. I look out the windows of coffeeshops at passersby or at the progress of clouds or the swirl of leaves or snow or dust. I look out my own window at familiar trees whose details I will never fully learn. I watch squirrels groom each other on the neighbour’s roof. I watch the rivalries of pigeons, the greetings of dog to dog, or neighbour to neighbour. I watch the moon, the rain, the changing light. I watch time pass. In the slow descent into sleep, I watch the thoughts that chase each other in frantic circles, or that flow from shape to shape in mellow rocking motions like music, like choreographed flame, that eventually will waft me all the way down into sleep, where time alters. I watch time pass. It is its own occupation. Heartbeat and thought slow down. Those parts of me that have scattered during the intervening hours find their way back. Splinter joins to splinter, fragment to fragment, a quiet re creation. ottawater: 10 - 33 coNtents Brief Commentaries 4 a.m. Glass house Rick sits on the porch across the street whenever weather permits. He keeps an eye on the comings and goings for as far as his gaze can reach. When the weather keeps him inside, he watches from his big bay window. He is a one-person neighbourhood watch. My front windows are tall and wide in three directions. Before I lived here, I used to look at this place and think how I would love to have a room with windows on three sides, to live in light and air like that, to live in a piece of roofed-in sky. Now I do. I live in weather and the seasons with more of my life than ever before. Light and air wash through me, and under their touch, I let go of long-held tensions. Rick used to shovel the snow, mow the lawn, clean the stairwells in this building before he hurt his back. He knows what my home looks like, how I place my furniture, that I have hundreds of books. He knows what time I leave for work, what time I come home. He knows the red car that brings my white-haired lover. Sometimes I feel the probing eyes of the street and I think of stones and shattered glass. And then I think of Rick, watching, and the stones stay put. The birds are awake. So am I, though less inclined to sing. Y Things That Curve and Curl Hair ties itself in knots all on its own. So does any cord or cable that’s long enough. You never catch them at it. You’d think they’re alive, but secretly. Y If cameras steal your soul, the surveillance cameras that watch over even our residential streets are bleeding us to shadow. Y ottawater: 10 - 34 coNtents First Meeting Even before she speaks, I don’t like her name, her clothes, her glasses, her nose. It’s no surprise to learn (when she does speak) that I don’t like her. Y A week before I travel, I have anxiety dreams Yesterday’s poem Reminder to self: would have been No matter how exciting your day, no matter how good your stories, about folding dozens of sheets and pillowcases as a way to peace of mind. Y Sometimes you step off the beaten path, about losing the airport. and all you get is a new angle on somebody’s manicured lawn. Y Y nobody wants to hear all the details. ottawater: 10 - 35 coNtents Misty It’s too soft to be rain, but it’s not nothing-this cool caress from the air you walk through. Moments of Weather Rain in January is indecisive, its mind always on the edge of ice. Y The late snow came down sloppy, already weeping its death. Now it drowns in its own salt tears. Shade tree in the urban heat: cool hand on your fever. Y Y Tonight leave the window open. The cool night air is silk. Y Y The leaves rust and fade into fall. Y Isolated snowflakes drift from a pewter sky, scouts for the coming invasion. ottawater: 10 - 36 coNtents Michael Lithgow Rabbit sheds Small white blossoms appear in lawns like soft cornets announcing Spring beneath the tresses of trees embossed with sticky buds like alms of erotic ornament, and the weightlessness of being brash for a change and not pressed down by pennies and vows fills you with tendrils of lust like a wind that carries your feet along unbound. Inexplicably, you know your dreams are rusting in the rabbit shed, and you want to burn the cage to the ground with inspired theatrics like an exorcism. You wonder who else was succumbing to a dulled fate before they sensed the weather change, the rhythm of craving thrummed incessantly from leaves and mud. The sound of rabbits escaping snares and ruts. Lifting fish I laughed tonight while making soup. My hands were specked with the mush of herbs just chopped, and dusk was ruining the day with its sifted ash. When I dropped the dead fish in the pot I thought of you — of your longing like a terrible wound, like an ill-tempered wind ripping apart a sailcloth. Such vision so lifted my spirits I collapsed momentarily with a knife in my hand laughing like an asmatic, because such wondrous spectres of your wasting (certain fantasy, I know) helped make my solitary observance of your absence into the best soup I’ve had since I saw you last. ottawater: 10 - 37 coNtents Sneha MadhavanReese Berea On your way from one coast to another, on a whim, escape the Ohio Turnpike. A long-gone summer: paths I biked along the Rocky River, Midwest small-town streets, and the house where I used to live, its number painted on a rock. Drink tea with my white-haired old landlady, unwrap gifts she keeps handy for unexpected guests. Now, beloved, one more place that once was mine alone is also yours. Theseus Lives On Oil Acrylic Paper on wood Anthony Tremmaglia www.saatchionline.com/anthalia ottawater: 10 - 38 coNtents Karen Massey 12 Erasure Poems Carved from Email Sent by the Ottawa Public Library Notice Subject: Nice Ottawa Blue Tuesday Wednesday, April 18, 2012 4:49:18 AM Canal town-Friendly American hybrid: Rilke requests, please visit poet’s market. Pick up quest is ready: please dress in red or sins and maple branches or lust you hold small songs & silences calm coy suns a northology of old lumber heads and doves. 10 Feb 13 bold plans, a broken thing, roses calmed by sunshine, book favorites, rye, hope, randy stories and Bach. A clam. Hold art, your angels agaze: starry, embraced. Beauty heals requiems, readies questions your incipient sorrow serves hones healing with the most vital treatment for everyday problems. Serious disease, fragile health start in a numb eye. 18 Oct 12 16 April 13 ottawater: 10 - 39 coNtents Notice: Danger redline Biblical Subtle Weather Beware icy stairs, stares you and your red animal eye, Mon ami, end is coming. red autobiography of childhood, sins, all demon and angel, We would like to remind you of the upcoming duet for wings. Don yours. We say October, dreams, a lost friend. Remind of the upcoming wind. O, you butterflies beguile. 5 May 13 searching for inspiration, rich reward, red moth to flame, red sound on the page, voice in red. What is amazing: Hear Christ. Rise, heathen, and check our new Bible series. aged red-eye aces duel, respond to red questions and contact, At last, you are the intended recipient of His notice. Please reply red riots, red sorrows and pleas to His message. Advise. 22 April 13 Art. Hurry dull umber light, simple solutions, everyday gifts. Real rain, dour pale cloud ossuaries in stolen air. Selected poems, slips meted and translated by induction, by sky. 29 Sept 12 24 Oct 12 ottawater: 10 - 40 coNtents ottawater: 10 - September Psalm Apis stark marker Consent Breath lives In every riven thing, Christian man or maniac, A spring grass fire. I sing to remind you of the bees; corona face, drone pearl arc, a royal numbing curse. A revolt. A system for rapid phobia, anxious order and more bee memes. Amber words, raw sword bees becalm the writer who stayed. please, no sad questions Call me forty years of good books, call me bad sound, eco-tom tom, call me mall ghost, math prude, a rude rat. Respect harrow & harvest. Sound alive. Sing now, the local cluster, Limn the possible On key. 24 Sept 12 Known for quests in formation. heartbeat (a map of red ore) open field (temporal, induction) home (burial, grail) 8 Aug 12 Call me red pear memoir, laundry, due, call me dream dreamer, indy porn doll, call me off the page and everything else. Call me pop, rock, ideal sound, call me space, in chains. Call me water, an encounter, tide and shore. 24 Feb 13 Honey flowers. Raw honey hives. 13 Apr 13 Comment I receive a lot of email from the Ottawa Public Library automated system. These poems are from a series of erasure poems which use these emails as source material. Each poem is derived from a separate email. All poems, including titles, contain only letters and words culled from each email in the same order as the OPL email. Punctuation is mine. karen.massey@yahoo.ca 41 coNtents Justin Million Everybody Into The Pool, With Grace Brother’s come on over, he’ll stay as forever long a beer takes. My sister’s nursing Henri then tucking him in small sheets and he shouts because the bed is kid death and nothing beats being awake shitting into oblivion. Little changes. Sleep’s ill shaped away, no girl to bounce off or at least no kind one. Doctor says my left foot gone ottawater: 10 - Light, Light Friends understand before noon I can’tScotch on the porch by christmas light, mind a covenant of exes. I’ve been with enough girls to give complication its due praise, not enough to ever make the first move on new onesI hope they’re all ok and still consider my fingersTara sees her analyst. Leah drinks. How pain makes adults of us allEveryone loves the book I’m not writing. I will be heroic later. I have borrowed Cameron’s typewriter to write why- numb because the Drink makes me sleep in an old chair beside Maggie. Maggie’s tore up Lisa’s above ground pool finds me in summer, afloat in a purchase of sky. I am vicious to myself; the hardest year on record and whiskey in the water- the grass being greyhound, chewed all the dandelion; she’ll itch and foam an hour by the water. I like to think that these will be our lean years, Maggie With midnight into AM drives another chink out my sentimental links. No one with me at the drinking game. A good man can’t save a good man- and I, and I look to Maggie now- Morning birds have clearly never tried quitting drinking- She has it bad; hips, liver, and a rescue’s nerve. She likely won’t see next August, gone down gnawing. I wish Mark and I would stop, fallen in to the tall cans arguing over Maggie’s being, I say, right here, I say, she’s a bit of that fur of the world now you can only see in the sun and that goes on and on and Mark checks the light on his bare arms, lifts them toward the backyard window curtains that are usually open- Guest bed lusting solo. Autumn Sundays, nothing moves but change. I like that. Other people think I drink well: one for the eulogizersThere is one good picture of me. It’s in the scrapbook I made for Leah. TakenFind that. 42 coNtents Colin Morton Ceremony Absent belief ritual keeps us. Twelve-step programs to get out the door. Snap-click of routine. Close encounters with familiar menus. The slow breath of day week year. Crust that feeds when the fridge is bare. Refrains repeated put us to sleep and in dreams, the eternal return. Inbox Replay Charcoal- Photograph-Digital on Wood Anthony Tremmaglia www.saatchionline.com/anthalia ottawater: 10 - 43 coNtents Andrew Oliveira Luncheon Little topographic shapes below Ringed lines, narrow and wavy Cold drinks leave rivers and lakes Spilled ketchup a new volcano Bits of a sandwich looks like little towns from above What would those streets be made with? They must use the cheese for comfy chairs And paint toothpick fences No wars would be fought if we lived there United under a blue foil flag Of the sandwich village my crumbs have made A content land with crisp lettuce beds and other odd places to lay our heads Scott Fairchild Creepy Go Lucky ottawater: 10 - 44 coNtents Roland Prevost Time’s Gag 1. 2. In dissolution, salt appears to disappear. 3. Conversation grows a nicticating Rear-view mirror. Our final sentences That’s how people wither to zero. membrane. By reflex. A viral neglect lack form or density. Fashionably Years without words: neither sounds sets in and expands. Photos pored over dressed in false history. I hear a movie’s nor alphabets. You run out. Of touch. for evidence, justifiable proof of infection. full soundtrack, minus our voices. The fall so much easier than the climb Journal entries, pages still breathing: Birdsong in the background, maybe gives havoc its delusions of power. rigor mortis nibbles at extremities. water. Something gold flips away. ottawater: 10 - 45 coNtents Bonus Levels 2. 1. There’s a tall box around this game. 3. Un-decaying bodies of the toon dead 4. There’s virtual ammunition for sale Resolute as migratory birds heaped in a corner of RAM. at schoolyard kiosks. we fly through this strange country. Until garbage-collection subroutines Long line-ups, alienated queues Wrap around each other It’s hard to look away. mop away every bit. Of evidence. chat among themselves. at night when we’re spent. In dim rooms screens flash, hypnotize. All reason, to mourn. A one-upmanship parade of weapons, armour. We’ve lost count Junk food supplies all necessary fuel. Some imagined place, this tallies up. Inside it, creatures spawn attack from land, sea, air. which level this is. Their bodies quiver Behind it, nothing real survives this doing together. with unspent attention-deficit. ottawater: 10 - 46 coNtents Adrienne Ho Rose Archaeology Scar Wolfhill Mason’s drags and mason’s marks and other lithic measures in the rock. Our geometry across the field of ruins trampling squill, a goat’s horn rotted a weed wreath, rust cans and other rotten shapes friable and temporary. Agios Georgios lit up on the hill. Cactus pear, agave, and the air of caresses. See the lights of Attica holding still? On the plain a thousand shielded cthontic spots spring up. Mardonius’ cavalry lines the Gargaphian fount. I blink a field of yellow grass and rocks, heat lines of flies and formidable cowpies. The temple of Hera is a cicatrix of schist. Our fanning-out walk scours the dust for exactly what phalanxes of the mind’s eye scuttling in unified armour. There are a thousand rocks and capes a thousand untrammeled submarine volcanoes. I see quite simply we are two, three, in lumbering ambulation tracing the masonry of each other’s fortifications. A stray arrow spectres by or a buzzard, or horsefly. At the geological marker: Rock. Rock. Stone. Spot. Hands upon a curve of stone hand upon a hand alone an asymptote, no mark on stone which, unlike the wall, was not rupestral. A wind passed, and I buried it. Plataea, 2012 At the altar of old-school, Aphrodite’s will, burnt pine, charred bones, a statuette undresses. For others, Agios Georgios lit up on the hill. Ash in the garden, in the fount stonefill, votives inscribed with reasonable distresses. The little lights of Attica keep holding still. We uncover shadows in fragments as we do in excavation, with glasses and laughs, red walls and red wine splatters. I offer this phiale and smoke from its spill for a yes, for yeses, a holy aureate thrill. The women long and the men wear dresses with glances, near misses, a slung leg, Orionid’s kisses. Vesper bells from Agios Giorgios lit up on the hill hold the little lights of Attica very still. Lykavittos, 2013. ottawater: 10 - 47 coNtents Aigosthena is for Lovers “Hobhouse rhymes and journalises. I stare and do nothing,” Lord Byron A flummoxed scrap of windswept flag when you are around I am not. Whirled up, the gulfwater hurls itself splash by splash upon the rocks. We sit, silhouettes on the shore, and watch it. The cats have persimmon fur, birthmarked noses and behold the same scrunched feral gaze. They eat a soft brown pear and leave us alone. The Amstel is years old and still we drink it. You drink it while I eat a pear and the spot on the horizon is a pirate ship set upon besieging. 6 February 2013 Night of Your Visit to the Oracle “For Greeks a blush—for Greece a tear.” The Isles of Greece, Lord Byron The soft warm reconnoitering of wanting say this person on the floor. Or this one. For example disembarking from your hoodie in the acropolis museum to discover yourself lashed in a gaze. For example looking up from a plate of figs to the up-down shimmer of irises, a flash wink. What people call making eyes. To the ancients lowered eyelids signal shamefastness. The demure flutter that precedes exchanged voltage you know / yeah I know ottawater: 10 - 48 coNtents FALLDOWNGALLERY ottawater: 10 - 49 coNtents ottawater: 10 - ArmAnd GArnet Ruffo From The Thunderbird Poems Norval Morrisseau loved birds, and heard and told many stories about them in both English and Ojibway. In his paintings humans are constantly changing into birds, indicating movement towards a high plane of existence. While in jail in Kenora in the late 1960s for disturbing the peace, he entered a province-wide prison art contest and won first place with a painting of loons. Four Loons, 1968 L O O N L O OOOOOnLoooooooonnnnn==LoonLOoooONLOONLoon M A A N G MaaangMaAAnnGGmM A A A A A A aa n n n G G gMaang LOONlO O O O 00oN 0 O L ONLOOdddoooooononononononoLooooonLOoN M a a n g g g MA m a a n g g maangMAAAAAAgMaanggMaANg M Norval Morrisseau did this painting in honour of his grandfather Moses Potan Nanakonagos, the man who taught him the traditions of his Ojibway people. By now the artist is drinking enough to kill himself and, in an attempt to heal, he joins the new-age religion Eckankar with its emphasis on past lives, dreams and soul travel. 50 coNtents ottawater: 10 - II The Storyteller: The Artist and His Grandfather, 1978 I Knowledge passed on. Daebaudjimod Grandfather Wise man Story teller Debon Spirit of Winter A time for the telling Manitous. Demi-gods Gathering. Listening In the arms of Grandfather Thunder Epingishmook Winohah Mudjeekawis Papeekawis Chibiabos Nanabojou Listen! The rattle of bones in the trees The flying skeleton man Paugauk Listen! The scrape of claws on the rock The flesh eating cannibals Windigo Listen! The imprint of scales in the sand Misshipeshu. Listen my grandson! They all around you Inside you. A baby’s conscious Connection Original thought Ancient belief Medicine Dream Six layers of Creation Four for the Indians One for the Whiteman One for the Creator – Legions of Spirits Grandfather Thunder spirit guide Transformation ECK New Language for a New Age Six Worlds Becoming Seven Planes The mind’s eye Energy at the subatomic level. Karma Psychic state. HU. Love Song. Breath Soul Travel Child becomes Shaman. Child becomes WoMan The colours of healing Red Breath. Pink Breath. Orange Breath Yellow Breath. Green Breath. Baby Blue Breath Midnight Blue Breath. Turquoise Breath. Violet Breath. Purple Breath Arrival: the House of Invention. Thought by many to be Norval Morrisseau’s greatest painting, Androgyny is stunning in its beauty and imaginative power. By the early 1980s, Morrisseau was seeing his visions translated in largescale canvasses, and for a while he worked out of an old train station in Langley, B.C., where he crawled over the outstretched canvasses on the floor of the huge space. 51 coNtents Androgyny, 1983 ottawater: 10 - Untitled (Thunderbird and Canoe in Flight, Norval on Scooter) c. 90s four panels assembled into one 366 x 610 cm canvas laid before him a room dwarfed barely able to contain his vision the imagining of scale comes in brushes unfolding a reverie of paint on white sky water earth canvas astral universe consciousness eck portal plane inner outer body spirit strength courage fertility fidelity patience perseverance grace endurance elegance benevolence brother sister uncle aunt father mother grandfather grandmother marten loon fish bear clan eternity discovery transformation totem human anishininabe animikibe bahnasik midewiwin grand medicine society good hearted ones jiissaskid shaking tent wabino medicine mikinak nokamis pinasiwuk mukwa meeguyn ginebik mishipeshu mitigwakik manitou tobacco sage sweet grass cedar tree flower flight memory whisper butterfly joy north south sunrise sunset child shaman elder east west soul sun moon stars river nipigon sandpoint sandylake beardmore family love land history drum rattle rain story tradition of remembering elders tobacco spring fire prayer pipe ceremony power sky thunder lightning eye wind wing beak claw sight touch taste feel hear imagination message messenger language symbol colour hue value intensity so vivid the dreaming hurts his eyes wakes him in the middle of night By the end of the 1990s Norval Morrisseau found himself fighting Parkinson’s disease and confined to a wheel chair. Although he did not see himself restricted to the earthly realm, his hands shook uncontrollably and he struggled to paint until that too was finally taken away from him. hefindsheismadeofbone acageofboneandheisabird insidethatcageabirdtrapped inboneathunderbirdwhoismute whocannotsingforthelifeofhim abirdwhoisblindandcannot findhiswaytoriseupandfly awaythoughallhislifehehas preparedforthismomentso whenitcomesitcomesasacompletes urprisearevelationbecause itcomeswhenheleastsexpectsit andittakeshimacenturyortwoat leastitfeelsthatlongtorealize whatiswrongandthathehastoletgo letgoandbebeonewithcreation letgoandhavenofearnofearof whathispeoplehavealwayskn ownthatthereisanartolettinggo anarttolettinggoanddying andmovingonandmovingonon 52 coNtents ottawater: 10 - Tim Mook Sang a portrait hunt club, or a case of suburban sprawl the sinking of the BX just outside of the city, hills form the valley pools of water leftover from the melt wow the story i can tell probably the same one as you of a new home and you’re the only one who knows it it came to nicole’s understanding that the riversteamer ran back when those kinds of boats went up and down the fraser hauling cargo and people and card games with jazz blowing off of their decks across the water and into the trees of the surrounding forest that made the city milled from swampland they removed the trees but planted new ones and it looks better, at least more habitable described by a bus route number 144 b/t johnson and bank southbound the pockmarked trees and nineties’ renovated craft homes southeast end becomes southeast she came to understand that the vessel sank in 1919 under mysterious circumstances at an infamous rock after which the ship had failed to be salvaged spending the lonely winter weighted by a hundred tons of bagged cement that had hardened in the water before the frost like the ship had wanted to stay early August and we wanted to leave the bowl I took us in my Caravan, past the streetlights the hills are a green-backed lake monster the entrance is a street sign Forests for the World under the canopy of trees I imagined it was night myself as Goodman Brown, with significance people paths or bear paths the only differences here are names like Robert Bateman with every freckle and hair to proportion I thought you were painting me you said take in the view from a snowglobe greenspace in dimebags neighbourhood kids unique flakes plastering snowballs on the side of a city bus it seemed every northern city had a BX pub or hotel that used the sternwheeler for namesake every place that anyone had ever been had places like these trying to preserve their heritage anything that made them unique 53 coNtents jesslyn delia smith with hands cement this is how they remember themselves, our selves, three hundred days later we used to never know the sunset, lost it as it lost itself behind the silhouettes of tractor trailers on an east-bound country high way, eighteen wheelers setting on the off-ramp, towing with them remnants of a day already past. an exposed pipeline in dirt, a wrong turn. holes where my eyes had been once, and were; yours on the nape of my neck, with your hands, in gananoque a winter so long no spring ever came, no summer bled into no fall the better parts of my dead skin land in your hands because there is no other place. every place that there is we have been to already, breaking cement, chipping the streets on our own. ottawater: 10 - 54 coNtents D.S. Stymeist The Sanitarium Garden3 At St. Remy the artist resided For a time with other madmen. The flat of the brush applied Over and over, building up A pattern of distortion and wave. The trees move with this wind, They shudder and wildly rumba As if they had some spirit within. The leaves, red and gold, aspire To float up into the seething sky, And the dark-green cedar ends in a taper, Pointing up towards the way of flight. Two ill-proportioned tree trunks, Ugly jade-purple, snake their way Up the painting: bars that hold us in And frame the garden fires. 3 V incent Van Gogh admitted himself into the Saint Paul asylum at St. Remy in May of 1889 and was released in May 1890. One of the many paintings he made during his residence was “The Garden of the St.Paul Hospital.” Scott Fairchild Creepy Go Lucky ottawater: 10 - 55 coNtents Priscila Uppal Survivor Cosmic Idol A millionaire is shot. And his wife. And their unborn child. Revenge selects an arsenal of weapons. Each week he must adopt a new style and out-wit, out-sing, out-dance, out-ham his competitors. Armies drawn by lots construct arguments. Leaders rise like tanks and airplanes. Gardens plant anxious roots. Gossip punished by banishment. The pace exhausting: early-morning and late-night rehearsals, bickering of choreographers; Goodbye beautiful youths. Perhaps you would like to marry a sweet blond or bouncy brunette before the bullet rounds. Perhaps you would like to use a lifeline to mail a letter to your attorney, or ask your dear old mother for advice. Each week, ten thousand foot soldiers are served faulty gas masks, ten thousand more must give up their limbs for tent pegs. The challenges get crueler. The prizes stranger. The confessions more predictable. Nations text their ballots into the trenches, go back to genetically modified dinners and genetically modified cares. As soon as a commercial break calls truce, the fan website nearly crashes from all the orders for bright red poppies and T-shirts that read Never Forget. then to have to put up with the snarky British judge, the washed-up diva, the pop producer with the three-word vocabulary, as well as the schmaltzy commentary by the over-friendly host. Orpheus curses how he got dragged into this business in the first place. To attract an agent? Free publicity? The chance to prove once and for all that, given the platform, he could bring an entire planet to its knees? How is it he’s found himself in pancake make-up, fussing about his hair, the cut of his jeans—how the fabric fits snugly around his classic ass. Will he be hip with the kids? Down with the guys? The bomb? A musical score conducted by strobe lights. Three-headed monsters guard the gates. Was it a woman he was wooing? An old friend with a chronic cough? His childhood basset hound? Behind the curtain, amid confetti, a shadowy figure calls to him. Oh, please, he begs, let it be my next hit song. ottawater: 10 - 56 coNtents Temptation Island Live At the Anchor Bar Henry keeps falling in love. What a problem! What a hit among the lower classes! Saturday night. You can’t go to Buffalo without stopping at the Anchor Bar. Pay homage to Dodo and Icarus: the origin of wings. Bring your best appetite, and pull up a seat. A mob surrounds the coast’s circumference angling for a glimpse of a lace ruffle, the whiff of a cigar, the sounds of string quartets or actors’ monologues for the aphrodisiac of courtship. Gold, gold; palace sets all painted in gold. Whole crews employed solely for the purpose of spreading aristocratic fever. Do you love me for my money or my charm? The question wafts along the waters, at times answered truthfully, at others submerged under sugar cane and sapphires. He must choose another wife. Or someone must die. Behind his crown Henry smiles, nonplused, having scripted this scenario before after tasting half the lips of England. Off with her head! Off with her head! It’s hard to say who leaked the information first. Even before the episode aired, the cheer was catchy. Buckets of buffalo wings dipped in five famous sauces—mountains of fried flesh sacrificed to the altars of Dodo Green—spurting sex and bluesy misery going on sixty-four years in a silver sequin dress. Too heavy to walk comfortably, let alone fly, Icarus blames his father for never teaching limits, for abandoning him to make difficult decisions at vending machines, for toting home meal after meal of take-out. The prize: a six-month supply of suicide. While Dodo crosses herself on her rum and coke, Icarus dreams of inventing bottomless intestines so satiety will never finds its way out. Icarus’ fat fingers bloom behind the birds and the frenzy of his fellow contestants—the cheapest thrill this side of paradise—stacking bones in the middle of the table for Dodo to break into wishes at the end of the night. ottawater: 10 - 57 coNtents ottawater: 10 - The Amazing Race I IV VII XI Bored atoms leaning against dimensional walls kicking up a fuss. Bang, bang. Countdown to extinction. This episode, gods spread like lice. If you are feeling homesick rest assured you are not alone. The vast majority of the planet is nothing but a series of loungers at the boarding gates of time. Thrill-seeking finds its own routines. Press a button and old surges reinvent themselves. A kiss is still a kiss. If you can outwit diseases, maximize resources, purge toxins, bank memoires, pawn off your undesirables on the locals, and have enough left in reserve to sprint to the finish… you can vanquish your enemies and one day realize your dream of owning a Cadillac or opening a vegan restaurant. IX XII At his juncture, four out of five teams are forced to apply for new passports. Average wait times are anywhere from five seconds to five lifetimes. The world turns according to: Lists. Lists. Lists. How is it after all these legs and pitstops, after all these fights and miscues, our fates are nonetheless forever entwined yet we still don’t have anything resembling a clue? Instead of cutting off the plague at the roots, we attempt varieties of cleansing. II Cave-dwelling couples copulate. The continents begin bickering. Rates of drift rise. III If you can get your hands on an accurate map, you are so ahead of the game. Doubly so if you are quick at picking up languages. Or if you know someone famous who will lend you a boat. The trick is to plunder with purpose, land agricultural punches, haggle into power. (And kill Indians.) If you can get your hands on sugar or coffee, you are so ahead of the game. Next week, there will be fewer competitors, but more puzzles and brain teasers. V Finally, the arrival of guns. Now the wolves will separate from the lambs. VIII VI Trade a Christian for a Muslim. Trade a hooker for a doctor. Trade a rickshaw for a parachute. Trade a donkey for a Malamute. Trade a prescription for an anthem. Trade a watch tower for a bulldozer. Trade a poem for a pendant. Trade a bar stool for a bazooka. Trade an orphan for an orgy. Trade a human for a city. Watch the stocks rise and fall. X After much fierce debate (and thousands of ritual killings plus other sanctioned bashings) the legal definition of a couple is changed. 58 coNtents Heard you Cry Oil pastel-Acrylic-Photograph on Wood Anthony Tremmaglia www.saatchionline.com/anthalia ottawater: 10 - 59 coNtents Will Vallières January, 1992 A Civic Poem September, 2000 Each of us was our own ugly version fleeted in fresh flannel and brand new Doc Martens Panic the day with incessant report We drove around nights listening to Kid A in your father’s truck as if the thing didn’t run on gas, as if the kilometres added up to no distance but more distance – money for when we’ll start wanting things for real, wanting a place for ourselves in all this or how the future was brilliant and bright and free – not the edge of something dark coming to become a middle with time – the edge but unconcerned with it like a fly is with the shadow of a cliff in your father’s truck in the night driving on we listened to Kid A as if things weren’t connected Nevermind brooding from bedroom corners, doors locked shut – our individual rage keeping everyone out but us A nineties pain How long it took the spring to reach our shattered ground – the length of side A and the length of side B Tape ribbon worn dumb Busy, the city busied consensual Hardcore tenants inclined for the job And the snow and the snow completely regardless ottawater: 10 - 60 coNtents Gabriel WainioThéberge FOLLIES OF THE EXPLORER 1: SILVER CASCADE, NEW HAMPSHIRE The rail at the edge of the highway is nothing to a single step of the stony stair stitched with weaving water, a carpet of water, ridged with crannies, up down up down back forth like the motion of stitching, woven by the rolling woven water. High steps the hill, high to the hazardous hump. Mist overshadows the overhang, hiding from sight the leap of its height. A path slips away from the plateau, where water weaves under rock, and from the molten softness of sand, the inconsistencies of rock, melts water onto the stair’s next step. Over it hangs a unique darkness. It is hard to see a tree’s height ahead or whether those are pebbles, or white toadstools. The emerald mountainside, dimmed by rain is littered with birch bark, like uprooted roots or white dandelion stalks. That is how thin they seem against the next step of the stair, where stair becomes cliff and carpet becomes cascade. Though by water’s reckoning, the fall is first, then the step-by-step, the stitching. The sidewise striations of the cliff, the strips of foothold too far removed for single footsteps to span. To advance, opposite the water, man has to get out his hands and climb, the mountaineer’s form of kneeling. The path, marked off with a wooden sign, a stutter in the throat of a deserted trail, is a rockslide waiting to happen. Unable to understand the height, the hand that stitches, the mouth that utters the waters, unable to kiss the gargoyle with our bare feet, or clasp a jewel from the crown of the mists, at last we reach the best place for understanding, and stand. ottawater: 10 - 61 coNtents ottawater: 10 - Matthew Walsh A Joni Mitchell in Pieces 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. It don’t matter if I speak freely, sing supreme, do pop-wheelies or smoke to tighten the blood, to keep my Players Extra Long, light up in a torch song, hit the bong and fly over purple water over white snow. It’s human, all to human an eternal recurrence to have snow then flower, drink Alize, then shower beachcomb through a day, and make singing pay. What it was it would be, (if you need to slip through Nietzsche) in the spectral shades of naked day sipping on a cold Blue Bombay, a woman shaped like a lyre in a dream that every ear would nestle up to hear a kernel of her thoughts. And we assume the myths pulling back the husks to get at the real cream of the praries, how the rows and rows are filled, everything sold out as we are pulling back the cover and sighing pulling out the silk and leaving what’s important. If you burned through the good book, slow and smooth, could you forget snakes can’t stand or that a brilliance in a heart, can relax in the dark, in the blue what it was, it will be, to marvel in smooth rooms, and listen to see a sun turn away from a throat simply glowing. 0. Falling into her hair of that long hair that long silk hair silk hair. 62 coNtents Deanna Young Rêve peuplé d’animaux Le grand ménage The nights get later the longer I’m here. The thoughts get darker. At 2 a.m. I pull up the covers, sink into a dream An unfamiliar collection of rooms in a dream of putting the house together. Finally, we could start living. of a cat with glass in its mouth. I’d asked you to remove the shattered window from the living room floor In fact, it was just an apartment. Like that first one on Clark in Montreal but not. but now the cat we don’t have is making a meal of it. About which time the computer in the study logs off loudly You worked on some rooms while I worked on others but somehow it all made sense like a horse whinnying. My mind snaps open like a hatch. The bathroom light I’d dimmed so precisely before bed —like luck when it comes. We threw a lot of stuff out. It was easy— the windows were open. is now off. The white hare I’d caught in the headlights earlier, as I drove up the lane at dusk with groceries—who vanished smartly into the woods in his smart waistcoat— has managed somehow to skirt the alarm and now sits on my chest like he owns it, refusing to get off. ottawater: 10 - 63 coNtents Helen Crossing the Field Dislocation No one else is here and yet I close the drapes to dress. The bearded woods are inviting. Never go there. We wade through wind, crossing the field to the neighbours’ to help kill roosters. You cannot see into them more than a few feet. When the sea calls to you, Walk on me, I am frozen, turn away. I tell you, yesterday The sky a white-capped sea. There were two houses, ours and the house next door. They had separated our house from its foundation in order to move it onto the foundation of the other house: the phone rang twice then stopped. I’m amazed at Helen, living all those years alone on the North Mountain, firewood piled to the rafters in the shed, cat often in hiding. Who knows what peering through the window while she bathed. Now her beauty as great as the night. Later, the sinister chase, considered chop. Long dip in boiled water. They’re lean as November beneath their salt-and-pepper feathers. ottawater: 10 - the belly of our house being ripped open, its bones shattered and ragged torso lifted from hundred-year-old haunches—hand-set stone three feet thick—onto the concrete rim of the other house (now missing). Clearly, it would not fit—our house was too grand, too heavy. But still the move was necessary. And us, spattered by the end. Heading home after pumpkin bread and oily tea, plastic bag twisting as it bumps my leg, the heavy warmth, first snow laid out like cheesecloth over the hardened ground, I meet up with the right moment in my life. We nod as we pass. In the backyard rhubarb rose up in a jungle of stalks flailing at the fence, desperate to get over, tarpaulin-sized leaves funneling crashing rain into roots now gushing like severed veins and everyone shouting—foreman, workers, neighbours, us— over the roar of the machinery—What’s that? I can’t hear you! I said I can’t hear you! 64 coNtents Still The black horse stands perfectly still in the rain as we come up over the hill, our heads down. A sodden blanket covers his back. When the Maple Fell October 22, 2002 in full fall regalia, it rolled its drums across the lane, a marching band on fire. Unreal, you say, like an iron statue. Even as we near the fence and call to him softly, he gives no sign of being alive. Years and many moves later, he is still there in the paddock down the road from what was our house. It’s still November, raining, and we’ll soon be rubbing our hair with a towel in the kitchen as the kettle creaks to life on the stove. Like an education, no-one can take this away from me. Neighbours came with cameras, birds with eulogies that went on for days, a fitting wake. Arborists armed with chainsaws left its rain-black limbs in five-foot lengths about the yard—a battlefield swamped in fog, ten feet of its trunk still standing: Art. Each leaf a campfire drawn by a child. Each key an eyebrow, thinking. The house will mourn the longest its friend of few words, shadowy companion. Hardwood will redden the woodstove the next five winters, easy. Planted before airplanes, before the Romantics, the tree never travelled though it knew a million starlings, waltzed alone ten thousand windy nights. ottawater: 10 - 65 coNtents There Country Music Everything that happened happened there. The barn across the road with the magazines the boys fed on all summer like wolves returning to a kill. Only the children knew they were there, in a partitioned room in the loft, and the men who’d stashed them. Swallows trapezing the circus tent below. And the hay wagon become a ship—the frenzied leaping from its gunwale into a crawling sea. That summer of the broken rib, land of a father’s mercy long gone from the horizon. On shelves in the basement, jars of pears and peaches, organs in a lab at night. And the ringer washer there to lean on, grandmother in a minty dress. Bed tucked in the corner under a high-up square of muted light giving onto thistled lawn. Electric mower, bite of lightning charging up her arms and the cord dead in the grass, a severed snake. Twenty-dollar bill, leaf, shifting on the uncut grass ahead. Twenty dollars a hundred back then. Balm of praise laid like a hand on her head when she carried it in, butterfly by the wing. Wait till they see how honest. The thought somewhere quiet, in the murk beneath the bed. In every childhood there is a place that matters above all others. A place that made us, good and bad. Now listen up all you A-holes who couldn’t make it with the missus, who ran off, got down on your luck, did time, came crawling back, begged forgiveness then did it all over again. Fuck you for singing your suck-ass songs up and down my childhood hall. For the nap he’d take after on the couch, going down like the winter sun as the last twang faded and the hurt bars of silence clanked shut. Holding us all prisoner till black-windowed dark and supper. The hours he dreamed of horses with two heads or being dragged through a forest by the feet and who knows what other horrors he could never tell anyone about. ottawater: 10 - 66 coNtents ottawater: 10 - If a Door Opened ottawater 10: Artist statement I What would it be to stand at our own window on our own worst night of the year, looking in? Being human is hard. Our brains are big, which is great for problem solving but can lead to excessive thinking at the expense of intuition. And we need our intuitive powers big time to be able to cope with the duality of light and dark, good and evil, which cannot be fathomed or grappled with by thought alone. Thank god for art. Poetry comes from this intuitive, instinctive level, and reading and writing it is one of the best ways I’ve found to cope with being human. Think of all the brave houses, shouldering darkness and rain. If a door opened, would we enter? II Kindness sits by the window smoking, her pale flesh swelling like bread dough in the August heat. She shrinks at the slam of a car door. Kindness has been so sad for so long, no one wants to be around her. III We’re rich, she said, we have each other. Now, we laughed at supper. Uncontrollably sometimes, a woman and three children. We took turns falling off our chairs, we were so bloody happy. Alive is a better word. This seems like a good time to mention that I am extremely reluctant to say anything about my poetry or writing practice, mainly because I want to contradict everything I say as soon as I say it. However I’m usually interested in what others have to say about theirs, so fair’s fair. The poetic form feels natural to me and I follow my instinct to write it in a natural way. So my style is, I suppose, a plainspoken, narrative lyricism. For me, the discovery and surprise that are essential to poetry come through the poem’s revelations. My intention is, antithetically, to let go of intention and let the intuition lead. At the same time, I want to communicate with readers so that’s where deliberation and craft come in. And right there might be a contradiction, or just a question of balance. After the initial spark, or poetic impulse, I don’t know where the poem will go, or if I think I do I’m probably mistaken. My role then is to be curious, brave if I have to be, as intuitive as possible, and to let the poem guide me. But I must know when to push a little, too, to say to the fledgling poem, Be honest, go for it; even if it’s heading toward a dark place, which is often the case. Then I must be ready to follow. As a writer, I’m not a heavy thinker. I’m not much interested in theory or poetics, which is why I didn’t pursue an academic career. Language is where I live, not something I want to explode. My yearning is to interpret the soul’s muffled voice, not to explore the machinations of language or thought itself. In terms of subject matter, I’m preoccupied with how to make sense of human suffering at a personal level. Jack Gilbert’s “A Brief for the Defense” ponders this beautifully. So does Don Paterson’s “The Lie.” Musicality is important to me. A rhythm might be established in the first line (breath), a diction or tone might come in from some influence I can’t always place. After the initial beat, I feel like I’m following the piper. Then it’s important not to be overly guided by sound and lose sight of meaning. I think of sound as thread holding the poem together but in a subtle, almost hidden way. 67 coNtents ottawater: 10 - author biographies: Sylvia Adams is the author of a novel, two poetry collections and a children’s book in verse. She is owned and operated by an all-white cat named Tulip who hates sharing the computer and gets her revenge by sitTING ON THE CAPS LOCXKMWEJXRU Cameron Anstee lives and writes in Ottawa ON where he runs Apt. 9 Press and is pursuing a PhD studying Canadian Literature at the University of Ottawa. John Barton’s ten books of poetry and six chapbooks include For the Boy with the Eyes of the Virgin: Selected Poems (Nightwood, 2012) and Balletomane: The Program Notes of Lincoln Kirstein (JackPine, 2012). An eleventh collection, Polari, is forthcoming from Goose Lane in 2014. He lives in Victoria, where he edits The Malahat Review. Stephanie Bolster’s latest book, A Page from the Wonders of Life on Earth, was shortlisted for the Pat Lowther Award, and an excerpt from her current project was chosen as a finalist for the CBC/Canada Writes competition in 2012. Her first book, White Stone: The Alice Poems, won the Governor General’s Award and the Gerald Lampert Award in 1998; her first chapbook, Three Bloody Words, appeared with above/ground press in 1996. She edited The Best Canadian Poetry in English 2008 and The Ishtar Gate: Last and Selected Poems by the Ottawa poet Diana Brebner, and co-edited Penned: Zoo Poems. Born in Vancouver, she teaches creative writing at Concordia University and lives in Pointe-Claire, Québec. FALLDOWNGALLERY Frances Boyle’s poetry and fiction appears in The New Quarterly, Vallum, Arc, Prairie Fire, CV2, Fiddlehead, Room, Freefall , Moonset and elsewhere, including previous incarnations of Ottawater, and in anthologies on form poetry, Hitchcock, love poetry, and daughters remembering their mothers. Prizes she’s received include This Magazine’s Great Canadian Literary Hunt and Arc’s Diana Brebner Prize. 68 coNtents ottawater: 10 - Heather Brunet attended high school in Ottawa and now lives in Montreal. She is an undergraduate student at Concordia University. Elisabeth Harvor’s most recent book of poetry is An Open Door in the Landscape and her most recent story collection is Let Me Be the One, a finalist for a long ago Governor General’s Award. Sara Cassidy is proud to have work for a second time in Ottawater. Born in Ottawa, she roamed far Jenna Jarvis is working toward a Master’s degree in English literature at Carleton University. Her and wide and now lives in BC, where she is artistic director of the Victoria Writers Festival. Her fifth novel for youth, Skylark, will be released in April, 2014. Her poems and short stories have appeared in Geist, Qwerty, The Malahat Review, Prairie Fire and in the chapbook Sardines (Greenboathouse Press). www.saracassidywriter.com poetry has most recently been published by PHIL, S/tick, and Conduit Canada. She is the winner of the 2012 John Newlove Poetry Award and released a chapbook with Bywords, titled The Tiger With the Crooked Mouth, in October 2013. George Elliott Clarke feels that he´s finally getting his big, brassy, Africadian voice to say exactly what he wants. The poems here are from his epic poem in progress, “The Canticles.” Part I--Dialogues on Slavery--should appear in 2014 from Guernica. His newest book of poetry is Illicit Sonnets (London: Eyewear, 2013). Stewart Cole grew up in the Rideau Valley south of Ottawa, and now lives in Wisconsin, where he teaches at the University of Wisconsin Oshkosh. His poems have appeared in a variety of publications across Canada including The Fiddlehead, Prism International, and Riddle Fence, and his chapbook Sirens was published by Cactus Press in Toronto in 2011. He also regularly reviews Canadian poetry on his blog, The Urge. His first collection, Questions in Bed, was published by Ice House (the new poetry imprint of Goose Lane Editions) in 2012. Anita Dolman is an Ottawa-based writer and editor. She lives in an Ottawa-based house with her Ottawa-based spouse, their Ottawa-born son and their Gatineau-born cat. Anita’s poetry and fiction have appeared throughout Canada and the United States, including in Grain, The Antigonish Review, Peter F. Yacht Club, The Storyteller Magazine, PRISM international, Utne, and the anthology Decalogue: ten Ottawa poets (Chaudiere Books, 2006). She is currently finishing a manuscript of short fiction, which, against all odds, is largely failing to be based in Ottawa. JM Francheteau is a rural transplant based in Ottawa. 2013 publications included poems in CV2, Bywords and The Steel Chisel, as well as a chapbook A pack of lies with Dog Bites Cameron. His hands splotch red, blue then orange in the cold. Richard Froude is the author of FABRIC (Horse Less) and The Passenger (Skylight). He was born in the UK, lived in Ottawa in the late 90s and currently calls Denver home. N.W. Lea lives and writes in Ottawa. He is the author of two chapbooks, light years (above/ground) and Actual Girl (The Emergency Response Unit) as well as the full-length collection, Everything is Movies (Chaudiere Books). Anne Le Dressay has published two poetry books, Old Winter (Chaudiere Books, 2007) and Sleep Is a Country (Carleton University Press, 1997). She has also published frequently in print journals, most recently in The Antigonish Review, and has poems forthcoming in Prairie Journal. She has also published in e-magazines, most recently Curio and Ottawater. She lives in Ottawa, where she is happily retired from the public service. Michael Lithgow is a post-doctorate research fellow at McGill University, Department of Art History and Communication. His essays and poetry have appeared in academic and literary publications including the American Communication Journal, ARC, Contemporary Verse 2, The New Quarterly and The Fiddlehead. His first collection of poetry, Waking in the Tree House, was published by Cormorant Books in 2012, and shortlisted for the Quebec Writers Federation First Book Award. Work from this collection was included in Best Canadian Poetry 2012 (Tightrope Books). He currently lives in Gatineau, QC. Born and raised in the U.S., Sneha Madhavan-Reese has made Ottawa her home since 2009. Her poetry has appeared most recently in The Antigonish Review, Branch, Descant, as a Leaf Press Monday’s Poem, and in her chapbook Some Things With Certainty (Phafours Press). Her manuscript Observing the Moon, from which these poems are taken, was a finalist for the 2013 Alfred G. Bailey Prize. Please visit www.madhavan-reese.com/sneha Karen Massey lives and writes in Ottawa. She has one chapbook, Bullet, and her work has appeared in varied Canadian journals and anthologies. In 2013, her poem was long listed in the Geist 2nd Annual Erasure Contest. She and her family live between the canal and the river and two branches of the public library. karen.massey@yahoo.ca 69 coNtents ottawater: 10 - Justin Million is an Ottawa poet. His work has appeared in ottawater, sassafras, The Steel Chisel, In/ Words. Million has also been lucky enough to have two books published by Ottawa’s Apt. 9 Press. Colin Morton’s books of poetry include Dance, Misery (Seraphim, 2003), The Local Cluster (Pecan Grove, 2008) and Winds and Strings (Buschek, 2013). He is a co-director of the Tree Reading Series jesslyn delia smith currently lives in Ottawa, Ontario. Her latest chapbook the grass is a yard now, again was published in October 2013 by Apt. 9 Press. More poems and updates can be found on her blog at jesslyndelia.com. and co-manages the Poetry Views review site at http://poets.ca/reviews/. D.S. Stymeist currently teaches Renaissance Literatures in the English department of Carleton University in Ottawa and has published a number of poems in Prairie Fire, A/Muse/Me, and Bywords. His essays and reviews have appeared in journals such as Studies in English Literature, R & R, Cahiers Elisabéthains, RQ, Mosaic, and Genre. He is presently revising a novel set in the Canadian West in the 1970’s, as well as a short collection of poetry entitled Lexigon that explores the intersection of language and history. Andrew Oliveira is a young writer who is currently strolling about Ottawa. He spends time between his writing entertaining his cat Atticus, worshipping his muse and partner Barbara, saving virtual worlds from a plethora of crises with the power of his thumbs, and dusting his unused diploma from the University of Ottawa. He has been published in Bywords and is thrilled to have his poem in Ottawater. Roland Prevost’s poetry appears in Arc Poetry Magazine, Descant Magazine, The Toronto Quarterly, Dusie, The Ottawa Arts Review, Stone Chisel, The Bywords Quarterly Journal, The Peter F. Yacht Club and Ottawater, among many more. He has four chapbooks: Metafizz (2007, Bywords), Dragon Verses (2009, Dusty Owl), Our/Are Carried Invisibles (2009, above/ground), and Parapagus (2012, above/ground). He’s also been published in three poetry collections by AngelHousePress: Whack of Clouds (2008), Pent Up (2009), and Experiment-O (Issue 1, 2008 online). He won the 2006 John Newlove Poetry Award. He was, for a few years, the managing editor of seventeen seconds: a journal of poetry and poetics, as well as poetics.ca, both online. He studied English and Psychology at York University and the University of Manitoba. He lives and writes in Ottawa, Canada. Dr. Priscila Uppal is a Toronto poet, fiction writer, memoirist, essayist, playwright, and a Professor of English at York University. Among her publications are nine collections of poetry, most recently, Ontological Necessities (2006; shortlisted for the $50,000 Griffin Poetry Prize), Traumatology (2010), Successful Tragedies: Poems 1998-2010 (Bloodaxe Books, U.K.), and Winter Sport: Poems and Summer Sport: Poems; the critically-acclaimed novels The Divine Economy of Salvation (2002) and To Whom It May Concern (2009); and the study We Are What We Mourn: The Contemporary English-Canadian Elegy (2009). Her work has been published internationally and translated into Croatian, Dutch, French, Greek, Italian, Korean and Latvian. She was the first-ever poet-in-residence for Canadian Athletes Now during the 2010 Vancouver and 2012 London Olympic and Paralympic games as well as the Roger’s Cup Tennis Tournament in 2011. She is currently a member of the Adrienne Ho Rose is a doctoral candidate in Comparative Literature at the University of Iowa. Her poems and translations have appeared in The Antigonish Review, Arc, Circumference, Denver Quarterly, The Malahat Review, The New Quarterly, Ninth Letter. These poems were written during a nine-month residence at a foreign archaeological school in Athens, Greece. Natural Resources Creation Group at the Factory Theatre. 6 Essential Questions, her first play, will have its World Premiere as part of the Factory Theatre 2013-2014 season. Her memoir, Projection: Encounters with My Runaway Mother, on which the play is based, has just been released Publishers and is currently a finalist for the $60,000 Hilary Weston Writer’s Trust Prize for Non-Fiction and the $25,000 Governor General’s Award for Non-Fiction. Time Out London dubbed her “Canada’s coolest poet.” For more information visit priscilauppal.ca Armand Garnet Ruffo recently co-edited a new edition of An Anthology of Canadian Native Literature in English (OUP, 2013). His creative biography on Norval Morrisseau, Man Changing Into Thunderbird, and a collection of poetry based on the artist’s paintings, The Thunderbird Poems, will appear in 2014. Excerpts have appeared in ARC, Bywords, EVENT, and The Malahat Review (2013) and will appear in Canadian Literature. He currently lives in Ottawa and teaches at Carleton University. Tim Mook Sang, a former-Ottawa resident, is now a schoolteacher in Montreal. He has been published in The Literary Review of Canada, Bywords Quarterly Journal, All Rights Reserved, Canadian Literature, In/Words Magazine, Jones Av, ditch, and New Fairy Tales. Will Vallières is a Montréal poet. His work has appeared in Matrix, Lemon Hound, The Void, and Weijia Quarterly. He went to high school in Ottawa and then spent two years working as a janitor on Parliament Hill and drinking too much. Now completing an MA in English & Creative Writing at Concordia University, he comes back to Ottawa once every season to visit his old friends and reminisce. 70 coNtents Gabriel Wainio-Théberge’s family first settled down in Ottawa when he was seven years old, having previously moved him around several towns and cities in southern Ontario and Quebec. He still “lives” there when he is not in Montreal, attending Concordia University for Liberal Arts and Creative Writing. His writing has been published in The Claremont Review, Vallum, Feathertale and The Red Line. He has been honoured to have the chance to work with Roo Borson, Anita Lahey and Karen Schindler, whose Baseline Press published his first chapbook, Small Hallows. Ottawa’s strange mix of city, country and suburb, by turns picturesque and unsettling, has had an inescapable influence on his imagination; so has the Literary Arts program at Canterbury High School, where thanks to amazing teachers and supportive friends he was able to get a head start on learning both basic and advanced techniques of writing. He is currently a representative of literary collective THE WORLD (theworldlit. tumblr.com), along with several other young Ottawa and Montreal writers. Matthew Walsh was born in Nova Scotia, Canada. He has lived in Alberta, Ottawa and Toronto. He is currently living on the west coast in Vancouver to attend UBC’s Creative Writing Program. His work has or will appear in Carousel, Zaum, Echolocation, and The Found Poetry Review. He was Geist’s Emerging writer in October 2012. Deanna Young is the author of two books of poetry, The Still Before a Storm (Moonstone Press) and Drunkard’s Path (Gaspereau Press), with a third book forthcoming from Brick Books in 2014. Her work has appeared in journals across Canada including The Malahat Review and Arc Poetry Magazine. In 2013 she won the Grand Prize in the PRISM international Poetry Contest. She lives in Ottawa where she teaches at Algonquin College and co-directs the Tree Reading Series. ottawater: 10 - 71 THE END
Similar documents
SIX - Ottawater
clothes die too? Or did some spiritual adhesive render their robes indelible – like red dye on a thief’s hands? One sun-scoured day, while walking in April snow, she sees a plane crash in a nearby ...
More information